Im gonna keep this as a reminder…
In retrospect I can clearly see how forgiveness has been one of the major themes since I started this stack… or should I say, me holding to grudges with teeth and nails has given me lots of recon.
Fortunately since yesterday I feel I have achieved a deeper level of forgiveness, I can meassure it on how I feel about and respond to my girlfriend. I am a lot more understanding now and way less reactive.
Things are becoming clearer, I had a feeling of desperation that is now vanished, of course brought to surface by my stack.
For the next part of the journey DR st2 will be my primary sub.
Starting on monday:
DR st2: 3 times a week
Paragon: 2 times a week
LBHX: 1 time a week.
Thats the idea that makes sense to me for now.
DR st1 with his buddies already put me to recon at least 3 times and led me trough some very profound changes in terms of trauma resolution. That for me is very good, I expect st2 to keep digging more and more.
At this moment I have 0 interest in stages 3 and 4… I prefer to stay a while more in st2.
Main lesson I got today… I am a very resentful person even though I love to think of me as a person thats quick to forgive and let go.
It seems that for me to be able to recognize this without any emotions attached to it, its a clear sign that Im overcoming that trait, transmuting it into something more useful/healthy… at least it means that Im letting go of old stored anger, long expired.
I see this the same way.
I remembered I know Trauma Releasing Exercises (TRE) and did a routine early in the morning. It worked wonders for releasing all the tension I had in my lower back. The pain has diminished significantly.
Will do it again tomorrow.
I noticed that they are now calling it Tension & Trauma Releasing Exercises… Interesting they even put Tension first in the name. It seems like a subtle admission that the techniques are not that reliable for Trauma Resolution, but are better suited for releasing tension from the body.
Which corresponds with my experience with the techniques… Pretty good for releasing tension/pain from the body without the need to visit a Massage Therapist or a Chiropractor. Cant say I released Trauma from using them, but it could happen.
I did a 2nd session of TRE… my lower back and spine feels like they had and orgasm 
2 things happened today:
• My libido is comming back after having absolute zero sexual desire since starting this stack (10 days)
• Im getting a strong desire to focus my alchemy work into removing limiting beliefs about money and wealth.
I really want to do EOG at some point, but I dont have it and I cant buy it yet.
So Im considering that when I start DR st2 next monday I can stack it with something that gives the healing a wealth focus, like True Sell or maybe RICH.
Didn’t you once say “the issue is in the tissue” ? 
So I guess that fits!
What exercise is it?
I thought about it the other day and I cant remember saying that in those exact words, but I fully agree with the concept.
Working with the Physical body directly, in my experience, is not always the most reliable way to deal with trauma, is not as direct or as effective, as working with the Emotional and Mental bodies. Its not that it never works, but its pretty common that you go and adjust your body and if you dont change your mind frame or your emotional environment, after a while the body returns to the painful setup.
People go to adjust and streighten their backs, then continue life as always, after a while their back is bent again. The same with weight loss surgery.
Theres cases in which people do yoga for a while and their mind set changes. That was never the case for me and for some reason its not the rule if you go to Yoga and talk to people.
Of course since the issues are in the tissues, having an approach that covers not only the Spiritual, Mental/Emotional, but also the Physical its gonna work better since you cover all the areas.
Ive found out that some people dont have a physical experice (reference) of what its like to have a stress free body… sure Hypnosis is gonna help them a great deal, but they need physical work in order to know how it feels like to have a relaxed body and a correct posture.
One of the main things Yoga did for me was to help me have the experience of feeling what a straight spine feels like in the body and to be aware of how different it feels when it bends and curves. Something that I was totally unaware of before… I was used to the sensations of a bended spine… it was “normal” for me.
After 1 and a half years I stopped doing Yoga and slowly but steady my back went back to being curved in the same way as before. It took me some time of emotional work to solve that and have a straight back once again for good, this time I had a strong sensation for a reference that allowed me to be aware of any little changes in the curvature of my spine. I can now know how my back is by the physical sensations.
My point is similar to what Richard Bandler (NLP creator) once said when asked if in the supposed case that he got cancer, would he treat himself just with NLP.
His answer was (Im paraphrasing here a bit)… “Of course not” (which shooked the audience and NLP fan boys) he said… “I would use any and all forms of treatment on the face of the earth, including NLP, until I find what works for me, so should you”.
Day#13
DR st1 full loop
LBHX 7 minutes.
Last day for st1 it is! On monday I will fine tune my stack after what I consider great results from this stage of the Dragon.
Last night I was trying to sleep and there was a lot of ambient noise and I couldnt. I noticed I began feeling super tense and irritable, then DR showed me the answer… thats trauma.
I did some HMR to release it… I had a lot of angst and fear in my chest that spread to my whole body, tensing and tightening myuscles. When released I felt soooo good, after a while I fell asleep.
I feel the inspiration to grow into money and wealth getting stronger by the day.
I have this intuition that if I use DR st2 with RICH I can focus the process into healing money related trauma and negative beliefs.
From RICH list of objectives:
- Destroy any and all wealth ceilings, become infused with the vast, limitless energy of boundless wealth.
- Dissolve financial traumas, negative beliefs and energies that are holding you back from being R.I.C.H.
A possible stack can be:
Dragon Reborn st2
RICH
LBHX
My mood since yesterday is very good and lighthearted, I can feel my mind looking for things to complaint, but immediately my inner voice goes “Meh… thats unimportant”.
On the sexual side of things, its like sex its powerless over me. If the Set and Setting is correct I can engage in the most powerful, pleasurable Love Making you can imagine… If not then theres no sexual thoughts at all.
Yesterday I went from totally uninterested to fully passionate in a minute… Then after we were both super satisfied I went back to a state in which sexual activity is totally uninportant.
Funny thing is after we made love my girfriend unexpectedly said “I should have met you before” I asked “before what?” I knew what she ment, but cant blame me for wanting to hear it, can you?
She said “A long time ago… You are so good at this and I was used to mediocre sex, thinking that was all that was possible”. I just laugh and said “You are right!”
I cant be cheap with myself anymore!
Oh man… I got one of those subliminal moments! A strong shift in perspective… Suddenly everything makes sense in a very different light, I took the right action, at the right time and that made the perspective shift even more obvious and potent.
Have you ever felt lust for a life style that before you kind of wanted on the suface, but deeply you resented? I dont know if lust is the right term to describe it, I would say drive…
Have you ever felt driven to a life style that you used to fantasize of, but secretly knew that you were not worthy of it?
The things is I dont feel the resentment, anger and unworthiness anymore… I feel a kind of motivation that can only come from certainty.
The blocks are gone now.
Its settled! Im taking a rest over the weekend and since monday Im doing:
Dragon Reborn st2
EOG st1
I think its pretty obvious why…
After careful contemplation and reading the sales page for DR one more time, I realized that Im only interested in the first 2 stages of Dragon.
For the last 3 days Ive been having intense intuitions to work and heal all the wealth and money negative beliefs and trauma, so yesterday I bought EOG.
I understood that I have no problem spending money in lots of different things that are a source of fun, but I was being very cheap with myself when it comes to investing in things that can actually make me more money.
Dragon Reborn touched a fiber, helped me heal and understand some childhood traumas, they were all related to conflicts between my parents… all the conflicts were on the topic of money and how money was the evil that tore them apart, that prevented them for being happy.
On other side of things my stack is making miracles… I feel so in the flow, effortlessly doing stuff in areas that I was pretty thight and tense before.
Everything that has to do with emotional expression and my response to what I used to percieve as criticism is different.
A part of me that was on hyper alert has now relax.
Good decision. EoG st1 was an awesome journey! Together with DR that’ll heal a lot!
For me it’s also childhood related.
I see it as the ultimate cleaner… I never thought about it this way (that I remember), but I feel cleaning wealth/money trauma is whats gonna advance my spiritual growth the fastest.
Yeah. How’s your experience with this:
When you stack subs it changed its expression. Meaning stacking DR with wealth focused more on wealth issues.
Or so I feel.