Hey guys! I am really excited, to start this journal.
This is a new mecharc.
Basically, over the last few days, I have had some thought-changing realizations and insights about my perceived reality.
I have never felt this motivated to succeed.
Now, I realize that I started working in my family business, because of my own lethargy to take action and find work elsewhere.
However, I would actively work for the business, only to get my father’s approval. I loved my father a lot. The business was his decades of hard work. and I thought that working hard in his business would make him happy, and he would be proud of me. in my mind, the actions were a form of repayment for the silver spoon he brought me up with.
After he passed away, my motivation towards working for my family business was gone. I was too unmotivated to proactively work for my family business, But, simultaneously, too much failure consciousness, prevented me from leaving the business and going else where. So I was just victimizing myself and the business.
In all my previous journals, I was expressing my wait for that insight to come. Now I realize that, during all those times, I was actually lurking around at the bottom, waiting for someone to take the place of my father, and handhold me to the top.
3 years later, that insight is finally here. I truly realize that, even though my journal was called the marathon to the top, I was just lurking at the bottom. Not once looking up to see, where I want to go.
But, during this washout period, that has all changed.
I realize that I have everything at my disposal to succeed.
I am motivated more than ever in my life, to take my family business to new heights!
Now, I know that I am actually on the marathon to the top!
and so, I want to start a new journal, documenting my journey.
Starting from my next Cycle, this is my new room in this home!
This journal will be a playground for feedback to my consciousness. and not merely a passive slate for documenting wishful failure.