Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

Journals - Major Programs
#183

Cycle 7 day 16

Rest

I need to follow my instinct more.
HeO sharpens it a lot.
And the result is always better if i just listen.

It’s fine though, HeO also makes me aware that i can always learn and grow from whatever my decision is. The emotional control from it is really good.

Update 1:

I did another introspection

I think I understood the physical shifting from HeO wrong.
it won’t channel the hidden power within that will increase my stamina, endurance, strength etc.
what it will do is guide me to have more of those with like motivation, information, build habits & more.

if i see it from that point of view, the physical shifting from HeO is working well.

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#184

Cycle 7 day 17

DRLD 1m43s HeO 1m20s

I work & learn more than I did before HeO, but I feel healthier.

Getting a wooden sword was a really great idea.
I’m glad I joked that I would buy one if the new sub would be a sword mastery sub.
it’s enjoyable and it helps me to be more fit.

I train with it after my workout and when I periodically rest from work.
it’s better and more fun than what I did before.

i take action on everything in HeO except for sparring. the sub really feels like it was made for me, even the sword mastery scripting is unexpectedly helpful for my productivity.

I’m not sure if this is what the unfolding experience from HeO feels like, but when I do my daily activities like working, exercising, and even drinking iced tea, sometimes I get random insights that help me improve other parts of my life.

Update 1:

I’m doing a full day of rest today. the contrast to how busy I usually am made me realize how much HeO increased my productivity.

I thought mogul was too much. HeO shows me that I can do more. but it wasn’t enough, I wasn’t able to live up to it yet.

then I got the intuition to start DRLD, it guided me & destroyed the limitations that stopped me from being more productive.

i will start LBFH again when my intuition says that it’s the right time. HeO sharpens my intuition a lot, I will follow it as much as possible

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#185

Cycle 7 day 18

Rest

Productivity high.

I woke up feeling anxious. a lot of things that I felt scared and uncertain about came up and then they were gone, like they were being healed one by one throughout the day. I think I manifested the materials I needed to fix them too.

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#186

Cycle 7 day 19

DRLD 2m30s HeO 1m30s AC3m3s

i got the intuition to stop AC at 3m. I’ll try to follow my intuition more.

I’ll play DRLD & HeO for 15m on day 21. it will be the first time I got exposed to 15m of HeO, I wonder what will happen.

Update 1:

I did another introspection.

I thought i felt strange yesterday because of a problem. But that was incorrect. I got it the other way around.

The feeling came first, then my mind was trying to attribute it to a problem. Not the other way around. It was not because my mind came up with a problem then i felt bad about it.

I did a deeper introspection.

I found that the root cause may be because I don’t trust my own mind. I thought i trust myself, but there is a deeper layer of distrust that i wasn’t aware of.

Becoming aware of it is enough for now. If i’m able to figure out how to increase my self trust, that’s good. If not, whatever. A bit of discomfort doesn’t mean much as long as i can live my life well.

Update 2:

I did another introspection

compared to before I used LBFH, there are a lot more people who are close and put their trust in me. i was aware of it, but I didn’t think too much about it until I did this introspection now.

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#187

Why did i insist to always play Ascension Chamber for 7m?

I will start microlooping it from 30s next cycle.

If 30s of mogul every 6 days works, then there’s no reason why 30s of AC won’t.

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#188

Cycle 7 day 20

Rest

I did another introspection.

I think my mind is ready & eager to take more activities than before i used HeO, but my body isn’t yet.

I kept brushing it off. I know that my body needs to adapt slowly, but i didn’t expect it to be this slow. Deep inside, I was too impatient.

It’s a long term journey, there’s nothing to rush.

I will dial it back. Listen to my body. And most importantly, be kind with it.

Update 1:

I’m now convinced that the effect of seeking, getting and being guided to get more clarity & certainty that I felt in the last cycle was because of DRLD. i read the description page too and it’s there.

it works, that’s a really smart way of breaking limits.

Update 2:

I just remembered that I had a dream about sword fighting. I do sword training so much that it’s even in my dream now. maybe it’s because of the sub too.

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#189

I have more time to be with my own mind now. That made me think about what sub to use after i’m done with DRLD in cycle 9.

I originally planned to use mogul, i chose it because it’s convenient, light, super effective and i already bought it, lol.

But wealth is not my main goal, it’s nice to have but i already have enough to live a comfortable life. All i care about is mastery over my craft & the people i love and care about.

I will use RM:UWX instead. I’m not a writer specifically, but a lot of the goals overlaps with what i do. It also has wealth scripting in it so I won’t miss much.

Hopefully the new wealth experience for RM:UWX will come in november.

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#190

I know RM UW is the more modern title but if you’re not really into writing but like the Renaissance Man style of RMUW why not just run the actual Renaissance Man title?

I also was very attracted to either version of RM + HERO, they fit each other like a glvoe

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#191

I should’ve said that what i had in mind as a writer is someone who write things like books and articles. Something long and focused only on writing.

What i do is much more brief and not focused on the act of writing itself, but the idea of moving people, taking them on a journey, by what i do or make, whether it’s written or not, is similar.

I was thinking about using UA or RM like you said, but RM:UWX is closer to what i do.

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#192

Cycle 7 day 21

HeO 15m + DRLD 15m

this is the first time i ran HeO for 15m. i felt energized, and then I felt heavy after I played DRLD for 5m.
I want to take a nap. the drowsiness feels like the first time I ran LBFH.

Update 1:

I woke up and started learning & doing vipassana. I suddenly got curious about whether should i shift my focus to the sensation on my body or not, and more.

Update 2:

I feel an intense craving for food, something sweet like a cake.
This is really strange, I usually eat pretty clean. I don’t even have sugar or snacks in my house.
It feels like the craving for water when i was running WB.

well, If it’s the sub giving me guidance, then I’ll have my cake and eat it too.

Update 3

Yes, a really sweet food was what i needed. Finally after days of anxiety, unease, restlessness etc, they’re just gone. I feel normal again.

Maybe it was recon all along and not overworking.

I know i said that i will reduce my workload, but i’ll go back to the schedule i made after i started HeO to see if it’s really because of overworking or do i just need some sweet dirty food.

I don’t know whether the push to eat sweet things came from 15m of HeO or 15m of DRLD. Either way, it’s good.

Update 4:

This is a few hours after i wrote update 3.

Eating a sweet food was what i needed. I still feel calmer and better than before.

Is it because i do sword training on top of my workouts, work etc now?
Is it because of the subs?

I don’t know, but i will start eating sweet stuff from now on.

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#193

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#194

Thankyou so much! I’ve been looking around for resources but there was no structure to how i searched for it. I’ll read it right away.

#195

I believe I can send you the PDF while you wait but I HIGHLY recommend the book for a better experience

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#196

Thankyou for the offer, but i got the ebook immediately after you mentioned it, lol.

I’ll think about getting the physical copy too, i usually only read ebooks, but yeah, for a meditation book, maybe it’s better if i read the real thing.

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#197

Action taker

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#198

Rest day 1

looking back, for the whole day, i was guided since I woke up from the nap I took after HeO & DRLD for 30m yesterday

from meditation, eating sweet things, walking, reading things I like etc.
they helped me feel normal again from the recon/anxiety. it didn’t feel like I was giving effort towards it, I feel guided and it works.
the full scripting from HeO or DRLD must have had a part in this.

Update 1:

I don’t have the natural push to be productive like i usually have. I did everything using will power today.

Is the healing script taking priority?
Is it because i used the subs for 30 minutes total?
Is it because yesterday was the last listening day in the cycle?

Too many variables, I can’t narrow it down. Maybe it’s because of them all.

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#199

I need to experiment.

I remember doing 17 days instead of 21 days gave me the least recon (cycle 3).

On the cycles after that, i did different things on the 19th day.

Now i will experiment with 17 days again.
I will also test:

  • 4 days of washout instead of 5
  • i will listen to the subs on day 17 in the morning
  • then listen to the subs on day 1 in the night

I will do this on cycle 8 & 9, if i feel like it’s too much, then i will go back to 5 days.

The listening schedule:

1 HeO + DRLD
2 Rest
3 LBFH + AC
4 Rest
5 HeO + DRLD
6 Rest
Then repeat.

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#200

Rest day 2

I don’t feel anxious & uneasy out of nowhere anymore after i ate sweets 2 days ago.

My productivity hasn’t gone up back though. I have to rely on willpower, which is not bad, but it’s far from how automatic the discipline i felt when i was running HeO before the anxiety recon hit.

I guess the healing scripts are taking priority over the productivity ones.

I have one more hypothesis about why i got the anxiety recon after i woke up some days ago:

-i listened to videos about musashi & stoicism on the side almost all day everyday. When i’m eating, working, exercising, bathing, even when i’m asleep. The only time i don’t is when i can’t.

I don’t know the exact reasonings, but something inside of me tells me that this might be the cause of it. I will stop it for now and see what happens

Update 1:

productivity is slowly getting back up.
i hope it will be a smoother ride going forward.

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#201

Rest day 3

The washout dreams are coming back.
It’s good. If it’s in my dream then my subconscious is healing it already

Update 1:

I don’t spar, but I do battle against mosquitoes.
so far, I have defended myself against (killed) more mosquitoes than usual.
I have also bought things to defend myself better. ensuring better survival for myself.

I’m sure that this is not the intended purpose of the survival instinct scripting in HeO, but I will write this here just in case that it’s actually covered in the scripts, rofl. :rofl:

Update 2:

I think this might be the answer. I don’t feel as overwhelmed or anxious anymore. Well, too much of a good thing is not good.

I begin to apply what i heard from the videos too. Is this because of HeO or is the way that i listen to the videos make it behave like a bootleg subliminal on its own? If it’s the latter then i’ll not do that ever again.

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#202

Rest day 4

the productivity is back. not HeO level of productivity, but it doesn’t feel like a drag anymore.
i think the healing is mostly done. I’m back to normal.

i will use LBFH on day 1 next cycle. I want more rest from HeO & DRLD first.

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