A log of sub use

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Day 1

Emperor black for 15 minutes

Motivated to get stuff done that I put off. Felt good but didn’t sleep that well. I felt stressed and fitness watch agreed like I had too much going around in my head. I woke up at 430.

Day 2

I did early morning workout just a quick 15 minutes which even that was like a miracle. I told myself if I workout and do food shopping then I can watch porn. Wasted about an hour on porn which afterwards I regretted. I felt a loop of eb took away caring what anyone thinks of me which is big because I normally care about this a lot.

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#2

Day 3

emperor black for 10 minutes

A crazy and productive day feeling like I can’t stop getting things done. It’s a weird feeling and even tho it doesn’t feel good at least Im getting things done.

I had the idea to do some sort of course or read a book but since starting the sub I lost that desire because I know it’s doing things I need and not learning more as an excuse not to do things. I might need to cut back a bit on the loops by either having extra rest days or less time because it’s too strong.

#3

day 4

crazy dreams, one which I was crying my eyes out. IT felt good and I expected to feel lighter but all I got was anxiety and uncoordinated in the morning. Spent 20 minutes whacking it to porn that felt like another waste of time. I could see myself not bothering with that. In the afternoon like a switch flicked on in my brain, I thought I need to do something, I can’t keep falling back into the same patterns because I am terrified of living my life. The anxiety got replaced with what I’d consider strength.

#4

Day 5

emperor black 5 minutes

did 20 minutes of 432hz abundance manifestation track before emperor black. Feeling good, gotta go to a party soon and feeling relaxed. wanting to add a brain enhancer sub although finances will probably dictate otherwise. I got some subs from yesteryears but nothing like the limitless type subs. I even tried another producers wealth one again a while back and it fucked me up. It did work once in 2019 I think but at least these subs are smooth and feel better.