I want to start a little journal. I won’t update everyday. I will when I feel like doing it, so the updates will be quite irregular.
My goal is to become a male who is confident and only needs his own validation. To make it short I want to become a laid back Alpha male. I would also like to become less shy when it comes to eye contact with strangers who are passing by. Strange enough I don’t have much problems with eyecontact when I’m talking with someone, it’s only when I don’t have any interaction with someone.
The last main thing I want to improve is my small talk skills. I’m quite bad at it and I feel like it’s the main reason why I find it hard to make new friends.
I feel like I’m already on the right path to become the man I want to become. For the people who are familliair with MBTI, I’m an ISTP. I don’t take MBTI too seriously anymore, but the description actually fits me quite well. Except for the mechanic stereotype. I personally think the ISTP archetype is very good foundation for the person I want to become.
Enough background information, now back to the subs.
Right now I’m listening to Primal, Ascension,Rebirth and I want to add Godlike Masculinity.
What I notice since using Primal/Ascension:
-I became a little bit more stoic than I already was.
-The opinions of other people about me are becoming way less important.
-When arguing I am more calm from the inside. From the outside I always looked calm since I dont’t show a lo of emotions so I am always hard to read. But from the inside I was a lot of times quite anxious.
-I walk like I own the world.
-I speak slower.
-I seem to get more respect. Not that I got disrespected before. For some reason people always respected me, but now it’s more apparent.
-I am becoming more selfish but in a good way.
Overall I’m Happy with the improvements.