That’s awesome. Wu wei on brother!
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The WB part of my WB/Peace custom started kicking in. I’ve gotten few compliments at work and some people were brain freezing / giving dear in headlights looks as talked to them, almost as if they were not mentally prepared. A very cute girl who’ve been flirting with her eyes asked for my snap today
The peace has been settling. I talked in the Wanted thread about " resonance / coherence " where things suddenly click and life starts feeling magical. Well I am starting to see a bigger picture. That seems to be the " active " part of coherence. When the user briefly gets out of their own way
What this is, the coherence " settling " almost like the baseline has increased slightly. It’s nothing grand nor glamours. Just an incremental, steady and permanent increase in the baseline which started with getting in touch with who I really am vs who I wanted not to be. No mood swings and no ups and downs. Just the steady progression I’ve always longed for.
A life of endless passion, adventure and peace. A fitting vessel that contains and galvanizes my intensity and a peace that is felt and lived come hell or high water
So what is the difference between the Me right now and the Me as short as few months ago? He’d be scared to his core believing that my self acceptance is arrogance. That me truly acknowledging myself means I suddenly have an ego. That without fear and caution, I’d become selfish and cruel. That his way of living was the only way, and that he needs only force his way to work
And to him I say, I am neither… For I can now look in the mirror and truly smile and feel proud of who I am. That I acknowledge my mistakes, I strive to be better and will never wish anybody harm. And to him I say, If that still makes me egotistical then so be it. I am done shrinking simply because i am not acknowledged or understood by ants
Look where trying not to have an ego got us. Always hurting alone while worrying about others hurting. Always feeling responsible for pain and burdens that were never ours and yet wishing to be free of the same shackles we refused to let go of.
I am what I’ve always been. A psycho in heaven, Angel in hell.
Water, Air and Sun is all we need. Time to thrive and enjoy time passing for once…
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Words cannot describe how similar this is to what I’m experiencing right now.
Keep on rocking!
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Coagulated masses. Untethering due to the meaning that once held them start to dissipate
Hurt and scared, they instinctively seek to reform the same meaning so they could feel whole
The meaning re emerges, but fails to keep them whole for it is due to the masses craving more than safety in the unity, they refuse to uphold the status que
So the coagulated masses scatter, re-join into an new altered shape but the cycle continues
The masses discover in another broken vessel, that their freedom exists not in any form they could form… but in letting go, flowing and being open to change
They naively long for the simplicity of having a fixed vessel that contains ever answer despite knowing its futile. The only control they ever had was over their ability to blindly cling to it, or relinquish it
As they wander, existing in the moment for it’s own sake. They find joy, ease and clarity. They find pain, hardship and doubt. They long for the illusion of control, but amassing has become far too painful to be attempted again… They incrementally and steadily learn and relearn that they are not yet done dissolving.
As they continue being undone, a shape starts to be revealed. The more they are undone, the more it hurts, but that hurts comes with hope. That the form they leave in their absence is the shape they’ve always longed for. It is similar yet different to what they believed it to be, but it feels right. For once, there is no doubt. So they make the choice that despite their instinct and need to take control of the form, that with every step they take forward… they would take 2 back
They need not fully know nor believe in that shape, only trust it… The shape acknowledges their hurt and honours it without holding onto it
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Great to follow your journal.
Can you share how Peace kick in and synergy with WB?
I’m considering a named embedded customs between WB + D:Regeneration or WB + Peace?
Since you recommended WB + D:Regeneration time ago. How is your evaluation between 2 stacks?
Much thank.
While every title is self sufficient. They were made to stack. The WB edge requires self acceptance, comfort within discomfort and being uninhibited by self doubt. With those in the way, titles like DR: Regen and Peace will take priority and the WB results will likely be proportionate to the progress made with the rest of the stack
While I am mostly experiencing results from Peace, It is laying the ground work for expressing the WB side. For others who are ahead in their self acceptance journey, Peace will work as a booster to WB
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Thanks for the insight, I’ll choose Peace & WB. DR:G can be used a a healing title on the side.
That’s coherent stack with a vision. You will likely get more spontaneous healing by living and taking action. You may also develop internally quicker than your outer results might reflect. All in good time
You may no longer attract what you’re or have been used to. This might seem like your options being " limited " but I would view it as making room for quality that matches, and enhances the fun and excitement 
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Do I retreat behind walls for safety, or I’m I keeping the walls safe?
Since the announcement of the upcoming Heartsong 2 stage upgrade, I’ve been thinking about people and relationships. Why was I mostly alone for the vast majority of my adult life despite the qualities I’ve cultivated, despite intentions and taking massive actions to not be so? Why I’ve mostly felt alone despite company? Why have I struggled so needlessly letting anyone close despite always wanting the best for them? Despite sharing my hard-earned growth and peace with them? Showing them world’s they couldn’t fathom existed? Despite always being willing to correct the wrongs I do, taking accountability for those wrongs without compromising who I am?
The more I discover myself, the less they or anyone in particular seem to have anything to do with it. It could be any and or a combination of synergizing factors
- That I didn’t know myself
- I wanted to not be a bad human instead of wanting to be myself and loving him
- That I was hurt, disappointed and betrayed on schedule
- That I compromised far too much due to lack of self love / self respect
- Not believing others when they endlessly demonstrate and express, directly or indirectly, that I am too good for them
- Genuine wrongs I did for which I am learning to forgive myself for
- Not being crystal clear about where I am selfish
- Assuming my accepting of their flaws and selfishness being reciprocated
- Assuming my refusal to hurt being reciprocated
- Hoping for understanding, while secretly believing it impossible to begin with… So its actually " hoping to be proven wrong about being difficult to understood "
- Growing up, learning and re learning to trust myself
- Outgrowing them, the connection or vise versa
- Choosing the potential over the person
- Turning a blind eye to early signs of disrespect and emotional projections
- Feeling responsible, by my own free will, for their happiness and for always being the bigger person
While one could endlessly work on each individual subject matter. To tweak, improve, eliminate, focus on, explore or re frame any and all of them is building on sand. They are all effects rather than causes.
I am beginning to explore the real cause which is keeping the walls safe. My past has given me more than enough justification to trust in them and my stubborn efforts, regardless of intention, only proved them stronger.
I remember running current Heartsong for a short while around few years ago, and the recon was worse than Total Breakdown because the latter seemed to at the very least, lead to something tangible. Back then HS felt like it talked to man who’ve been ablaze all his life about connections so opposite to the flames they make them seem unfathomable instead… And that his flames, wounds and hurt ware in the way… The man angers feeling his efforts and intelligence mocked, like any of it was a choice he made let alone something he deserved
Even with the flames out, the man darkened and charred, has lived feeling that barely anything changed. Despite smarter choices, better efforts and lots of reflection… There was no outrunning it. So he wonders how? Through everything he overcame could he still feel the burn? To him, it simply defied rationality.
To hate and blame himself is to pour gasoline on the remaining embers.
To try again and doing the same is insanity
To shut down, self isolate and surrender is to stop living and throw all previous efforts down the drain.
But he, no I, wont be doing any of those. With those failures, I’ve purchased clarity and confidence that defies faith… To focus on tearing down those walls, or to resist reinforcing them is not the answer either, the right conclusion is to Build something worth inhibiting… It it looks like:
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There is an abundance of incredible, amazing and wonderful people that will lift me even higher. And I am beyond excited to need their help and to be grateful for their presence
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There is an abundance of opportunity’s to meet such incredible people. To find friends that understand, support and respect me… Women that are unable to contain their desire to explore me and for me to explore them… respectfully, peacefully and passionately. Connections that will take me further and faster in life
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That I am ABSO-FUCKING-LUTLY worthy of such opportunities and connections
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And those mean that I am blessed with a natural filter that repels those who’s presence will not be and is no longer welcome.
My answer is no affirmation. It’s a belief that defies rationality. Despite everything, am grateful for every influence I’ve ever experienced by anyone regardless of degree. I am sorry for any hurt or trouble I’ve ever caused anyone. I embrace life which pre ordains that to live is to hurt and be hurt, to exist is to be a burden… and I am looking forward to what comes next… especially new HS stage 1
This is far from one-time shift. I still have scars to mend and foundations to lay. Healing the former and building the latter will take time, like anything of real value. I won’t mind echo’s of my previous system persisting a while longer in the meantime, in fact I welcome them for allowing me the opportunity to take action by no longer resonating with em
Because everyone is the right person for a different reason. Either to aid in evolution or our desired life
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You have such profound inner insight. HS could be your “killing” sub.
Do you feel this a HS preresults or also the results from your current stack?
Appreciate the kind words. The ZPU tech has been great in unfolding insight. Could be new HS results, this always happens whenever I know 100% I will be running a new sub / upgrade. I get a preview-like effect of their effects
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Always been a skeptic of anyone who claims being psychic but man did I feel some disturbing a55, bipolar a55, depressed & miserable a55 energy from someone petty, jealous & immature trying to viciously sabotage my life, get their 15 minutes of fame. But weirdly enough, it feels indirect. Like it’s trying or tried indirectly to cause a domino effect towards that end while staying in the shadows. Like it’s Peter Baelish but with the subtly of Dwayne Johnson, and the courage of a mouse
Never had a weirder meditation session in my life lmao. I have no clue if Peace is making me extra sensitive, but that bs felt like a nasty fly hovering around me. Textbook misery that loves creating company
I hope I’m tripping because I know for a fact it hasn’t and will not affect me. But if it is real, regardless of source, then I refuse to accept that negativity just as if it were a present. By refusing, the present belongs only to it’s owner. I couldn’t for the life of me guess where it comes from or who it belongs to. I suppose it matters little, in fact it’s for the best. What goes around comes around
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I have the impression that people are becoming more psychic in general.
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Dude, right? I even mentioned it here a few years ago. We suddenly observed not only customers, but colleagues and friends who have never use a sub reporting a rise in clairvoyance.
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It makes you wonder if COVID has something to do with it?
There is a book titled “Virolution” that is about a decade long study on “viral symbiosis” which is about viruses being behind major evolutionary changes, especially in humans. The study suggests this is how we gained speech and reasoning.
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Just got over my first major recon with this custom. A lot of it was mostly frustration around reacting, stronger than intended, to inconsistent results. Anger and pain surrounding past issues re surfacing beyond my conscious thoughts and control and general exhaustion over working myself almost every day with little to no time for anything else
At least I am not seeking distractions or escaping by indulging my inferior Se. I get to face it all head on. At times I feel myself longing for a place that once made me feel truly at home. I wouldn’t be who or where I am today without it. It was my peace before I became strong enough to truly explore finding it within. But it was much more than that, It was the first home I’ve truly felt safe in since I became an adult. Reminiscing and then feeling immense gratitude has been doing wonders with alchemizing the hurt. And to accept that I can feel immense longing, gratitude, regret and hurt simultaneously
I can long for where I am no longer welcome without suffocating. I’ve said far more than I should but I know well that my time is up. And I’ve paid my respects as best I could
As for the visceral hurt, it was a fair price for my new perspectives. The wounds carve texture around my heart. Without them, I would be as I was before. Struggling to find myself, stumbling in the dark. Unaware of my self worth and I deserve. And without those wounds, I would not have fully understood the sacred joy being at home. for I would not know it’s absence
Current stack. WB/Peace/MDFY Freedom custom + New HS stage 1 Attuned.
Attuned early results: I’ve used it for 3 min yesterday. I’ve been feeling fatigued since then. Slept 12 hours yesterday and still woke up fatigued. It’s the only kind that have ever felt good, even merciful and I’ve only experience it whenever I visit my family which is continents away from where I live
It feels like a certian vigilant clusters within my body and mind have finally unclenched, after years of calcifying into place, and in their wake I am getting a long overdue rest. This has somewhat started with Peace, which i believed paved the way, but Attuned affected it directly
No revelations, no particular desires or need of either. I can still manage to go about my newer long days of work and engagement with life. The only side effect, if I could call it that, has been the random " wood " that I’ve been getting which are unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Without any particular desires for anyone or anything oddly enough
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Life is starting to feel like the uphill that usually comes after a long period of troubles and hardship. Except this one does not follow the usual pattern. This one feels natural and brought by a change strong enough to re write the old
It started to feel real as soon as I started using HS Stage 1 Attuned but It’s been happening since I started using Peace. It doesn’t feel like a reward nor a " level " up through a revelation or lesson. It just is. I don’t really care about the specific how’s and why’s anymore. It just is and I am glad for it
There is another part that feels like getting too much into details would jinx my progress somehow. I don’t truly believe in such superstition but I know better from experience. It’s good either way, I don’t need the mechanics but I’d guess winning through alignment is something I will be getting used to
I can hear a faint echo wanting to scream " finally " but there is no need for that anymore. I am reclaiming the same importance that causes distance. This is the new normal and I intend to be grateful for it without glorifying it
Good job old me. You can start believing that you can rest easy now. And if you ever feel like showing up to check if we are in danger or not, you will be met with kindness and patience
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Last few days were quite rough. Attuned started causing slow burn recon that came and went in waves, same theme and different aspects. Self worth and feeling down because of varying outside factors.
With each wave I’ve felt a glimpse of the resolution. Something I have understood long ago but never was ready to tackle. That self worth and value could only ever start from within. The bad & painful pushed me away from facing this truth. The good and especially what feels good helped me forget about it.
There is no lying to ZP. There is no room for delusions. And one painful truth remained. I have a thousand reason to hate myself and the world, resolving them is no different than moving another step on the hamster wheel. Today I felt safe enough to be present within that pain. It felt grim, hopeless and yet it was not invincible. That was all I needed to do for it to dissolve. There was no grand revelation nor a reward. Just a quiet relief that the hard part is over
That I need only be present enough with the waves which unfold at the right time. While it’s easy to get lost in the mental noise when the waves crash, my head remains above the water. And I have the power to stay present with the discomfort, and to reclaim it’s power over me by yielding to the fact there is nowhere else to be. No reward to make me forget, no challenge for me to overcome and no noise that will ever create a solution.
I am beginning to believe that each painful wave of recon, regardless of size, contains a nugget that contains it’s entire energetic polarity through transmutation. That each wave seems to contain something I can reclaim simply by staying present with it.
Part 2: About a week ago a girl at my old workplace sent a picture of me, unknowingly, to one of her friends who told her to tell me that she was interested. I was quite in a social, open and fun mood and it felt right. Since then I’ve been texting and getting to know this mysterious girl who lives far away but seems to visit my town from time to time
As we got to test, flirt, tease, challenge and get to know each other it became obvious that she is an Attuned/WB themed connection for lack of better terms. Our chemistry is as effortless as it is refreshing. This is someone who seems genuinely interested in the real me, the new me i am settling into, and is emotionally mature enough to understand her own flaws and needs.
I told her about who I am, what I want and what I have to offer at the this time and we are quite aligned. She is super hot and knows it, and has been testing me to no end. Through our interactions, I began realizing and applying the lessons of what it truly means to connect with someone from a place of utter self acceptance and self appreciation, to enjoy the heights of the feminine beauty both softly and intensely and to connect freely without the shackles of shared pain and isolation be it mental, emotional or physical
Since we are both quite stubborn and self aware, this could be very well be the most intense, grounded & real connection I’ve ever experienced… Or either of us gets turned off because of a yet to be explored fundamental difference. We both seem to see the person 1st, while deeply feeling the picture 2ndly. However it goes, this has been quite the treat for my development. I sure as hell no longer have to worry about being " of value/of use " to her or anyone back. I always am, because I am the prize
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Stack Change
Replacing WB/Peace custom with
Wanted/Attuned/BDLM Custom
Base
1: WANTED Core ( Goal: Being magnetic for simply existing )
2: Attuned Core ( Goal: Self love & acceptance )
3: BDLM Core ( Goal: Thicker pp at 20 cm )
4: ESSENCE: Clear Sight ( Cognitive boost )
Shifting Modules
5: Sun-Kissed ( Goal: Health )
6: Voice Master ( Goal: To become comfortable talking with a deeper voice )
7: APS: Head/Face ( Goal: Dat Henry Cavil jawline )
8: Anvil of Hephaestus ( Goal: Retain muscle mass, little time for gym )
9: Emperor Fitness Height Inducer ( Goal: 190 CM )
Energy Modules
10: Fusion Core ( Goal: Energy )
11: SPS: Fat Burn ( Goal: Me like food, food go right places )
12: Radiating Health ( Goal: Healthy Boi )
13: Fusion Optimized ( Goal: Moar ENERGY )
Supportive Modules
14: Pragya ( Goal: Cognition & processing power )
15: Auric Overdrive ( Goal: Refining the Wanted ROAYLE aura )
16: Perfection Manifestation ( Goal: Big tiddy goth gf )
17: Epigenetics & DNA Modulator ( Goal: Fits neatly )
And Limitless/R.I.C.H Name embedded with New KB ST1
I’ve used my previous titles for a full cycle. At best I’ve made most use of Peace and Limitless cores respectively. As much as I love WB, It is simply the right title for me at the wrong time. I used to use titles as something that A: resonates and B: Something I can grow into with time.
But the most progress I’ve made was with titles resonated with who and where I am at. Not who I would like to be. WB is simply not a title for someone rebuilding and is only beginning to discover himself. After inquiring with qOS, Wanted is simply the better fit and it being a non-artisanal title means I could afford more processing power.
As for Attuned, It was a matter of choice between it and Peace. It is the better choice for my current goals and where I am at.
For the 2nd title slot. I have used R.I.C.H for most of 2026 and it has helped me land where I am today. But today asks for energy, commitment and lots of hard work with little to no room for scaling or exploring. Limitless helped but it too has served it’s purpose. And using a dual core name embedded is quite taxing.
So I will be revisiting KB which will synergize beautifully with my custom and I will get to focus on my neidan and tai chi practices when I am not working. Since the next year will be focused on setting a new base and establishing my stability. My current goal is to use each stage for 3 cycles until I reach and stay at stage 4 which will be included as a core in a new custom replacing Attuned.
By then Ill probably be using New Stark with R.I.C.H in a secondary custom but that’s subject to change. Will give my first impressions on the new KB stage 1 after washout
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