A Well Rounded Man {Emperor Black + EoG St1}

Journals - Major Programs
#1

That’s who I am becoming.

A well rounded man.

I had been listening to Emperor Black + RICH for a week, and altho it had brought me opportunity, I shied away from it, because deep down I didn’t feel I deserved it or could handle the responsibility.

So my focus grows anew.

I am to become a well rounded man, with my eyes set on creating a life for myself that allows me to be self-sustaining in this world with enough overflow and abundance to give freely of my resources to the people I cherish.

How am I doing this?

Monastic focus.

I have used the Pareto Principle (80/20 Rule) to narrow down one small activity to pursue in each aspect of life (emotional well-being, spiritual growth, mental resilience, financial abundance, physical health, and family relationships). These activities should take no more than 3-4 hours to do per day.

To this end I will be using Emperor Black for the focus, and Mogul for the financial aspect (my most lacking aspect).

I will experiment with 5 min loops for each consecutively, with two days rest between listening days. Past 3 minutes I start to feel the friction in my mind reacting to the script of Emperor Black, and I want that friction, so I am taking an extra rest day to counteract any recon and allow the script enough time to bloom properly.

I’ll use this journal as a bit of a habit tracker and also to relay my thoughts on the subliminals.

:heart:

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#2

This sounds like EOG would be the most helpful sub, especially stage 1.

Love the stack, simple and powerful.

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#3

TBH I was going to go for EOG over Mogul, but there’s no ZP v2 yet and I want to keep the build technology consistent to avoid recon.

Next cycle once it’s released haha

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#4

Did you try out EMPB?

#5

After EoG ZP v2 dropped I swapped over to it (Stage 1).

I’m feeling more innovative, planned out a new offer, but I’m also aware this might be the unconscious incompetence stage of the Dunning-Kruger effect, which would explain why I’m excited about it because it’s something new that I haven’t done before so I don’t know how hard it actually is and how much I’ll actually suck at it. In the past I dreaded this feeling of “I’m gonna suck” so I avoided doing it. That’s why in the 8 month history of my agency I have only done ONE SINGLE sales call (embarrassing to finally admit to anyone but myself, but it needs to be done, as I must no longer be this person), because I was so terrified of sucking on sales calls, what that would mean to my ego, and the terror of actually being successful and now being responsible to deliver something to this person. Today, I am choosing to take the perspective that it’s ok to learn as I go, the people who will pay me will get their money’s worth because I will work my ass off to make sure I’m delivering something valuable to them, and I trust in my self and my own intentions to be honorable as a salesman and business owner.

Also, this offer comes down more to management of freelancers, being creative myself as Chief of Strategy (I like that title, just came up with it), and keeping my clients happy with more enthusiastic and active communication. Only typing it out now have I realized how crucial that latter aspect will be to the success of this endeavor. Note to self - journaling is good for more than just giving data to Saint and Fire haha

Emperor Black continues to show out on how radically it’s changed my behavior and my disposition towards the concept of focus itself. Before I thought that focus was just what you do when you sit to work, you focus on the task at hand. But now I realize that FOCUS is a way of living, a way of being, it’s about choices and decisions in all aspects of life; and it boils down in its essence to a tool one may use to transform themselves, which I have come to realize is the purpose of life.

The purpose of life is self-directed transformation of your “personality” (for lack of a better word) and the unfolding of the deeper consciousness which is hidden below the surface of the conditioning we have picked up in this current, and past, physical lives.

Thanks to Emperor Black and (possibly it’s manifestation of) my mentor from afar Taylor Welch, for helping me to realize this. Also another mentor from afar Joana de Angelis (google her if you’re into spirituality and prepare to not expect what you find).

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#6

Sunday night I indulged myself and read the last volume of my favorite light novel series (Mushoku Tensei) but I started late at 11pm and stayed up until 3:30am to do it.

Completely fucked my sleep schedule, threw a massive wrench into my day on Monday where I got pretty much nothing done, and today as well feels like it’s gonna be a struggle to be productive.

This could be recon, or maybe just the inevitable consequences of an unwise decision. Possibly a mix of both.

Either way, feels really bad. I have therapy today and don’t want to tell my therapist about it cuz she’s the tough love sort who says things like “we’ve been talking about this problem for months now and you haven’t done anything about it” and that makes me feel like shit. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to take action and be normal. Maybe it’s this long-undiagnosed ADHD, maybe it’s childhood shit, I don’t know. But I feel like grabbing her and the whole world and screaming IF IT WAS SO FUCKING EASY FOR ME DONT YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY??? DO YOU THINK I LIKE BEING THIS WAY??? NO ONE HATES ME MORE THAN ME AND WISHES I WAS DIFFERENT MORE THAN ME

Hard to give yourself grace and love yourself and accept yourself when feelings like that are lurking under the surface.

Maybe I need some Sanguine in my life haha

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#7

:thinking:

What kind of attention deficiency allows reading entire books in one sitting?

Maybe it’s undiagnosed because it isn’t there!

:hugs:

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#8

Or the Dragon!

:dragon_face:

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#9

:rofl: That’s pretty funny, can’t lie haha. I take my dopamine wherever I can get it man, ADHD is more of a neurological disorder around executive function than a true attention deficit.

Not a bad idea! But I don’t think I can take the turmoil right now…

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#10

I can relate to this. Sometimes it is so easy tasks and I can not bring myself to do them. I know it is easy and probably work of less than 30 min, I know what to do, there is no fear, but there is something like an invisible wall stopping me before taking action. Maybe I have to run Limit Destroyer for that…

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#11

Do it brother! That’s a great sub

But yeah I’m relating to what you said a lot. Emperor Black has been helping with this for me