Day 1: Hello, the title above has been a progressive increase. I began with Ascended Mogul. This is my journal of personal context mixed with some results. I served in the military for 5 yrs, and just recently separated. I’ve gotten into transformative modules before, such as joe dispenza. Meditation that quiets the mind in my experience helps process the que and visualize applying what the subs are suggesting. I have Antisocial personality disorder, so dragon rebirth to me was a must.
When I started the subs I began with Ascended Mogul, instant results. I had been working at my employer for 1 month, when they basically forced a supervisor position onto me within the time period. I noticed people were either idolizing me via emails or how amazing I was or constant praise. Then they forced me to be a alternating manager on campus. I increased my income By $1000 per check. I prefer DDLG relationships and multiple of them, women were throwing themselves at me. I’m naturally awkward and miss a lot of social cues but this started to disappear with ascended Mogul.
Then I added emperor, with this sub I noticed more presence in myself. I work with alpha type men and they quickly tried to knock me down but I remained unbothered most days. When I would have an off day they would sniff it out and try and publicly drop my status with clever witty attacks and humiliation. Usually my off days are caused by caffeine…affects my nervous system and makes me extremely nervous. So I stopped the caffeine off and on to test. I realized I had dreams of water more often, which to my knowledge means the subconscious. I would be riding the waves, no fear but in a fun adventurous type of way. I had an epiphany shortly after that power and dominance is felt through a non reactive presence, when I do speak about something it has to be something worth speaking about. I became known as one of the best supervisors within 3 months. But something was stirring inside, dissatisfifaction, I began to feel that my job was beneath me and not worth my talents. Also it’s a mental health job and it requires compassion and I felt myself not caring about something I went to school to do.
I added Stark, I realized this sub changed how I perceived social dynamics. In a 48 laws of power type of way. It hit me one day when I was shift leading and among a group of women. I didn’t think I was acting incredibly funny or saying anything too charming but the women started laughing and giving me looks of attraction. But I was able to look at them in the eyes and read the behaviors and respond accordingly.
I added dragon reborn and noticed it got rid of myself talk. It just disappeared and what people said about me didn’t bother me. But this is when manifestation started happening. I started seeing the angelic number like 555, 1111. My ex wife begged to get me back and I began wanting to quit my job. About 20 days into these subs I hit a wall, with work it was as if something walked me down to the director and forced me to quit, I quit that day. Nobody could understand why and it was a shock. But I had an intrinsic feeling that I’m meant to be doing more. I applied to over 15 jobs and if I don’t hear anything by Friday I have a Manager in training position I was offered. I tried to rebuild with my ex wife and love her but the differences were apparent, I saw her for what she is and she noticed it and lashes out at me sending me a picture of my baby girl with another man holding her. I cried, listened to some dubs and fell asleep. When I woke up the pain was gone and she’s doing the whole rip apart myself esteem thing, blowing me up with texts and using everything she can to get a ride. But there’s nothing, I feel like I’m in control I told her I respect her decision making in men and I respect him for loving my daughter. We’re going through divorce and court will hopefully give me a level of custody but on the mean time I pay cs, we live in different states.
I got the motivation to write this journal and start working out as well. It was very unlike me to not care in my prior job. I’m curious to know if anyone has manifested greater things after letting go of others. I’ll try and do dailies. Chow
