Adgors Journal WB + LotS

Journals - Major Programs
#1

So I’m making this journal because I cannot seem to be able to keep an offline one. Maybe it’s a lack of accountability, maybe my dopamine receptors are in a dire need of a reset from all the video games I played last week. But this should keep me accountable, right?

Day 1 - listening day, 3 min loops of WB + LotS

Nothing much to report, I went to a restaurant and the waitress wouldn’t even look in my general direction. Not bother by that tho

Day 2 - non-listening day

Stayed inside, I seem to get along better with my cousin (works on interactions too?)

Day 3 - 3 min loops of WB + LotS

Stayed inside, was hungover af

Day 4 - non-listening day

Went groceries shopping, not much to report

Day 5 - 3 min loops of WB + LotS

My muscles feel like they usually do after a workout even tho I haven’t worked out in more than a week now. Also remember looking in the mirror and thinking “damn, I look good” even tho I never really liked my face.
An overarching thing that happened during those days is that every night without mistake I’m dreaming of the same girl which I never met, not even remember seeing. All dreams have a similar development. I would condition myself to go lucid when I see her to ask why she keeps popping up in my dreams but I cannot remember her features in detail after I wake up. I just instinctively know it’s the same one every night.

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#2

Rather than needing to rely on her face as the trigger to go lucid, scan back over the dreams you’ve had of her, and capture any feeling state that is present in them all.

Like whatever feeling happens when she shows up.

If you capture that feeling, and mentally rehearse asking “Who are you?” or whatever other questions you’d ask her if you were lucid.

Even if you don’t get lucid, you’ll still likely get an answer from “her”

EDIT: Feeling like the sense of recognition or familiarity.

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#3

Thank you! I will try that.

#4

A quick update since I forgot I started this journal. I’m obviously not good at keeping one be it offline or online.

So during the cycle I had sex with my gf about two times per week (which is definitely more than once per month😂) so I’ll attribute that to WB.

As for the future I’ll start emperor fitness since I realized that my PE problems are extremely likely psychological eg me not liking the way I look at all (so I expect the same from everyone else).

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