Did yesterday morning 10 min of Kahn Black st 2 and a 3 min loop of Wanted Black.
The whole day I was occupied with setting new boundaries in my life and specially with women in a respectful way.
I the evening I was sitting at the river and smoked a joint. Some old fears arises and I could realese them. Then it hit me : smoke a big dose and eradicate the root cause once and for all.
So I was going back home to roll a fatty.
Its very unusual for me to smoke more than my normal doses but I knew it’s time.
I left my house and started to smoke it. Instead of my usual place I took a different way. I was walking until I found a place at the river I liked.
I sat down and I was ultra stoned. Then I saw a women behind me. She saw me and said hello.
I said hello back and she asked if she could sit next to me. I said yes.
We started talking and somehow I ended up telling her that I can’t follow her fast pace because I am stoned. She asked why I smoke weed and I told her my reasons. She wasn’t fire and flame for weed, she told me that this is nothing for her because she can’t handle it.
I told her that the trick with weed is simple. If your single then you have to be sensual to your self, love your body and stimulate yourself in a sensual way.
She made big eyes and was interested to hear a new perspective.
Then I showed her what I mean, I took her hand and put my finger in her hand, rubbing up and down in a hectic way. I told her that this is how most men treat her and she nodded, then I changed the speed to slow motion and realy enjoy my finger touching slowly her palms and rubbing my finger against her finger in sensual slow motion.
I told her that for me the whole body of a woman is a vagina and the head is the clitoris - she laughed wholeheartedly and from this moment on it was on. I had her, so I stopped and was watching the river again.
She then asked if I could teach her to roll a joint and I pull my tabak out and let her try to roll a cigarette.
She could not.
We talked about other stuff and in the middle of her sentence I just knew it was the right time to ask her, so I did, I stopped her and asked: do you want to come at my home and have a pleasureable expirience with me?
She was a little bit shocked and told me she doesn’t know me and she meet me 10 min ago, I responded in a silent way: I also don’t know you
She looked into my eyes and I told her that this is natural for me.
Then she said : OK but we don’t have sex tonight, it’s to early, maybe next time. I laughed and told her that we allready had sex and it’s beautiful, I love it.
5 min later we are at my home and she is giving me a foot massage and starts to massage my legs. I took her feet and gave her a foot massage that ended up whit her back on my chest. I slow motion her whole body.
From 11 pm to 4am she melted in my hands, she asked me many times if I want a girlfriend,she want a open relationship, a fuck buddy, she asked me if I want to go with her in holidays, she told me I saved her and I changed her worldview, good men still exists and she is grateful to meet me,she told me that it is perfect what I do,she even wanted me to don’t use the condom but this one is a no go for me, also she want us to get tested,
I had to tell her that my priority in life is to follow my path and that women are here to enjoy, even if it’s for just one night.
She accepted without complaining
We had a long time sex and I didn’t came.
My balls do hurt badly at the moment.
I have pain and happynes all over my face.
She left a hour ago to change her clothes and left me a message with her number.
I didn’t sleep, this will be a funny day
Thank you Subliminalclub
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I wonder to what extent WB has impacted that, or if it involves a perception shift of others.