Why did i insist to always play Ascension Chamber for 7m?
I will start microlooping it from 30s next cycle.
If 30s of mogul every 6 days works, then there’s no reason why 30s of AC won’t.
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Cycle 7 day 20
Rest
I did another introspection.
I think my mind is ready & eager to take more activities than before i used HeO, but my body isn’t yet.
I kept brushing it off. I know that my body needs to adapt slowly, but i didn’t expect it to be this slow. Deep inside, I was too impatient.
It’s a long term journey, there’s nothing to rush.
I will dial it back. Listen to my body. And most importantly, be kind with it.
Update 1:
I’m now convinced that the effect of seeking, getting and being guided to get more clarity & certainty that I felt in the last cycle was because of DRLD. i read the description page too and it’s there.
it works, that’s a really smart way of breaking limits.
Update 2:
I just remembered that I had a dream about sword fighting. I do sword training so much that it’s even in my dream now. maybe it’s because of the sub too.
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I have more time to be with my own mind now. That made me think about what sub to use after i’m done with DRLD in cycle 9.
I originally planned to use mogul, i chose it because it’s convenient, light, super effective and i already bought it, lol.
But wealth is not my main goal, it’s nice to have but i already have enough to live a comfortable life. All i care about is mastery over my craft & the people i love and care about.
I will use RM:UWX instead. I’m not a writer specifically, but a lot of the goals overlaps with what i do. It also has wealth scripting in it so I won’t miss much.
Hopefully the new wealth experience for RM:UWX will come in november.
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I know RM UW is the more modern title but if you’re not really into writing but like the Renaissance Man style of RMUW why not just run the actual Renaissance Man title?
I also was very attracted to either version of RM + HERO, they fit each other like a glvoe
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I should’ve said that what i had in mind as a writer is someone who write things like books and articles. Something long and focused only on writing.
What i do is much more brief and not focused on the act of writing itself, but the idea of moving people, taking them on a journey, by what i do or make, whether it’s written or not, is similar.
I was thinking about using UA or RM like you said, but RM:UWX is closer to what i do.
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Cycle 7 day 21
HeO 15m + DRLD 15m
this is the first time i ran HeO for 15m. i felt energized, and then I felt heavy after I played DRLD for 5m.
I want to take a nap. the drowsiness feels like the first time I ran LBFH.
Update 1:
I woke up and started learning & doing vipassana. I suddenly got curious about whether should i shift my focus to the sensation on my body or not, and more.
Update 2:
I feel an intense craving for food, something sweet like a cake.
This is really strange, I usually eat pretty clean. I don’t even have sugar or snacks in my house.
It feels like the craving for water when i was running WB.
well, If it’s the sub giving me guidance, then I’ll have my cake and eat it too.
Update 3
Yes, a really sweet food was what i needed. Finally after days of anxiety, unease, restlessness etc, they’re just gone. I feel normal again.
Maybe it was recon all along and not overworking.
I know i said that i will reduce my workload, but i’ll go back to the schedule i made after i started HeO to see if it’s really because of overworking or do i just need some sweet dirty food.
I don’t know whether the push to eat sweet things came from 15m of HeO or 15m of DRLD. Either way, it’s good.
Update 4:
This is a few hours after i wrote update 3.
Eating a sweet food was what i needed. I still feel calmer and better than before.
Is it because i do sword training on top of my workouts, work etc now?
Is it because of the subs?
I don’t know, but i will start eating sweet stuff from now on.
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Thankyou so much! I’ve been looking around for resources but there was no structure to how i searched for it. I’ll read it right away.
I believe I can send you the PDF while you wait but I HIGHLY recommend the book for a better experience
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Thankyou for the offer, but i got the ebook immediately after you mentioned it, lol.
I’ll think about getting the physical copy too, i usually only read ebooks, but yeah, for a meditation book, maybe it’s better if i read the real thing.
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Action taker
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Rest day 1
looking back, for the whole day, i was guided since I woke up from the nap I took after HeO & DRLD for 30m yesterday
from meditation, eating sweet things, walking, reading things I like etc.
they helped me feel normal again from the recon/anxiety. it didn’t feel like I was giving effort towards it, I feel guided and it works.
the full scripting from HeO or DRLD must have had a part in this.
Update 1:
I don’t have the natural push to be productive like i usually have. I did everything using will power today.
Is the healing script taking priority?
Is it because i used the subs for 30 minutes total?
Is it because yesterday was the last listening day in the cycle?
Too many variables, I can’t narrow it down. Maybe it’s because of them all.
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I need to experiment.
I remember doing 17 days instead of 21 days gave me the least recon (cycle 3).
On the cycles after that, i did different things on the 19th day.
Now i will experiment with 17 days again.
I will also test:
- 4 days of washout instead of 5
- i will listen to the subs on day 17 in the morning
- then listen to the subs on day 1 in the night
I will do this on cycle 8 & 9, if i feel like it’s too much, then i will go back to 5 days.
The listening schedule:
1 HeO + DRLD
2 Rest
3 LBFH + AC
4 Rest
5 HeO + DRLD
6 Rest
Then repeat.
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Rest day 2
I don’t feel anxious & uneasy out of nowhere anymore after i ate sweets 2 days ago.
My productivity hasn’t gone up back though. I have to rely on willpower, which is not bad, but it’s far from how automatic the discipline i felt when i was running HeO before the anxiety recon hit.
I guess the healing scripts are taking priority over the productivity ones.
I have one more hypothesis about why i got the anxiety recon after i woke up some days ago:
-i listened to videos about musashi & stoicism on the side almost all day everyday. When i’m eating, working, exercising, bathing, even when i’m asleep. The only time i don’t is when i can’t.
I don’t know the exact reasonings, but something inside of me tells me that this might be the cause of it. I will stop it for now and see what happens
Update 1:
productivity is slowly getting back up.
i hope it will be a smoother ride going forward.
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Rest day 3
The washout dreams are coming back.
It’s good. If it’s in my dream then my subconscious is healing it already
Update 1:
I don’t spar, but I do battle against mosquitoes.
so far, I have defended myself against (killed) more mosquitoes than usual.
I have also bought things to defend myself better. ensuring better survival for myself.
I’m sure that this is not the intended purpose of the survival instinct scripting in HeO, but I will write this here just in case that it’s actually covered in the scripts, rofl. 
Update 2:
I think this might be the answer. I don’t feel as overwhelmed or anxious anymore. Well, too much of a good thing is not good.
I begin to apply what i heard from the videos too. Is this because of HeO or is the way that i listen to the videos make it behave like a bootleg subliminal on its own? If it’s the latter then i’ll not do that ever again.
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Rest day 4
the productivity is back. not HeO level of productivity, but it doesn’t feel like a drag anymore.
i think the healing is mostly done. I’m back to normal.
i will use LBFH on day 1 next cycle. I want more rest from HeO & DRLD first.
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do you have a resource on teaching yourself how to do sword katas or swordfighting at home alone?
only youtube and the book of five rings that I used to put on repeat when I was asleep.
I tried following videos about swords etc, but this video is the one that I’ve been doing 90% of the time:
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I think I’ve gotten quite good at it, I spent so much time doing the drill when I had the free time.
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Rest day 5
Productivity is back to normal, still not HeO level of normal, but I don’t have to exert too much willpower to do them.
I don’t feel as good today, it’s still within the normal range though so it’s not a problem.
Update 1:
This chain of manifestation of events is insane.
I thought the recon a week ago was bad. But that thought couldn’t be more wrong. It gives me the right environment that made me take more time to think about myself and led me to a sequence of events seemingly so unrelated to each others that resulted in me discovering one of my biggest flaw that i wasn’t aware of. One that has been limiting me all this time.
DRLD & the scripting in HeO that says unraveling through doing your craft definitely plays a part in it.
this is from the master class. it’s as it says.
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Cycle 8 day 1
LBFH 5m40s AC 30s + 30s
i forgot to stop LBFH at 5m and there was a really loud motorcycle when I was playing AC, so I repeated it for 30s. I’m going to be honest, that was upsetting.
Update 1:
I did an introspection.
i wasn’t upset because of the motorcycle sound, I was feeling upset before I listened to the subs, and then I attributed the bad feeling to the motorcycle noise.
that’s nothing worth journaling over, but I decided to write it because it showed to me that I’m able to be more aware of my thoughts & feelings now after HeO & DRLD. in a good way. they increase my emotional awareness.
if it were still me from before, I would still be mad over the noise, not knowing that it was not the cause of the feeling in the first place. i bet it’s the clarity scripting from DRLD that’s doing the job.
Update 2:
my productivity doesn’t drop, it usually drops when I only play LBFH or whenever I play AC.
so 15m of LBFH or 7m of AC were too much.
i will only play them for 5m & 30s this cycle. once every 6 or 8 days.
since I’ll only do 17 days + 4 restdays from now on, I’ll only use LBFH & AC 3 times in a cycle.
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