For me it all about being capable in every situation so that people can trust and rely upon you because you can trust and rely upon yourself. You know that whatever comes you can handle it with a relaxed and calm composure.
Kind of noticing a lot of insecurities coming up lately.
If I want to be truly secure within myself and have that complete self-trust in any situation I need to transform beyond these insecurities and it seems that is exactly what is happening.
Probably pulling the breaks off this program for a little while until all of this is fully processed. I did not have this discipline before but I realise now more that it is important to take it a “lesson” or step at a time. And some huge steps may take longer than others.
Processing is not quite linear because of that, it could shift tomorrow or in 5-days. Ill find out.