I’ve been running Genesis since launch and it’s a tricky sub because it’s just toooo well rounded, to a point that you cannot tell what and how it’s working
Through the first cycle it was so subtle that I told my buddy from the forum in private that I was about to ditch this sub, and I really never ever ditch a sun in the first cycle, ever. My buddy is very close to me and began to let me know how deeply I changed
They were right, I had taken this uniquely organic and wholesome approach to taking care of people in my life, through reading books to them (I am part of an art community for youngsters on the side) and the books varied between feel good manifestation books and power books by Robert Greene.
I looked at myself and realized this is not only the most organic thing I’ve ever done on this server but also, the most I’ve ever felt driven to really give back to them in a way that didn’t involve making money somehow.
So I decided to keep it
Come second cycle, I lost my job at the hostel I worked ( AND lived) at, which I began to feel was holding me down in life extremely hard. I realized that I had been there for a year out of scarcity mindset, and sheer comfort more than anything. I realized I had lost the adventurous spirit I once had when I ran Khan stage one in ZP which made me leap from Syria to America in the first place and decide to fly on my own and determine my own destiny
Losing my job was the most euphoric thing I felt in so long, I knew what it was before it happened even, as I felt I was about to manifest something that was going to kill my sense of feeling stuck in the world
Not only that, this came after a cycle and a half or so of fighting back the authorities in my hostel, which didn’t only consist of the owners and management that expected me to just be a grateful worker monkey, but also… co workers that were EXTREMELY fearful and stuck in life and were hell bent on imposing that on others
I went through an incident where I was near the front desk and I was flirting with a guest girl that was showing an enjoyment of the conversation, and one man and one girl were at the front desk chilling. The man just butt in and said “bro she ain’t feeling it” and I felt this insane push to fuck him over by just continuing… right after, the girl overly just said loudly “hey can you stop harassing her?”
This is when I saw what genesis is doing
I realized right after that; I was always low key hesitant to do anything around them, I had limited myself, because they are extremely small minded and me, believing I shouldn’t bite the hand that feeds (some are related to ownership, others been there for years and years) that I had always thought twice about how I act around them. It was clear now
On top of that, I had quit smoking weed for the first time because of Genesis and I had realized they all drink heavily, even the owner, they were all coping with life and I was the only free spirit, that they saw as some Syrian savage that needed to be re educated to suit the new world, their sick directionless world of crabs in the bucket
So I knew I was getting fired because I continued to oppose authority after this.
The entire process was scary because by default I had seen being here as a safety and a blessing, but it was clear I am destined for greater things, I settled in this place because I train daily for a year now (on Muay Thai mastery customs) and I liked the comfort but…. I was selling my potential short
After losing the job I felt euphoria, a sense of life I haven’t felt on over a year, a real real sense of freedom in which I felt as if the world was my oyster again, I envisioned all the beautiful possibilities, and how I can show the world what I’m made of as a free man
This is where Genesis got freaky
I went back to working as a mover very briefly as I jumped around new hostels (that I enjoyed thoroughly, making friends and meeting people that loved me) and during my work I was sent multiple times to San Jose, which isn’t anywhere close to San Francisco where I live
San Jose is a place I went to as a child every single year, our go to place in America, it is the treasure trove to all my deepest and most soul filled memories, working there just seemed to bring up a soul shaking sense of purpose, reminding me the drive behind me wanting to be in America my entire life…. It drove me to tears many times, and the manifestation was uncanny as I had worked a total of 7 days and been sent to San Jose for 3 of them. The rest of the days were manifestations of facing authorities at work in the form of young foremen that tried to dominate me but failed miserably due to my newly acquired sense of freedom and also… my new streak of wins over anyone trying to hold me…
From hostel to hostel, I now ended up in a house in Daly City, which upon teaching I knew was another manifestation from Genesis as I’m in the middle of huge suburbs, another bringing back to childhood, as San Jose is a huge suburb, and with it… the revelation of who I am
I can believe in complex I am as a human but in reality I’m just a chemical concoction of different core memories and traumas, and walking around these suburbs every night now for 4 days (I have 3 more days before I move to another place) has driven to me tears
Everything makes sense, why I love America, and always wanted to go there (my trips as a child) what exactly I love about America; the hard to word sensations and sights and feelings. Why I turned to World of Warcraft as a kid, that seemed to bring up that suburban feel that I felt when visiting America
Everything that drives me at the core
Yesterday I had a job interview at one of the most popular piers in San Francisco at a sport bar and arcade, as the bungee guy. And I passed with flying colors, the energy I bring something unique to the usually monotone “I work to make money” vibe others at the job bring. Working around tons of kids will definitely be my best development with Genesis and khan Black, as I’ll be reminded of what makes me breath and love life, while using my covert magnetism to give THEM deep core memories
Genesis is subtle, due to how it works, but make no mistake! One title you cannot go wrong with no matter who you are
Is Genesis
