Cycle 7 day 19
DRLD 2m30s HeO 1m30s AC3m3s
i got the intuition to stop AC at 3m. I’ll try to follow my intuition more.
I’ll play DRLD & HeO for 15m on day 21. it will be the first time I got exposed to 15m of HeO, I wonder what will happen.
Update 1:
I did another introspection.
I thought i felt strange yesterday because of a problem. But that was incorrect. I got it the other way around.
The feeling came first, then my mind was trying to attribute it to a problem. Not the other way around. It was not because my mind came up with a problem then i felt bad about it.
I did a deeper introspection.
I found that the root cause may be because I don’t trust my own mind. I thought i trust myself, but there is a deeper layer of distrust that i wasn’t aware of.
Becoming aware of it is enough for now. If i’m able to figure out how to increase my self trust, that’s good. If not, whatever. A bit of discomfort doesn’t mean much as long as i can live my life well.
Update 2:
I did another introspection
compared to before I used LBFH, there are a lot more people who are close and put their trust in me. i was aware of it, but I didn’t think too much about it until I did this introspection now.