when did that stop becoming a problem?
I think pretty much since running Khan, maybe during ST2 probably also Emperor:
- āBegin creating your business / social / romantic empire using the resources you have now, rather than having to āsave upā before starting.ā
Day 23 rest day 2
Honestly, idk what exactly I want in life, but I do know the feelings Iām after. What are those feelings? How would I describe those feelings? What would give me those feelings? Can I feel them now?..
OR
Be as I am. Could allow myself to let go of wanting to change anything? Would I? When? (Letting Go method).
Day 26 rest day 5
Khan + Emperor really makes you feel like this
Sry if the watermark makes it cringey but oh well. Anyway, have had some recon off and on for the past few days, but Iām feeling increasing inner strength and fortitude with each day. Tomorrow itās ST3 + Emperor UNLESS I take a day or two more of washout. Will see.
Day 1
1 min ST3, 30 sec Emperor.
Day 3
1:30 min ST3, 30 sec Emperor.
Edit: So I was at the gym and felt I was getting a lot of attention, though not as positive feeling as, say, WB. Maybe some slightly āmaddoggingā guys? (For non-American folks, mad-dogging means staring but aggressively, even if just slightly). Honestly though I was annoyed and irritated because I didnāt want the attention at the time, maybe cuz of recon. Later waited a long time for an order for uber eats, and there was a semi-cute girl waiting. I started talking to her and sheās Vietnamese, got her number and weāve texted a bit, but itāll probably go nowhere. I actually felt really good that I did that, just taking action like that and making progress in some way turned around my whole mood.
Also was thinking earlier: consider that Iām happier than I think I am.
How is it going for you so far? Stage 3 can be difficult but I think that you are able to utilize it and become a total force of nature with it.
So far itās okay, Iām feeling kinda needy and sad, but at the same time I donāt even necessarily want to be with a girl right now. Weird state. Maybe just pure recon.
Day 4 rest
Fapped and deeply regret it. Feel like I wasted valuable energy. I will not fap again for at least 2 weeks
Day 5
2 min ST3, 1 min Emperor
I want to give you an idea.
Personally, Iām neutral about whether people fap or not. So now that Iāve said this, I will present an idea.
When I was reading about addiction (and I want to make it clear I do NOT think fapping is an addiction), I noticed that people at Alcoholics Anonymous had a saying āOne day at a timeā.
Rather than thinking āIāll never drink againā, they would think āI will stay sober for todayā. And they would do that every day. And soon, five years of sobriety was accomplished. If one day was too much to think about, āFor the next hour, I will remain soberā, and they would say that every hour.
Thanks for the insight/strategy. I actually did use that for stopping alcohol. I would say āIām not drinking today even if my ass falls off, but tomorrow I can drink all I wantā and would just do that everyday (got the idea from a youtube video). It worked, but I never thought of using it for fapping
Day 6 rest
Idk if this stack is working for seduction. Like it kills āapproach anxietyā mostly, but I feel Iāve kinda been sucking compared to when I have WB or SSX in the stack.
Edit: erased edit from earlier, realized it could be interpreted totally in a wrong way anyway, kinda had a lot of recon today. Lots of that inner rage/frustration etc. Will lower back loops 30 seconds.
You just started ST3 right?
Hard stage. Very hard. Expect recon and frustration.
If it wasnāt for the fact that youāve newly added ST3 I would say add SSX, which you could do now⦠but Iād wait it out a bit first⦠if anything maybe even reduce the exposure u take of emperor to just support ST3, but give ST3 space to breathe and process
Day 7
2:30 min ST3, 30 sec Emperor.
Day 8 rest
Was at the gym, got some female attention I think, and was kinda thinking āI actually wouldnāt really want a girl at this moment even if she came and sat on my lapā ⦠maybe itās cuz the thing with the Vietnamese girl went nowhere, which I thought would happen but it still sapped my spirit. Also this girl who works at a place I pick up from did like me, and broke up with her bf a month ago and I couldāve probably hung out with her but I didnāt, sheās now back with him and theyāre working things out, and meh it just doesnāt seem fun/flirty/sexy with her atm⦠so all this has me feeling down in this area maybe. Aside from that I feel pretty good though, it feels kinda badass to not have a woman/women, almost like āIām too cool to have a girlfriendā lol. I know that sounds like a cope, but itās also like Iām not submitting to my sexual desires, Iām controlling them, so in a way Iām stronger? Idk.
Not saying I want it to remain this way, just noting the thought processes that maybe causing a block for me in this area.
I do miss WB/SSX and the Alexanderās Play module, all of those seemed to make me more interested and made me feel more fun and light in this area. (āthis areaā meaning attraction/romance etc.). This stack for sure feels more serious, but not necessarily in a bad way.
Day 9
3 min ST3, 30 sec Emperor. Wet dream during sleep /:
Day 10 rest
Thought: all of your past failures with girls or business or anything are just the bones upon which your successes in realms of sex/business etc. will be built.
Edit: lol I canāt allow myself to become hungry on this stack. Hunger = recon face slap. Thinking of switching out Emperor for Wanted or SSX. Will read the copies again and think about it.
Also, havenāt been taking action in terms of women. Havenāt been approaching, just havenāt been doing it. Havenāt really been feeling the desire enough to be willing to take a rejection. Also just havenāt been feeling the right energy for it (fun, playful, social, etc.).
And I donāt like that. I want to feel the drive and enjoyment etc. I think my standards have gone up, which is good but also decreases motivation since I see less āviableā options. Running Primal rn actually might be a good idea just to get myself enjoying being social + fun/enjoyment scripting
Day 11
2 min ST3, 1:30 min True Sell. Just had to try it. One of the first subs I bought but never used. Always thought the description resonated with my natural style of socializing/attracting.