I found it.
It was from DRR2.
I played it for 7m30s earlier alongside LBFH for 4m.
Now the feeling is suddenly back.
DRR2 was the one causing it.
So now I know for sure that DRR2 are causing these recons:
Strong feeling of vulnerability
Feeling unworthy
Surface level self defeating thoughts
I’ll listen to DRR2 again in 10 days then take a break from DRR2 for 2 months.
Let’s see how much the recon will go down over time.
LBFH is the best sub to deal with these recons.
Its goals are directly targeting them.
That’s why I felt LBFH’s effects were strong even though I thought I was done with LBFH half a year ago
LBFH is still a better option for me too than LB because it’s solving my problem with finding the balance with LE. It’s hitting 2 birds with 1 stone. I’m glad I switched back to LBFH even though I planned to use HeO instead. I guess that’s partly my intuition taking the wheel.
That’s actually a good idea, I didn’t think of that.
I’ll swap AC for DRR2. +2s every listening day. 4 times a month starting in the middle of next month.
I’ve tested swapping AC with another microlooped sub in a 2 sub stack a few times.
I always came out fine without side effects/overload. So I’m sure this time won’t be different either.
I’ll use the microloop during the break periods from using DRR2 like normal going forward.
I think I found one more recon from DRR2.
It’s so subtle that I didn’t even notice it until I did a deeper introspection.
I became less secure about not having a conclusion.
I usually feel fine leaving things as they are if I can’t make a strong conclusion yet out of the facts provided, or lack thereof.
The recon made me insecure about the unknown, about not making a statement.
It made me want to jump to a conclusion as a way to make me feel secure.
It’s fine in a social setting, but horrible in my field.
Well i guess i have learn about energy based meditation, rofl.
This sub will be amazing for creativity.
I know this because that’s how i honed my creativity all these years.
Embracing the other perspectives, the opposite, even when it’s uncomfortable to do.
This subs will also be amazing for my own growth in general.
I want to put it straight into my stack, but i just switched to LBFH a week ago. Then I planned to switch my stack to EB + DRR1. I can’t justify adding more variables to this. Too much stack switching won’t be good.
I guess i’ll add it into the stack when i want to focus on growing my creativity.
Now i’m still focusing on productivity.
I’ll find a way to add it to the custom i planned to make.
The plan was to make a custom with ME + UA + NR.
Then stack it with either DRR1 or DRR4, i’m still figuring out which one is better for my goals.
I guess I’ll make a DRR + AS custom too or switch ME/UA/NR for AS.
I’m hesitant to make DRR1 into a custom because it’s already perfect.
I don’t want to mess with perfection.
For DRR4, i still don’t know how i will react to it.
Making it into a custom will be too rash.
I think making 2 subs, ME + UA and DRR + AS will be the best plan for now.
I’ll eliminate NR to make the stack lighter, and put all of NR modules into the second sub.
I’ll use DRR1 + AS first for a year, then think about how i want to progress to DRR4 afterwards.
I’ll be messing with DRR1’s perfection, but something gotta give. I won’t know what can happen if i don’t experiment anyway.
You’re running DRR2 rn, right? You mentioned DRR4 in the custom so are you planning on continuing with stage 3 then 4 later? I thought you had paused DRR2.
Yep, I was hesitant to use DRR4, but AS’s effects are exactly what I need to be sure about using DRR4.
I moved the plan to use the customs for more than half a year. So now that I’ve given myself more time to use LE & EB, I have more breathing room to include both DRR2 & DRR3.
I plan to run DRR2 2 times a month for 7m30s each alongside LBFH & LE until I get no more recon from it. Then run it 2 times a month for 15m alongside DRR1 & EB/LE until no more recon.
After that, I’ll run DRR2 normally + EB/LE. Then DRR3.
I’m predicting that DRR3 won’t be as hard as DRR2.
But if it is, I’ll take longer & use the same method with LBFH.
Yeah I’m changing my plan even though I just made one a few days ago, but I didn’t expect Fire would drop a sub as hard as AS. It’s the sub I’ve been wanting all this time. So the plan gotta adapt to that, lol.
My mind is rejecting the concept of qi, but i’ll stay with the exercise earnestly and keep open minded. I plan to use Alchemist Singularity in the beginning of 2026. So that’s plenty of time to comprehend the qi before i start using AS.
I always feel more energized after i do qigong.
My breathing also gets deeper.
That’s all i know about it for now.
Maybe this is what they mean by qi. I’ll try to explore it from here.
For now, I’m trying to understand qi from my understanding of the world.
It’s like how we used to think that lightning is formed by the gods.
no, we later discovered that it is formed by static electricity in the sky.
either way, the lightning itself is real, regardless of the explanation of its origin.
Or the superstition that says “cover your mouth when you’re sneezing so your soul won’t escape”.
Obviously your soul won’t escape, but it’s still beneficial to stop you from passing harmful germs to other people.
Same procedures with different understandings, but they still produce beneficial outcomes.
I’ll try to imagine qi as a metaphor, or for lack of a better word, a bootleg explanation of the benefits of the movements & the act of trying to feel the qi.
This is the easiest explanation I can accept for now.
I’ll keep using this explanation for myself until I’m proven wrong.
Normally, I won’t think too hard about it, but AS is explicitly about “energy cultivation”.
I hope AS will still be beneficial for me later when I use it even if my belief about qi doesn’t move away from what I wrote above.
YES bro that’s literally what I’m saying. You are literally the Singularity.
Even here - AS is about balancing (polar opposites but also the self)
I think having a deep understanding of Qi before running AS is about as useful as having mastered swordplay before starting HERO.
Better to use it on the opening journey, and even something as simple as Tai-Chi with (or without) swords, or sword play even without taichi, is enough to be the “physical/energetic” aspect of an action-approach aspect to master AS with.
bridging the rational and energetic is a great examples of Polarities and Paradoxes.
Every day I get even more tempted to use the new AS & ME, rofl.
But I’m still milking many benefits from LE, LBFH, & DRR too. So I gotta stay with them for now.
I hope it will, I won’t have access to LBFH when I use the 2 customs I planned.
So AS should better act as the balancer of the stack or I’ll end up needing to use LBFH/HeO every once in a while to act as one.
Swordplay is more familiar to me, in the sense that I know the science, benefits etc of training with one even before I started it.
Qigong and the stuff about energy on the other hand is almost completely alien to me.
I have felt what it feels like to be around people who cultivate energies, but as a wannabe energy cultivator, I’m oblivious to how to implement it for myself.
I was worried that I’d end up not being able to understand anything when I used AS and wasting the energy scripting. That’s what I was truly concerned about. So familiarizing myself more with qi seemed to be a good way to start.
Unlike the other subs where the manifestations seem to work automatically without our “direct” meddling with the universe, AS seemed like a title that only worked for people who understand & play with energies.
At least that was my initial impression of it.
But the more I think & learn about it, the more I get assured that It won’t be a problem when I use AS.
I don’t need to understand how lightning is formed to know what lightning is.
AS will also take care of my worry about not being able to bridge the rational and energetic to reap the benefits as you said.
It’s like how there are still holes in my understanding of manifestation, yet it’s still working exceptionally well in my life.
My hypothesis is that the duality & the energy scripting will take care of themselves as long as I’m actively doing the energetic exercises like qigong.
I just had the most effortless meditation i ever did after combining it with Qigong & EFT.
5m Qigong to let my mind & body settle →
EFT to make me more relaxed & accepting with the challenges in meditation →
Mindfulness meditation →
EFT to clean up whatever problem i spotted within the meditation →
5m Qigong to wake up my body again.
I have to spend 15m more every meditation session with this routine, but it is worth it.
I’m starting to notice LBFH’s effects too.
Lower frequency of self defeating thoughts, shorter negative thinking, bliss, self love etc.
Theses are the classic effects that were starting to lose their intensity after i stopped using LBFH. I’m happy to see them come back again.
I searched more about Qigong and found out more about what to expect from qi.
It’s supposed to be felt, not imagined like what I learned from energy meditations I know.
They say feeling the energy is not required to benefit from the exercise.
This lines up with my experience.
I’m glad I’m actually giving qigong a try.
I have been feeling better overall after I started it.
5m every hour when I’m home. It’s perfect for my needs.
Taichi with a sword is still too hard, I’ll learn qigong first before attempting it again.
Should i get it? Money is not a problem.
I want to see how a normal custom feels though.
Maybe i’ll get a QTKS after i’m done with the first stack of customs a few years from now.
