Confidence feels sometimes a bit shaky, old insecurites coming up.
People react to my new status, but I sometimes only notice it afterwards. Had this before on Emperor when I was internally working through stuff, while still receiving treatment for my new status.
Some challenges, some are more distant, some outright submissive/attracted.
The power-dynamics are definetly shifting and IĀ“m all for it.
The ghosting/getting ignored from some people is real, In the past it would have made me insecure,
now IĀ“m getting used to it. More careless.
Energy is somewhere between slightly below average and deadish tired, TB is the most exhausting program IĀ“ve run so far. IĀ“ve accepted it as a temporary state, bc I can tell thereĀ“ll be a higher baseline afterwards. By dissolving fears and shame, it clears up a lot of mental bandwith, that I can now use for beneficial things.
Reached out to people for gardening jobs, made some money from that.
Put a lot of things up for sale, made 85 bucks from that the next day, have another 125 coming in next week.
On one hand I feel this powerful urge(ncy) to get rich NOW, on the other hand I donĀ“t want to invest time and energy into something that wonĀ“t work out.
Just feeling super tired over the last week, I wake up and just want to go back to sleep.
New apartment lined up for the end of the month, itĀ“s just perfect 
