@mecharc
There is a lot of wisdom in this thread.
From what you’ve posted initially, I see self-doubt, legitimate concerns, and forgetfulness.
I think the first 2 are obvious so I’ll explain what I mean by forgetfulness.
Have you forgotten the times you’ve managed to do something great, yet you are still just like everyone else?
You may be one of the many IT people out there, but how is it you become great?
You become more skilled. More innovative. More determined. You also improve your ability to manifest outcomes of your own choosing, as well as develop more faith in yourself. You develop a network.
You have access to the power of your subconscious, which I think is even more powerful than being the smartest person. Inner Circle. Index Gate. All those manifesting modules. RICH. Power Can Corrupt. Manipulus. Quantum Limitless. How about healing modules?
From my perspective, I think the only option for you is success in what you choose.