What benefits can I expect from running Ascension as my priority sub in terms of changes in demeanor, attitude, mentality, etc?
A short reply since I’m at work. You will find out quickly who’s walking on you and will start to take back your ground
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Yes, I believe I remember reading in your journal about the ghetto bully or some such? 
It’s been awhile since I caught up on your journey though
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You have any insight into Ascension to give? I saw you used it again recently and liked what you felt after your use of ST1 of DR.
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You’re referring to a man I nicknamed “Ghetto Guy”. Which is amazing, since I was thinking about him today.
I just spilled out my thinking in my DR journal, and from a provocative article I read this weekend called "Are Americans Psychopaths?’, plus me running Ascension v.2 today, I thought about him, about my past thinking and reactions, and all the fear I tried to cover over with ego and bravado. I realized it was sad since I pointed my fingers at him all the time, but I was the angry person actually provoking him (I saw it since someone else pointed it out).
I wrote my reply here midday, and I’d been running Ascension for a few hours. But time and maturity (likely from DR) says “Was my reaction to Ghetto Guy the best response?” No, it wasn’t. I was quite unaware of my thinking. I just wanted to “win” my battle.
Thank God DR was introduced. Thank God I’m choosing to run it. It is affecting me, and I want what it’s teaching me to do. I think it’s teaching me to be kinder to myself by being kind to people. And to love myself by loving people. I even chose to tone down my impulse to “correct” my driver today. I found I was just being critical, so I held off a lot.
I chose Ascension originally since I was scared, not knowing how to protect myself. It worked wonders. However, I still felt old unhealed pains surfacing. I used Rebirth with it, and later Regeneration. Dealing with my core, over time, has changed my perspective. I don’t wish to hurt people since I’m scared–that has never helped anybody.
For myself, healing the impulsive, scared boy inside is the best foundation I could have for running Ascension. Because being masculine and being mature clash harshly with my prior beliefs of being…angry and scared.
It was just where I was at the time.
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I’m biased, but when I ran it, I developed a strong sense of self-control. It’s hard to explain. A sense of, “this is my life, you may only get once, so enjoy it.”
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Awesome, there’s certain things I would enjoy a higher sense of self control with so I’d gladly take that. Perhaps it was because of Ascension within it, but I noticed a greater degree of control on Emperor.
I would also say you’re probably qualified to give an answer, being one of the creators and all haha. Bias or none, your answer is appreciated. Thank you.
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Ya know, this line as well as the part on the sales page about discovering one’s life purpose are what I really want 
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I feel people confuse getting your shit together with being what’s called an " alpha male" . Huge difference
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I certainly have gotten it confused.
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I remember seeing your post from awhile ago about the fact that most of the so called alpha male types you’ve known or come across were actually insecure something something bullies, which resonated with my experience of the same lol.
I’ve met guys I could consider alpha and the only label I could give them would be self assured.
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P.S. no idea why I remember past post discussions that I wasn’t a part of like that lol
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