Def some movement going. Just smashed through that writers block I was having. Realized I was mulling things over in my head too much vs just doing it. I’ve studied a lot but I haven’t practiced. So in reality there a few things I’m good at, a few things I’m not. I have to make sure I focus on taking action more with the music vs worrying about not knowing it all. That’s where the growth lies, not more books. It’s like taking off the training wheels and telling myself ok now you have to figure this out on your own without guidance.
And then it dawned on me why I’ve been so stuck lately. No good decisions in life ever come from fear. I’ve been stuck in fear. Making the same fear based decisions, worrying about the same stuff. Money, jobs, time running out, etc. I’ve been in a loop of manifesting everything in my life I don’t want for most of my life. All because fear seems more real to me than great possibilities. And that’s because again, I haven’t practiced assuming the best for myself.
I’ve been frustrated I haven’t been able to get the full effects of the subs, but I see now how I was relying on them too much to automatically change my thinking. The reality is the subs were triggering more anxiety, which lead to more fear based thinking. At a certain point I should have stepped in and broken that up. My subconscious really only knows fear at this point in my life and it’s my responsibility to change that.