ZP Journal (CHOSEN SOLO) - Ichiban is going up the ladder

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#7

Dec 10:
Last night I ended up coming back home at 2am. Had a pretty good night with a couple of buddies, although we ultimately didn’t play poker.

I had work to do, so I was up, coffee in hand, by 4.30am. Despite the little sleep I got, I’m feeling better than yesterday and have been fairly productive so far.

Today my boss told me they’ll repurpose me to focus on business development instead of running a project that starts early next year. This is excellent news because business development is just what I need to get promoted. Apparently, this was the reason behind his decision too. I didn’t ask for this change and was not expecting it, but he told me he wanted to put me in a position where I’d have the bandwidth to close the gap in my sales target so they could promote me. Works for me! :wink:

Aside from that, I’ve been toying with the idea of replacing RICH with WANTED. Frankly, I don’t notice anything special from RICH. I know this is not intended to be felt and that manifestations take time. However, I’m also starting to question why I added RICH in the first place. I don’t have any mental barriers related to money that I know of. There is no income ceiling, a concept that money is wrong, or anything like that. At least, that’s what I believe. I already make a pretty good income and feel fortunate that I don’t have to worry about money. All I care about right now is being promoted. I consider the promotion testament and recognition of the value I bring as a management consultant. That’s what matters to me.

I don’t care the least about the sexual attraction benefits from WANTED (as fun as they may be :slight_smile: ). Still, if it could remotely help me attract business opportunities, that’d be something I’d like to explore. I haven’t decided yet, because I don’t want to jump around from one title to the next and don’t want to dilute or alter the benefits from CHOSEN. But it’s something that I’m beginning to consider.

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#8

This is something I should be aiming for.

#9

You mean carving out time from your day to focus on this?

#10

More like I can take on additional work for my business partner/part-time boss.

Right now I am helping him out with social media management, digital marketing, content writing creation as well as the web portal management.

Next year there will be more work from him but I could possibly ask to take up to up a business development role for him in terms of growing his market intelligence business.

In fact, apart from my due diligence consultancy business which is a little bit separate (not entirely separate as I am an associate consultant in his sister company while I run my own independent consultancy), his market intelligence business is the type of business that I wanted to create, but never did…

I credit this to Ascended Mogul.

#11

Got it. I’d think there is a fair amount of overlap between the type of work you are doing now and business development. Everything that you described can be used for business development purposes, so you should certainly be able to position yourself as the best person to take on that activity.

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#12

Dec 11:
I had a good night’s sleep and dreamt quite a bit, although I can’t remember what it was.

I keep noticing ZP’s demand for extra sleep, water, and sweets; my body craves these things like crazy. For example, I don’t ever indulge in sweets, but I’ve raided my children’s stash more than once this week. I believe the results are unaffected, though. Thursday night, I slept 2 hours, and Friday was a great day in terms of how I felt and noticed CHOSEN to work.

In terms of the results, I’m starting to get used to feeling fantastic. I have infinite patience, nothing puts me in a bad mood, and people keep treating me with uncanny niceness wherever I go. It is fascinating when it happens with someone I know who is typically not overly friendly.

That happened yesterday when I got my weekly allergy shot. The person there is polite, but she is pretty dry and doesn’t talk much. I’ve been going there weekly for eight months now, and every time I leave, I say things like “bye, have a great weekend,” or “bye, have a good one,” to be answered by either “bye” or nothing at all.

Yesterday, when she informed me and another person waiting that our time was up (we have to stay for 10 min after the shot in case we get a reaction), she said “Ms (can’t remember her name), you can go now. Bye. Ichiban, you can go too”. So, I stood up, said: “Thanks, bye.” Then she said, “bye Ichiban, have a great weekend.”

I know it seems like nothing, but I swear this person has never said anything other than bye in eight months. In fact, that’s what she said to the other person waiting.

Again, it may not look like much, but it does because situations like this keep reinforcing good results. Admittedly, even though I’m a very open-minded person, I don’t have an easy time believing things like manifestations, auras, influencing people at a distance, etc.… So I always think there must be a scientific or rational explanation.

Since starting CHOSEN, I have continued to experience things that can’t be explained rationally. Over and over, the results keep piling up and never wane.

I don’t try to rationalize these situations anymore and attribute them exclusively to CHOSEN. I figured a good experience is a good experience. I don’t care if it comes from running the sub or if it’s all in my head. The bottom line is, these events have become too obvious and too frequent for me to question them. Do I believe 100% of these come from CHOSEN? Of course not. Do I believe CHOSEN to be responsible for most? Undoubtedly.

And to clarify, I’m exclusively speaking about the “external” results; how CHOSEN influences people around me. When it comes to the “internal” benefits, I’m 100% thanking CHOSEN for those. The negativity, the dread, the pessimistic outlook on life; all of that is completely gone and replaced with positivity, enthusiasm, and hope. I wake up every day expecting it to be better than the day before, and that is pure bliss. I haven’t felt this way (consistently) since my early twenties.

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#13

Dec 12:
Something I haven’t mentioned so far is that I’ve been feeling hornier than usual. This doesn’t seem like something that should be in the scripts, so I think it comes from having less mental clutter and thus more mental energy to engage in these kind of thoughts.

In a broader sense, I feel I have a larger appreciation for beauty in many forms; it can be music, art, or anything. I catch myself seeing the good in many situations. For instance, it’s happened more than once that I see a woman which I would not consider attractive, but I find myself thinking “oh, she has nice legs”, or “she has a beautiful smile, if she lost weight men would be all over her”.

Same with music. I may don’t like a song, but enjoy the voice of the singer. Or something that has happened often is that I may not like a car, but catch myself admiring its color or some aspect of its design.

I wasn’t like this before. I’ve always been more focused on “the package” than the details. Now I can appreciate both separately. Maybe this has to do with finding the good side of all things. I could see this being a way to stay positive, and it’s interesting how it works across many areas.

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#14

Dec 13:
I woke up in a particularly bad mood today, which never happened since starting CHOSEN.

Despite the bad mood I can definitely tell CHOSEN is acting because my kids broke something important to me this morning and I was unaffected. It’s like magic, nothing throws me off these days.

Regarding the bad mood, I’m pretty sure I’m feeling like this because of my diet choices this weekend. I ate all the candy in the world and then some. Like I’ve said before, I watch my diet very closely, so any deviation is rare and typically doesn’t make me feel good.

CHOSEN is making me crave sweets and also tends to make me more “balanced” in my approach to anything. My strict dieting is not a great fit for CHOSEN because I keep justifying “exceptions” to my rules. It could also do with the fact that I’m currently under my normal weight and CHOSEN is pushing me to correct this. I have been training for a triathlon and my weight has dropped significantly. To the point where I don’t like myself in pictures because I look gaunt. I feel great, but I’m definitely more visually appealing with a few more pounds.

In any case, I’m correcting this immediately. I know that results are largely the same whether I give in regarding eating sweets or not, so I’ll control myself and will go back to my regular diet. I’ll drink plenty of water and sleep as much as I can, which are the other two things CHOSEN is pushing me to do.

Also, I decided to drop RICH starting today. Reading through my posts I barely ever mention RICH. It’s probably doing its thing in the background, but I honestly don’t think I need it.

Regarding adding WANTED, I’m still hesitant for three reasons:

  1. CHOSEN and WANTED are two very different archetypes, so I’m concerned results would be diluted. Also, the combination may make me feel unstable, just as I felt when mixing Emperor and Stark. I know this has worked for many people, but it didn’t do it for me.
  2. Questionable application of WANTED to business relationships. I’m not interested in attracting the opposite sex because, being married, this can only lead to trouble. If WANTED has no business application then it’s not worth it for me to add.
  3. I want to add HOM whenever it becomes available. Seeing that Mogul was recently added, maybe it won’t be too long before HOM gets added as well. I prefer to keep only two ZP titles, so WANTED will be replaced anyway and I prefer not to switch too often.

Finally, a big change is that I don’t notice the mood uplift anymore. Except for this morning, I have been in a constant good mood throughout the day. I guess this is my new baseline and the reason why I don’t notice my mood getting better after running CHOSEN.

I’m cautious to consider this permanent change, though, because I’m still running it and I suppose my mood could deteriorate overtime if I stopped. In any case, a “maintenance” schedule whereby I run CHOSEN once a month would probably fix this.

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#15

Dec 14:
I seem to be going through some reconciliation. It’s a shame because everything was going great, but something shifted yesterday and it’s been downhill since then.

I woke up fairly ok, but my mood gradually worsen throughout the day and it’s pretty shitty right now.

Things at home are not helping. My wife is getting on my nerves. I don’t feel like getting into the details here but she is being selfish and asking for too much from me.

I’m very busy all the time, already spread too thin, so being pushed to give more is throwing me off. Particularly when she acts entitled about it.

Also, I’ve been super distracted and unmotivated at work. This doesn’t help, of course, because work is piling up at a faster rate than usual and that makes me procrastinate even more.

Based on how I’m feeling, I’m thinking a longer rest period is in order. Today was a rest day, but I’m going to skip tomorrow as well. I’ll return to my listening schedule either the next day or the day after based on how I’m feeling.

#16

Dec 15:
Even though today wasn’t a rest day, I didn’t run anything to limit creeping feelings of reconciliation. Since tomorrow is a rest day, I’m thinking of not running anything either, that way I can go back on schedule the following day. Even then, I’ll probably run only one loop to gauge how I react before going back to my regular plan.

Today I felt I bit better than yesterday, but far from how I felt when I started using Chosen. I’m definitely not in a good mood, but not in a bad one either.

Now that I think about it, I’m in a pretty decent mood considering today’s ups and downs. I’ve been told at work that I may need to start a project early next year, instead of being able to focus on business development. This sucks because it’s a project outside of my practice area, so it doesn’t support my career progression and will take time away from me developing business where I should. Also, it will probably require that I travel to Mexico and I’m not keen on getting back into the dynamic of Monday through Thursday travel.

On the flip side, I found out that I can already pick up my new company car tomorrow, so that is a nice thing happening. Also, I was contacted by a recruiter of a well-known consulting firm asking me to interview with them. That is also good news. I’m not particularly interested in switching companies now, but it doesn’t hurt to have an offer to use as leverage if I need to. Good timing as well. If I end up not getting promoted in three months I can take this exit instead. They are hiring for the next level, so it’d be a promotion even if I leave for this company.

Aside from that, I feel I have more energy. I didn’t sleep much, only about 4 hours, and yet I’m feeling less tired than in the past two days. Running ZP does take a significant amount of mental energy. It’s incredible considering the shorter duration and that I was running only 2 loops every other day.

Last thing to note is that, even though my mood is less than ideal, the increased confidence and gravitas has not diminished despite the reconciliation I’m going through. I’m getting the impression that results have various levels of permanency. I’m assuming this varies person to person. In any case, I’m happy to see not everything is lost.

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#17

Dec 16:
Taking time off was a great decision. I need to stop thinking that more loops lead to faster or better results. With ZP this is certainly not the case.

I’m progressively feeling better and noticing many of the benefits from CHOSEN. Especially that of being almost immune to stress, worry and negativity.

I was in a situation today where I was running a meeting with about 10 people, while I had a technician fixing my spin bike and constantly asking me questions. Somehow I was able to handle it and never felt stressed or out of control. Something like this would’ve been extremely stressful before, now it was a non issue.

With results like this it is always very weird because I can still see how I should feel stressed, yet I don’t. It’s not like I’m a different person who doesn’t think of a situation like that as stressful. I still do, but I don’t feel it.

As planned, I’ll return to my schedule tomorrow, but will only run one loop. I’ll keep it at one loop every other day until I am consistently free of reconciliation. If all goes well I may increase to two loops every other day, since I’m only running CHOSEN. On the other hand, if I go back to feeling reconciliation I’ll follow the latest listening instructions Saint shared today and take two rest days instead of one in between loops.

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#18

Dec 17:
Great results today even though I’m yet to run the loop I had planned.

I was at the dealer because my car was having issues with one of the charging ports. As always, thanks to Chosen I was not even a little upset, although I had plenty of reasons to be.

Also, the treatment I received there was like I’ve never had before. Everyone was super helpful and treated me with a level of respect new to me. This is even more shocking considering I was very casually dressed, so nothing in my attire would indicate that I was a person of high status.

Oh, and I noticed much more attraction from women too. Especially an attractive lady that must’ve been in her early 40s. I was waiting at the dealer minding my business when I realized she was shamelessly staring. By the way she looked at me, there was only one thing in her mind and it was rated R :wink:

So, again, very happy with how things are progressing. After a three-day rest, it seems I’m finally out of the woods. No more signs of reconciliation.

I’ll run a loop before going to bed and will report tomorrow on how that goes.

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#19

Feels good to have the treatment without needing to look the part doesn’t it?…subclub sure knows how to bring the respect flowing from others and consistently too.

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#20

For sure. People should respect others regardless, but the reality is that wearing a suit typically makes a difference in how you get treated. With Chosen it doesn’t matter, it must create some sort of aura that triggers these responses in people around you.

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#21

Dec 18:
Yesterday I ended up not running the loop at night as I had intended. I was too tired and didn’t want to fall asleep with it on.

I ran it this morning instead, so I ultimately took four days off subs. As I said before, it was a very needed rest. ZP certainly takes a toll and less is oftentimes more.

So far so good. It’s still early in the day, but no signs of reconciliation so far and my confidence and mood are on point.

I’ll rest tomorrow and will run my next loop on Monday if everything keeps going well.

#22

Yea society in general is still about style over substance half the time.

#23

I’m feeling my patience slipping. I can’t blame it on reconciliation, though, that couldn’t be…I ran one loop of Chosen this morning after four days rest.

What I think is going on is that I started vacations today. I’m off work until January 4th. This should be good news, but lately I realized I feel better when I have work to do, otherwise my day gets pushed around with family commitments and an unending list of chores.

Today I have not stopped doing shit for others since I woke up at 6.30am. It’s after 10pm and I’m too tired to do anything I’d actually enjoy now that the day is finally over. This is very regular, by the way, and it pisses me off like few things do.

To end with something more positive, this morning I was in a very good mood, positive and confident. Typical feelings I get from Chosen, and they lasted until 5pm or so. This is why I think it’s not reconciliation this time. It’s simply that my home responsibilities are too much for me too handle sometimes.

#24

Are you the type that has an issue saying no?

#25

Depending to whom. When it comes to my family I have that issue 100%

#26

I have the same issue. I’ve been finding it easier to say “no” since I started listening to ZP.

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