What Does your diet, water, sleep, exercise look right now and what things do you do for catharsis ?
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Hey, this was the answer to your comment in the GLM thread. Hope it helps in some way 
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Your experience makes complete sense, and what youâre describing is actually a sign that the program is working - youâre just encountering deeper layers that need time to transform.
Whatâs Happening
Youâre experiencing what could be called âsurface joy with deep grief.â The program is successfully installing that âsubtle joyâ at the conscious level, but beneath that, youâre carrying what sounds like accumulated emotional weight from recent years. This isnât a failure - itâs actually valuable awareness. Many people canât even feel these deeper layers.
The fact that the joy fades by the third washout day suggests your system is still integrating the programming rather than it becoming your new baseline. This is normal when dealing with deeper emotional patterns.
The Path Forward
1. Honor the Timeline Deep transformation, especially when dealing with years of accumulated weight, isnât instant. The program is building new neural pathways, but itâs competing with well-worn paths of depression and self-doubt. Think of it like renovating a house while still living in it - you see improvements, but the old structure is still there.
2. Work With the Layers Instead of seeing the deeper sadness as something to overcome, consider it something to integrate. The Stoic approach isnât about eliminating difficult emotions but developing equanimity with them. The joy you feel on the surface is real - itâs showing you whatâs possible. The sadness underneath is also real and may need to be processed, not just overwritten.
3. Active Integration Practices
- Morning stillness: Start each day with 5-10 minutes of silence before anything else. This helps the programâs effects root deeper.
- Evening reflection: Write briefly about moments when joy arose naturally during the day, however small.
- Physical grounding: Regular exercise or physical practice helps embody the changes. The program mentions âThe Body of Stillness and Strengthâ - physical movement helps integrate mental shifts.
4. Address the Underlying Patterns Your desire for âsuccess, admiration, freedomâ suggests you might be seeking external validation to fill an internal void. This is exactly what Godlike Masculinity addresses with its âCease the Chaseâ principle - but it takes time to shift from external to internal validation.
Consider that true joy might not come from achieving more or getting admiration, but from accepting where you are while still moving forward. The programâs philosophy suggests that trying to escape your current state might actually be keeping you stuck in it.
Practical Recommendations
Listening Approach:
- Continue with the program but adjust expectations. Youâre in renovation, not decoration.
- Consider keeping a simple log of your emotional state to track subtle shifts over months, not days.
- During washout days, practice maintaining that subtle joy through conscious attention rather than expecting it to sustain automatically.
Complementary Work:
- Some form of therapy or emotional processing might help clear the deeper layers faster
- Journaling about what âsuccessâ and âhappinessâ actually mean to you (beyond external markers)
- Physical practices that build resilience (cold exposure, intense exercise, martial arts)
Mindset Shift: Instead of âI want to overcome all of this,â try âI want to understand and integrate all of this.â The program emphasizes that mastery comes through acceptance and discipline, not through force or escape.
The Longer View
You mention wanting joy to be at your core, âwhere whatever happens Joy will always be present.â This is actually the end goal of the program - what it calls âdisciplined joyâ that grows from order and alignment rather than circumstances. But this is advanced practice, like expecting to play concert piano after a few months of lessons.
The mixed emotions youâre experiencing arenât a bug - theyâre a feature. Youâre becoming aware of the full spectrum of your inner life. The program is giving you tools to hold all of it without being controlled by any of it.
Your journey sounds like itâs right on track for someone doing deep work. The surface joy is the beginning, not the end. Keep going, but pace yourself for a marathon, not a sprint.
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I get plenty of sleep and sleep is good (I sleep without waking up in one go) but I never wake up fully refreshed waking up it always difficult. Diet is good I eat a wholesome vegetarian diet, I do hatha yoga and meditation techniques but I noticed that expressing myself by talking is very good to release recon. Usually I can simmer in a recon phase for a few days and not move much I think it is because it is not acted upon or worked with properly.
It is weird because what feels like heavy processing and recon can suddenly âdisappearâ ENTIRELY after a situation manifests where it is worked through. Completely changing my understanding of processing. One moment Iâd feel heavy overload and lethargy, the next moment (after releasing the recon through action) I feel super light and like there was no load at all, ready to listen again.
But other days I have felt like I donât move forward at all for several days and like I am stuck in the same phase of recon it either being ignored or not assessed properly. Not sure why. Again I think the anti recon stuff is at work here right now.
I think each user has to built their toolbox to deal with reconciliation that involves both the mind (cognitive/emotional processing) and the nervous system (physiological regulation).
ways to process emotions and activate your parasympathetic nervous system. The techniques are organized into 10 major categories:
- Breathing Techniques
- Physical Movement
- Meditation & Mindfulness
- Water Therapies
- Touch & Bodywork
- Creative Expression
- Sound & Music
- Nature Connection
- Sensory Experiences
- Social & Relational
- Cognitive & Psychological
- Lifestyle & Routine
Like a play book
From simple quick hitters, routines , Blocked out periods.
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I am having the most crazy dreams lately but feeling constantly tired. No reconciliation necessarily just tired. Not sleepy. A different kind of tiredness that I usually have when processing. Donât feel like sleeping and am not sleeping neither do I feel like doing anything or feeling driven.
Feel like I am going through another huge shift in my life and this one feels drastic. I used to have absolutely massive clarity on life but right now I am stepping in territory within myself where I just realise how vast life is and how little we know, how much there is to be discovered and how profound of a transformation I am really going through.
And besides Spirituality being a full time job for me, to such extend that I literally cannot divert my path or focus on something that I am not meant to focus on, whenever I even try to go in a different direction it is just impossible. It is almost like I am being directed or pulled by something, a certain stream I have felt into that is carrying me somewhere, I have no clue where that it is but it I cannot get out of it anymore. Besides this one of the biggest priorities right now and in my life in the coming 2-3 years will be increasing my wealth and improving my finances so that I can have the full freedom to support my Spiritual path all the while being able to get the supplies I need and take care of myself in any way possible.
Anyone know how to delete this journal?
Edit: reason being is Im feeling of taking the backdoor and leave these programs behind for awhile. Reason being is that life is simply to easy and it is becoming to difficult and too complex with non-stop reconciliation that I do not understand and that puts my well being under pressure. I never had so much overthinking and mental pressure in my life. Constant thought loops about the same things. Unexplainable fears that donât make sense. Anxiety. Not always but always during recon which is the dominant factor for me when running these, sometimes goes on for days and weeks and doesnât go away. Its just too crazy for me. Life is simple no need to make it so crazy. I want to just be happy and enjoy which is simple â by not overexerting the mind and living in the moment happiness is naturally there. I constantly feel exhausted drained no will to do much. Yes overexposure symptoms but I barely use the programs even at microloops it is messy. Time to take the backdoor and throw out what doesnât work. Maybe with time my mind will change but this has been proven to me over and over. After awhile there is just peace, serenity, calmness, contentment, happiness and an ease of life that totally evaporates once I decide to run the programs again, and then it is a constant stress, difficulty, dragging myself through life to achieve goals that donât even matter to me at the end of the day. Outside results usually do manifests in a variety of ways but internally it is absolutely chaos especially in the mind, canât say much about emotions they usually feel suppressed most of the time and I donât have any grip or handle on what is going on so yeah. Not my cup of tea but I guess the journey has at least brought me some interesting perspectives. Might just continue with some more normal subliminal programs that are not so hard on my mind.
And above all if everytime I run a loop over 1 min very negative thought patterns manifests I donât see my subconscious changing, if anything my subconscious should be full of positivity, positive ideas, positive feelings, desires, hope, confidence, a feeling of success, dreaming of a new and better life, if none of that is happening I donât see change coming⌠ever. Instead it is recurring recon induced negative thought patterns that are programming me for failure. Because fears and other things that are constantly arising, restricting me and limiting my ability to create the life of my desires.
And I donât really feel myself going anyway basically. None to blame of course just the reality I am facing.
Still not closed I guess weâll leave it open then.
Not sure what to think of my sub journey anymore here but after some long reflection I am still quite unsure. The changes are absolutely there but life is simply not improving in the ways I want and it comes with so much unnecessary overthinking, thought patterns, stressors, desires, etc that I genuinely donât need right now.
Hummm yeah. Not sure what else to add. Going to probably contemplate on this for a little longer. It feels like I can active and deactive the subs at will. Now I took a washout and didnt feel any processing whatsoever nor did I feel, sense or notice the programs. Now suddenly my mind entered the realm of the programs again and first thing that happened was the old thoughts rearrising that come to me whenever I have recon which the thought that I donât card about anything and just a sense that I donât even know who I am anymore. It feels like I am far away from who I truly am causing some ⌠mmm ⌠What to say⌠Not really dissociation but just like feeling fully one with myself. Yeah not sure what to call it.
Confusion, overthinking, panic, stress, fear, depression and a complete unwillingness to do anything is what I get from recon which is almost always there in one form or another and it is just too much for me and I mainly run microloops so IDK.
Time to give it a break. Will keep this journal open for future reflection Ill just continue my journey as it is for now. I just want to manifest some very simple things in my life right now and these programs to me feel far to complex and go in areas of development that usually donât mean nothing to me right now but make them important. I think I can achieve these goals through far simpler means, so letâs see. I donât think that my thinking becomes so complex that none around me can even relateâŚ
I wish things where different but they are not so it is what it is. Certain subliminal influences I donât really align with somehow. Not sure what else to add the confusion set in the moment I started taking my mind back into the realm of these subsđ interesting.
As it is right now I am just not gonna listen to anything and wait for Rich Trader to see what all the buzz is about.
There are so many amazing things about these programs but then an entire list of downsides are there for me which are mostly mental and they are mostly there when I am actively listening, after 6-7 days it usually becomes less intense and it is not so much of a big deal anymore then I end up listening again and for 1-3 days ill feel like absolute trash. And it is consistent always there I donât like that and there are various others things like obsessively focusing or thinking on something and stuff of that nature.
Life is very easy. Happiness is very easy. If I donât focus my mind on bad things I am in a good state it is that simple but with recon I can feel hyperfocused on some nonsense and feel so bad for so many days on end and literally canât get out of the lingering thought trains.
Like one example is after I added Quantum Limitless I began compulsively watching documentaries. I donât need to have no interest for that my time is ticking away and I need to focus on my goals. It might have been recon but again it is just not what I need.
I am trying to gain mastery and have freedom over my choices and activities, being fully conscious and living my life intentionally with full choice. In recon that seems not possible for me right now and perpetual recon that does not get surpassed is not a joke.
It is also fair and worth mentioning that I have seen countless very positive changes and benefits from the programs I have ran here over the last couple months. There are just other struggles and problems that are not being dealt with and I feel changes are slow and take too much time I want to see big breakthroughs and I want to see my actual life improve not just internal changes which of course can be used for that but still.
This does not come from impatience it has been years already and I feel like life is ticking away, I am very focused on changing my life so I have to see somethings happen.
And then some other underlying issues and problems I donât see improving or conditions that are come when I listen to the programs.
Deep within I probably want to fully understand what is happening but this is impossible unless more information is provided about the programs I think.
Anyway Adi out!
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Today I am really feeling the effects of the programs and reconciliation is very moderate. I also feel like in the past few days I have worked through some deep issues and became much clearer on my goals. I donât know why exactly it feels like I am in constant overload while running the programs.
Only today I realised I processed and integrated the âstoic mindsetâ aspect from Godlike Masculinity. Took me like months lol.
GLM has provided me with a lot of benefits though I can see that now very clearly during this washout.
I am much clearer on my goals now and know what I need to prioritize in my life. One of them being wealth. I need to have 100k next year. I know it is possible for me I have the skills in trading to do so. All I need is focus, balance, stability, and discipline.
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And just the moment I said how positive and life-changing GLM has been for me the last few months, a dark cloud hovered over me and I couldnât stop thinking about how tired and exhausted I am of everything. The mantra I have held since the beginning of this journal. And I have ZERO clues where it keeps coming from it almost feels like an attack on my mind. I donât consciously try to think this at all In fact I try to ignore this but it feels like something is just trying to stop me from having astonishing results which is very easy for me. I am super receptive to subliminally induced change and programming but somehow I keep circling around the same âblockageâ which I donât even consider a blockage anymore but more like a curse.
It all began the moment a simple thing like the washing machine was not working and tumbled into a complete illogical recon thought stream. Which I donât seem to have at all, the moment I make the decision to take a complete break I had 5 days of just no visible recon at all. None of it.
The words and sentences written here are a reflection of the mind. The more I confirm that I am confused the worse it gets and this comes from inside. In fact I should take conscious control over this and say I have full clarity of the situation.
Also as this occurred I got an intense brain pressure and tension.
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So despite running New Alchemist and whatnot my energy blockages have not gone away. It also seems this blockage in my energy is deeply karmic and family related but the origin may be outside of the family it is just that it is tied to it.
My state of mind and being since practising yoga and running New Alchemist and Godlike Masculinity have been quite positive, balanced, and harmonious. However it has still been a constant fight against something that wants to constantly pull me down. This morning again I woke up completely blocked, my energy not flowing, difficult to think and confused and just a bad head pressure and tension. Did some sadhana and it would not release as I could not properly focus on my practice but after doing a certain mantra it improved by 70% and I gained the clarity to see where it was coming from.
It is a very big karmic web that my family is stuck in. They think I have ran away from them but I am so much better and happier without them. They are in deep darkness and have no positive attitude about anything whatsoever. At a certain point you just have to distance yourself to build your life up. This is what I did and Iâm happy with my choice. I can only support my family the moment I am free myself from all those restrictions they live inside. I love my family a lot but you have to think practical and approach life with a sense of wisdom. Sometimes it is just better to give it a break and go your own way. I am always there to help and support them if they truly need it and hold zero grudges. Want the best for them.
But yeah this karmic knot has to be untied because these energy blockages are restricting me and despite running Alchemist St1 for quite some time I have not resolved it.
Edit: 30mins later shifted totally out of it and feeling good woop woopâ
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I have no clue whatâs going on right now ⌠maybe it is the washout⌠but I have never felt more anxious, more agitated than ever before. I literally want to jump out of my body kind of feeling.
Donât feel like connecting with anyone and whatâs worse I donât even know what it is or it is just outside the grasp of my mind so I wouldnât even know what to talk.
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Since I am on another washout I am holding back hard from using Regeneration but I am feeling very very draw to it.
I really could use a total subconscious clean up. My mind needs to be cleansed from any lingering emotions caused by stress and trauma and from any deeply seated and rooted bad experiences from the past. I want to be free from this. I am very strongly convinced it could lead to the ultimate breakthrough for me and a complete reduction of reconciliation.
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I need to be more aware of confirmation bias, that I am actively seeking out information that confirms my reality especially if that reality is limiting and non-beneficial. It is truly time for me to shift beliefs and timelines and move into a much higher realm of experience and activity. Part of it will demand me to release certain experiences of the past which have proven to me that the reality I am now experiencing is true and real. That reality should shift. Only when these experiences and beliefs are released and I open myself to something more.
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Suddenly had a huge financial breakthrough and an opportunity presented itself out of nowhere which perfectly suits me.
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I donât know where exactly this comes from but I suddenly feel a complete state shift like I am in a new reality. I feel fully in my body after years of everything feeling surreal. I am fully present and my state of mind is so calm I hear the walls moving lol.
And I can just feel my entire life is about to take off to another level. Yeah that anxiousness was worth it. I can usually anticipate things happening in advance whether good or bad. These are the results I am talking about and looking for. Was I blocking myself from progress all this time? Sometimes we can just keep ourselves so limited while just opening of one little door can take you to a completely different reality and realm of experience.
Feeling so so blessed.
And also getting back into the Dolores Cannon Material, wow she is such a wonderful human being. I love her past life regression stuff and her understanding of somnambulism and hypnosis through which she can retrieve a lot of interesting information.
Sometimes I just need to be reminded of the truth to shake me awake again.
Definitely Soul is trying to guide me in the right direction, the direction of where exactly I have to be to fulfil my cosmic role and if I am not there and I am fooling around and going in the wrong direction pain and suffering will be the consequence and those are all signs, signs that I am not where I should be and that I am falling behind. That I am ignoring the deep impulses and nudges of my Soul trying to redirect my trajectory and course.
I want to become a full time seeker and explorer of truth and make a name for myself in this realm of research and thought. But for that to happen I also need to excel at some field of service to others that I can monetise and I think hypnosis, energy healing and counselling would suite me a lot. For years I have wanted to go place and visit places which resonate with me and my yearning for growth and discovery, and which I knew would totally transform my mind and believe system but finances have always constrained, restrained and restricted me. But through persistent dedication to learning trading I have now an independent source of monetary gain that I can always apply from wherever and in whatever market.
Then also business opportunities are suddenly coming to me where I can easily get an income from by outsourcing the work and just handling the management and coordination of it all. Applying my time value and effort to exchange for some income. Multiple sources of income until I can put everything in long-term investments while working on some projects that can work from themselves. I am sure many people would be happy to work in companies like these that have a positive view on self-growth and where everyone is valued and respected, not the ordinary coorporate slave job with no purpose where people have to lie even on the screening for the job just because there is nothing else the whole work sector is hopeless.
Total transformation of the work sector if positive and beneficial companies take off.
Probably a run of Eog St1 in 2026 to work a bit with that. My long term goal is to have the resources to get my own place in the mountains where I can quietly research spiritual texts and have my own little shrine and temple. Finances have to support this. I want to learn different languages and other things which needs freedom of time and resources. These resources I want to gain in the next 5 years and the markets have never looked more full opportunities as they do now!
I have crystal clear clarity right now. My mind literally goes from a dark cloud to pristine clarity on everything. Totally wild. I feel fully connected with myself and life.
I am literally sure just one block, one experience, one web of karma and trauma is completely holding me back on every level which quite funny if you look at it. And in the experience of that it hurts and it is painful and I canât handle it but when I transcend that it is just a funny learning experience in the span of who I am through many lifetimes.
This journal is literally full of nonsense, of negative thinking and limiting beliefs because I forget who I am and what I am capable of. I lose track of myself and get lost in low vibration thoughts and thinking. Plain untruths and nonsense, falsities.
I will come back to this post as my silver lining if I relapse back into one of these ignorant and confused states. this chapter is nearing its expiry date. For sure it has had its wisdom and learning. Something I must have gained from this. For years I hold onto something and canât get rid of it no matter what I try until I become hopeless. There must be a higher reason for it as I donât attach to nothing in my life. I have left everything that I know from my old life behind, literally everything. Nothing that means anything to me at least, to my real self, not to who I was meant to believe I was through education and upbringing. As shortly during adolescence I had a major awakening of something bigger and that experience touched me so deep it never went away! Impossible and unforgettable. These awakenings are births pains of the soul to give you a glimpse of the transcendent nature of life and to make sure you never in this lifetime stop searching until you find it, your own self, your soul.
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This journal is only for true seekers.
A tinge of theosophical society and a reincarnated shakraswari (after two lifetimes of enlightenment) from the east who was implanted with the mission to create the ultimate device for spiritual growth and transformation? Yeah that is south india. An incredible place for acquiring awareness and moving beyond the karmic cycles that bind us to a predefined destiny.