24 Month Journey of Transformation

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#1

The Will to Power + The Art of War + Hero

This stack will change based on intuition and shifting priorities.

The Art of War increased my libido significantly and uncovered a new level of charisma. When combined with The Will to Power the charisma was like nothing I’ve ever experienced.

When walking if I made eye contact with women some women would be surprised really surprised. I noticed their micro expressions and saw the pupils dilate. Never noticed anything like that before. Intuitively the surprise seemed to signal they thought I was out of their league. At work and in my personal life I felt more admiration. However I’ve learned to share the energy and not focus so much on myself. People are really interesting if I give them half a chance to shine.

Not what I was expecting.

There were other effects, I am more grounded in myself. I tested this with Emperor Daddy, Emperor and Hero. The most unusual effects were with Hero, the virtue scripting is very interesting. I was able to work through several long standing challenges, not 100% but with enough awareness and progress to shift things in my life in small but noticeable ways. One had to do with my relationships (platonic and romantic), I was able to truthfully face why I behaved in certain ways or withdrew from solid friendships and extremely promising intimate relationships.

Not saying this is a replacement to therapy, but I might never have been able to open up in a way meaningful enough to find the root cause. With AoW I was able to isolate situations, look at the overall arch and pinpoint the root. TWTP uncovered a way for me to side step my own self deceit. Hero gave me the courage to root around in the darkness and bring some uncomfortable truths to light.

You know what’s funny though? This stack has helped me uncover the person who is able to create the life I have longed for. Be it with dating, friendships, hobbies, wealth - life in general. A few carefully chosen subs, massive action, grit and patience.

The anti-recon script really helped. No desire to sub hop, drink, party as a way to avoid working through discomfort or any of that. Also probably helps I’ve become super responsive to subs.

Excited to see what Aeon and the new Hero brings has on offer. Should note finally renewed my gym membership and reprioritizing my physical health. This time more of a lifestyle that just wanting to go hard and chase gains or in my case weight loss:) I’ll focus on updating this journal monthly to really give things a change to breathe.

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#2

Can you expand a little on what you did to become super responsive to subs?

Despite seeing results, it usually takes time. EoG1 needed three cycles until I noticed a change in how I think about money and ways of earning it.

Right now I’m building a custom to battle my ADHD and I’m thinking about some modules to increase my responsiveness.

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#3

I don’t know. Sometimes I think khan black laid the foundation, followed by Alchemist: Singularity paired with meditation and unusual/odd sub combinations unlocked something.

But I don’t really know for sure how it happened.

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#4

Any update with this stack?

#5

Yes, however I’m going to stick to monthly updates. Gives a chance look at everything more holistically. For the moment waiting for the new Hero to drop and will swap out Origins for The Light That Blinds.

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#6

The Will to Power + The Art of War + Hero (washout for the next week)

While I like this combo, I’m figuring out how to work Aeon and TLTB into my stack. I’ll most likely run TLTB, Khan Black and Alchemist for 4 months before swapping out KB and Alchemist for Aeon.

In terms of observations, with the exception of this week I’ve been working out Monday - Saturday. I’m really, really enjoying the gym. I’m even trying out some new sports! Totally didn’t see that coming. To keep me on track so I don’t just inhale food all day, adding 16/8 intermittent fasting next week.

I drink socially but it’s become less and less appealing. By year’s end I won’t be drinking at all, it throws my energy off to much. I also need to change how I socialize.

The big thing in the past month has been a desire to double down and continue pursing my spiritual path. Thanks to AoW I was able to put together a plan for the next several years and I’ve found 4 people (how insane IS that?!) who will most likely become mentors/teachers at different points along the path. But that’s thanks to another sub in the Alchemist line.

Wish I could say I’m super excited but feeling more resolved than anything.

I see what needs to be done and I’m just focused on the next step. I’m no longer in a rush to accomplish things. Better to focus on fundamentals and build a solid foundation than to make a mess of things later on.

I signed up for a chess mentorship/training program with an eye towards seeing how TLTB helps with this. After 4 months I’ll most likely put AoW back in the stack so that will be interesting.

I’m feeling a bit anxious about running Alchemist. Last time it started unlocking things I just wasn’t in the right headspace for, that sub is effective. However, I’m ready for it thanks to Hero. I’m more honest with myself. It hasn’t always been pleasant, but I lied to myself long enough that when certain truths started surfacing well - it didn’t feel so good.

But it was necessary, if I kept living the way I have been in 3 years I would be in some serious trouble. So, got a long overdue wakeup call.

The interesting thing just when I think I’ve had some amazing breakthrough, I look up and realize I’m just in a new valley :joy: and I’ve been blessed with another opportunity for growth.

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#7

Wash Out

  1. Launched a startup.

  2. Experiencing extremely deep levels of relaxation—even while active. For instance when walking, each breath feels like it extends beyond my physical body and comes back like a wave in the ocean.

  3. Self discipline is at a new level, I still face challenges, however the progress is undeniable.

  4. I’ve had many moments of heightened courage and bravery.

  5. I let go many masks and more focused on being true to myself.

  6. My diet naturally cleaned itself up—mostly whole and healthy foods, but I still enjoy the occasional dessert without feeling guilty. I also no longer feel I have to “clean the plate,” breaking an old childhood habit rooted in guilt over global hunger.

  7. My awareness has become more single-pointed and focused.

  8. I’ve become better at letting things go and find it’s harder to hold a grudge than it is to just move on, this comes from having stronger boundaries and standing my ground with more confidence.

  9. Stopped being focused on quick fixes. I think long-term now and reverse-engineer results with intention.

  10. I rely more on systems than motivation. I feel success is certain so I no longer feel pressure to compromise my values for short-term wins.

  11. Activities that increase my level of joy is more important in my day-to-day, binge a lot less tv and have less interest in shows/movies that glorify violence.

  12. It’s easier for me to spot manipulative people and behaviour. Realized this is the space some people operate from by default.

  13. I always had ideas on how to fix everyone else’s life. That’s done, I listen and if asked offer what little insight I may have. Focused on moving myself forward and volunteer to fill that void of wanting to be helpful. It’s less stress and I’m happier.

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#8

Washout

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My relationships have shifted in ways I didn’t expect. People I once considered close friends revealed themselves as something else, and I began to see the subtle ways I’d been manipulated. The realization really hurt—deeply. But, I’ve taken steps to move forward.

I’m much more aware now of the subtle manipulations we all encounter daily. It’s tempting to just brush them off, but I try not to let myself grow emotionally calloused. Meditation has helped a lot. Still, I know I need to change my stack—I just want to sleep on it before making the move.

At the end of the day, I know it’s really just me. Every decision, every push forward—it all rests on my shoulders. The sense of ownership I feel is off the charts. My old stack—Emperor, House of Medici, and Stark gave me that powerful drive and deep sense of responsibility. But now I’m realizing I need more balance. So maybe The Light That Blinds, Aeon, I don’t really know… but these are things I’ll have to sit with before committing. Whatever I choose, I’ll be running it for at least 4–8 months, so it has to feel right.

On the startup front, I’ve onboarded my first salesperson and finally put systems in place to properly track metrics. I’ll admit, I came into this far too confident and optimistic. There’s still so much I don’t know. But the potential upside—for me, my team, and the market is totally worth the emotional rollercoaster. There are moments of doubt, followed by bursts of euphoria. It’s intense. Thankfully, I still have steady income from work and won’t fully step away until revenue surpasses or is possibly even double what I earn now.

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#9

My life is unfolding in ways I would never have predicted. I’ll give a brief update on a few key areas:

Startup

  • I finally let my family and circle of friends know I launched a startup. The amount of support and resources now available is pretty crazy. As for the actual business side of things, lots of challenges but I welcome them. It’s giving me a chance to level up a little bit every day. And while money is important my motivations are deeper, there is more conviction, if fully embraced my why. If anything I’m guilty of dragging my feet ever so slightly. No idea where this will go - very slowly a vision has been coming to me that is terrifying and inspiring at the same time. I’m listening to and reading about founders from different points in history. What’s really most appealing is how they dealt with adversity, where they dropped the ball and how they organized teams around a shared vision. Fascinating stuff.

Spirituality

  • Whoever thought starting a business would make me so much more aware of the divine? I acknowledge god in all things. And have forgiven myself for countless missteps and just bad judgement. Yet I know there will be more and this is part of my journey. Courage is what the work that comes to mind. It takes courage to have faith, to go after my dreams, to see failures and really take lessons from them…and to acknowledge the divine in my day-to-day life. I want to say it’s pretty scary but I don’t feel fear in the same way. I’m not sure what word to use in place of scary or fearful. In any event, I do know I want more of this feeling, this unfolding.

Health

  • I’ve naturally been able to maintain my weight. From a high of 220 I’m hovering around 186/187, and have been there for awhile now. The win for me is I just naturally regulate and haven’t focused on being insane with workout or diet. So I have a new set point. I’ll look towards hitting 175 in the months/year ahead. It’s helped my blood pressure a lot too which is great. My mind is more clear. I’l flirt with a few vegetarian meals during the week, just to see if I feel any differently. Interestingly I had one drink a couple nights ago, it hit me so hard the next day physically. This is from a guy who could take down 4 or 5 martinis and still keep the party going. I barely recognize that person now. But we all evolve, maybe no booze or very little booze is what’s next for me. That’s fine, on top of all that I’m walking a few miles each day. The key thing seems to be balance, which I can get with.

Relationships

  • I started dating again. There are a lot of great options out there, so many beautiful, dynamic women. Going after their goals, kicking ass and have so much love to give. No idea why I didn’t see it before. Now I can walk away if it doesn’t seem right, but not in anger or with a story about what was wrong with the person. I have a better sense of who feels right for me. Which is almost sad on one hand because I want to love everybody, and don’t want anyone to be alone. But…it’s not very practical. And we all have our journey, our dragons to slay.

Personal Environment

  • I’m becoming freakishly neat. Looking at my desk I can’t have clutter. Same thing with the rest of the apartment. While before I was very relaxed when it came to cleaning, now things have to be almost pristine. Not rigidly so, I just put systems in place to make sure everything is neat, organized, looks good and smells juicy.

Stack Goals

  • I want to have Alchemist and Khan Black in a custom for 1-2 cycles. With an eye towards swapping both for Aeon at the end of that cycle. This is the only firm decision I’ve made. By the next update I will be running the Alchemist and Khan Black custom. Chosen has been really coming up a lot for me lately too. I’m not sure where it will land though. My classic stack that hit just right was Emperor, House of Medici and Stark. While perfect at the time I really need to see how this combo will serve me moving forward. I’ll be adding modules from Emperor Executive for sure. Another combo that I think about is True Sell and True Social, something about it feels right when I think about how I come across in sales presentations.

That’s all for now:)

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