3 Cycles of Name Embedded "GENESIS" and...no results?

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#21

Yeah, it was just normal recon. I don’t always stand by the misunderstandings of my younger self. What I was feeling was a deep anger and dissatisfaction with many areas of my life that I had neglected. The anger had a reason, and the anger eventually found it’s target–my manipulative boss. Who, was underpaying me, and a toxic female coworker who was deliberately sabotaging my relationship with another girl at work out of jealousy. Note, she rejected me, but couldn’t stand me with anyone else.

So I expressed the anger, set them both straight (or at least I said my peace) then quit and left to work a better job doing what I thought I wanted to do at the time.

#22

Well man, sometimes you need to get angry. Anger can be destructive, yes, but it can also liberate us. All emotions exist for a reason. Feel the anger, learn from it. It doesn’t mean you need to “explode” or act irrational. Well used anger can be very powerful.

#23

So yeah, anger to action. Thanks for sharing. I’m thinking I’ll continue with Genesis and be more aggressive with listening times.

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#24

Aggressive, but responsible. Push limits, but don’t walk off a cliff. You got this.

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#25

Oh, and if you get really angry, journal a lot, and figure out if there is something real you need to do to resolve the anger. Like how I needed to quit that awful job.

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#26

It’s also important that subs show differently based on your persona, trauma, challenges, flow factor, etc.

Last year I’ve run 3 months of DRLD, based on many positive reviews. I didn’t feel it a tiny bit.
Nothing changed.
So I dropped it.

Maybe I would have seen results after two more cycles, I don’t know.

I decided to go for something better fitting and I’m finding the results I desired.

Also related to this, parallel to DRLD I’ve run an Ascension+Lovebomb custom with I AM ATMAN.
I felt it work in me immediately.
In then end, I didn’t even get recon from it anymore.
This year I’ve run 6 months of Khan. Afterwards I’ve run another short loop of this custom.
And boom.
Recon. Strong recon.

It felt like Khan dissolved something that stopped my custom from digging deeper.
Now that it’s gone, I could probably dig much deeper with it.

So maybe, there’s something blocking you from realizing Genesis objectives that could be dissolved by another sub. And once that’s done, you can get the results you want.

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#27

Ask @Azriel
His journal is a long awakening to great results.
But not everyone who run subs for long have results, it seems some people resonate more with specific subs. Friday an old guy here got unsolved reconciliation with Genesis while he had great results with Khan.

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#28

Bro, I’m about to say something unconventional.

Have you considered having a public journal on here?

The sub meets you where you are and begins to build towards fulfilling the objectives, picking up momentum with time, and, depending on where you are and the sub objectives, the time required will vary.

I’ve come to understand that there are always results (if you’re not stonewalling). It might not be exactly what or how you expect it, but there are always there. And most of them are very subtle, patience and awareness need to be exercised.

Sometimes the issue may not be a you, sub, listening pattern or even recon issue, it just be an awareness issue.

When you hit moments like these, where you think you didn’t achieve jackshit, another user observing from another perspective might take their time to point out things that you missed/overlooked or help guide you towards awareness/clarity.

I’ve seen it happen before and I’ve seen how helpful it is.

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#29

Thank you. Good points. I’ll consider it.

#30

Hmm, this resonated with me. So, any ideas or suggestions?

#31

I am going to have a guess that because it is name embedding it is hitting deeper so the results don’t seem so obvious right now

I know customs for me take a few cycles for me to start noticing the title, especially if I have not run it before as a main title from the store

It’s just a thought. You may see more immediate results from a main title if you wish to add that alongside your name embedded title

#32

Trying to understand this. Seems contradictory. If it’s hitting deeper, wouldn’t the results be more pronounced?

#33

They are, I meant that it takes longer for them to come to the surface of your consciousness

Thats been my experience of it. Someone can chime in and correct me if I’m wrong

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#34

Just wanna add that I have read that some people run subs, feel like they’re not working, but then look back and realize how much change has been made, but all along the way it was very subtle.

I am on my 2nd cycle of DRR1. For the last 6 years I have been on Trazadone nightly for sleep and I have been dreading the day for when I was gonna have to eventually come off. For the record this sleep aid drug is meant to be temporary, I just stayed on indefinitely because I dreaded the trauma of insomnia, so I kept kicking the can down the road of “eventually I will make myself get off” and that went on from year 1 all the way to year 6.

IDK what it was, but during the washout of my first cycle of DRR1, something in me said FUCK IT and I decided to rip the bandaid off. No more kicking the can down the road to one day. I will get off NOW and fix my sleep(been trying every method to fix my sleep but none matter as long as I stay on trazadone).

So as I am typing this I have tapered down to 10mg per night from 150mg nightly. I plan on taking my very last dose in 2 weeks and kick this drug for good.

Now the point of me sharing this is, did DRR1 help me with this decision and take action to do so? IDK. Cannot say. Maybe I would of done it without DRR, but what I can say is, I was on DRR1 when I did make this choice and I’m still a bit shocked I did it and went thru with it, considering I been making excuses of getting to it one day and stretching that out for 6 freaking years.

BTW Trazadone withdrawls and DRR is very fun :sweat_smile:

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#35

Honestly, no idea.
First, that’s just my private idea.
Secondly, that’s such a deeply personal issue, that only you can find out.

I still don’t know what exactly Khan did with me.
Nothing to obvious. But since I only ran EoG and EE besides Khan, I guess it was Khan since it’s hitting the same spots as my custom.

So maybe it was this deep fundamental work Khan did through the stages.

If that is indeed the case, than any of the deeper healing and restructuring titles might help: Khan, DRR, Phoenix, Love Bomb, maybe even Khan Black (especially Stage 1).

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#36

For me the results started coming when I just chose to take a leap of faith and trust blindly that the sub is working. I attribute everything positive automatically to the sub.

I do not feel the subs or anything. But the results definitely are there.

I just don’t second guess everything.

It’s part of my personality to overthink everything. I chose not to do that with the subs. And somehow it works, for me.

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#37

What a story. Thanks for sharing. I wish you luck with your Trazadone stoppage!

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#38

This is serious food for thought. Thank you!

Also, I just saw your leather works from the art thread. I’m very impressed :slightly_smiling_face:

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#39

I like that attitude a lot.

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#40

Yeah, hmm I think I get faster results, less recon, but maybe less intense results. I could be wrong though, it’s been a long time since I’ve ran long (7-15 minute) loops. I remember with 15 minute loops though sometimes I’d get great results but I’d be in such recon I couldn’t really enjoy them.