William’s Winning Wayfare

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#1364

OH I UNDERSTAND IT NOW.

What DRR2 is leading me towards is the pure intrinsic enjoyment of the process itself.
Opening that layer of enjoyment I didn’t even know existed.
This is a strong hypothesis. I’ll find ways to put in action what DRR2 is inching me towards.

Was this why I got recon from AHJ?
Well, it could have been DRR2’s recon now that I think about it.
But the thought of using AHJ to dive deeper into this topic is not a bad idea at all.

Is it worth destabilizing my stack even more to add AHJ into the stack?

I don’t think so. Adding LBFH is already risky as is.
I’m glad LE with microlooped DRR2 can manage to keep up my productivity.
DRR2 with recon is devastating for productivity, but without recon, it’s actually helping me a bit.

I know that there’s something to this.
It also aligns with my goals.

AHJ is the undisputed best sub for what DRR2 is trying to show me.

It’s not a virtue driven fulfilment like the one from HeO, it’s a raw enjoyment of the process, of life.

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This is more than a valid reason to add AHJ to my stack.
My goals are still the same: productivity, creativity & fulfilment.

AHJ has the chance to show me that “next level” of fulfilment, as HeO had back then.

Better fulfilment will lead to better productivity & an indirect effect towards creativity.

This is a strong reason to swap.
I could be wrong, but this is the biggest lead I have to break through to the next level.
I might as well take the gamble. If this leads to a revelation as great as the one from HeO’s virtue scripting, then any momentary instability in the stack is a worthwhile price to pay for it.

I think I can swap DRR in place of AHJ for a few months.
The whole reason I use DRR1 is to boost everything in my life, especially productivity from HeO.
Now that LE is back in the stack, especially with the update later, LE + HeO should be more than enough to cover DRR’s spot.

I’ve been using DRR for ~10 months anyway, alternating between DRR1 & DRR2.
I’ll count this detour as a well needed break from the core DRR scripting.

LE + HeO + AHJ. Productivity, creativity, fulfilment.
I planned to include the new HERO title in the rotation. But I’m not in a rush to use it. Adding a completely new multistager into this might unnecessarily dilute the focus. I’ll try to delay the new HERO title until next year if my willpower is strong enough to resist using it, rofl.

Fuck it, I’m taking the plunge.

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#1369

Is AHJ one of those subs like DRR1/Mogul where I won’t feel anything in particular until a few months later when I look back at the changes in my life and notice how much the sub contributed to it?

So far I’ve been noticing the sub preventing me from doing self sabotage that will lower my enjoyment.
In a way, it does feel like a “tool” when it’s in effect.

Nothing much yet. I’m still gonna observe what it does.
I’m glad there’s no recon though, so the recon back in January was caused by DRR2 instead.

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#1375

Triggered by the art of happiness?

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#1376

Most likely.

#1377

I’m reconsidering AHJ’s place in my stack now.

Damn I didn’t expect it to be this strong without microloop.
I thought it was gonna be an easy one like Mogul/DRR1.

Well, it is easy, but unlike the other invisible subs, I must set aside a separate time to digest these changes. It’s not really healing, it’s expanding. And unlike Mogul’s external expansion, which makes it frictionless to run, AHJ’s is more internal. That brings its own set of challenges.

I gotta go back to shorter loops.
Not because of recon, but the results take too much of my focus away, more than I could afford, even after I’ve taken extra preparation for it.

Even though I can just microloop, for this month, I’ll drop AHJ first. Then I’ll pick it up again next month.
Seeing how I’ve mostly figured out my problem with the help of LBFH’s softening effect, I’ll also drop it.

That leaves LE alone in the stack.
Probably for the better too, as I need to recalibrate my focus first.
I’ll take this time to digest the new perspectives at my own pace.

I think HeO would have been great alongside AHJ.
AHJ to expand, HeO to keep the focus on my purpose.
I need to finish the 1-3 month break from HeO first though.

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#1385

Hyperman brought a valuable idea back into my consciousness.

The wish to switch subs might be a signal that the sub you’re using is working on said topic.

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#1386

That’s right, i feel like something is missing, but nothing is actually missing.

My goal is the raw fulfillment from AHJ that DRR2 led towards.
I started to think that i need this, i need that, wanna try this that.
When I actually just needed to relax and enjoy AHJ’s effects. Because that’s the whole goal of this whole ordeal.

Sigh… this goes to my list of reasons to never jump straight to 15m on a sub.
I really fucked around and found out with this one, rofl.

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#1387

I have been in the same situation.

With that experience under my belt and now reading it from an outside perspective, its clear to me that in order to be able to live that raw fulfillment from AHJ, its necessary to address the inner voids, which will feel like you need a lot of stuff, while it comes to the surface to be released.
The hardest part is to actually realize that it is as easy as in relax and enjoy the ride…

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#1388

I haven’t thought about it from this perspective.
I’m using AHJ to give me extra fulfilment on top of what HeO has given me.
So it’s building more on top of something instead of filling a void.

But what if it IS a void?
I stick with what I do now because it’s the most fulfilling out of everything else I do.
Some things make me happy, but not fulfilled. I cut most of these out of my life, keeping it minimal.
Some make me feel fulfilled, but the happiness I get from them is spotty. This is what I’m focusing on.

HeO pushed me more to the latter, while DRR2 & AHJ are seemingly pushing me to the former.
What if there’s a void that I wasn’t aware of that AHJ is trying to push me towards?
I feel bad doing them, the happiness feels hollow if it’s not fulfilling.

What I’m trying to get from AHJ is to get more from what I already do, not to explore outside.
But what if gaining understanding by experiencing more can lead me towards what I want from AHJ?
What if there are undiscovered voids that, when they get filled, will lead to improvements everywhere else?

I need to do more introspection on this.

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#1392

Still no urge to listen yet.

I guess the urge to take a long washout wasn’t one of the recon back then. It was actually my intuition telling me to chill out and process things thoroughly before going back to subs again.

I feel… light.

Lighter than when I microlooped the hell out of subs + using shorter cycles.
This feels good. I need to take long washouts seriously from now on.
2+ years of nonstop sub use without a long washout is bound to strain me at some point.

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#1393

When you return, are you going to try a solo title cycle?

#1394

I doubt I’ll be able to stick to just one, rofl.

1 will give me the fastest result, but i have no sub that requires such focus.

2 feels like the right balance.
One as the main archetypal sub (HeO), the other as a booster (DRR, LE etc).
I think there’s no reason not to use a booster when i have the slot for it.

#1396

It’s time to listen again.
I suddenly felt that “yep, now”.
It must be my intuition giving me the signal.

2+ weeks of washout. Not bad.

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#1400

Huh, seems like one of the blockages relating to this has finally melted.
Horaay HeO + DRR2.

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#1418

Wow what the fuck was that dream.

It started as the usual nightmarish recon induced dream.
But then it slowly became real, it’s as if i was living in another reality… as an intelligent black cat working in a company.

It’s like a movie, the story is solid, character development is on point. Unlike normal dreams, i can remember everything clearly.

The exploits i did, the way i charmed my way up etc i remember them.

Anyway, wtf DRR2. I’ve never got a sub dream like this.

Also that made me sleep for 12 hours somehow, i’m fucked but i think it was well worth the experience. Who would reject playing a game where it’s as if your consciousness was transported into another world anyway.

What a strange dream. I like it.

#1419

Lol bro i also i had a similar a realistic nightmare dream last night as well,been thinking about it all day

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#1421

When dreams become coherent, as in they follow a very particular “plot line,” (in my experience) this means that whatever is changing within you has already occurred and you simply have to recognize whatever it is. The incoherent dreams are the ones where things are being processed. Coherence indicates completion, with this “final processing” being the seal.

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#1423

Well, there goes my whole stack.

  • DRR is gone because what i want from it is in HLB.
  • LE is gone for the same reason.
  • HeO is gone.
  • My plan to add Paragon may also be gone because of the first stage.
  • I won’t need to use LBFH either since stage 2 includes most of what i need from it left.

There goes my plan to make a custom too since most of the goals i want to achieve with modules are in HLB.

Though, as i wrote there, i need to use HeO a bit more, and i may as well finish DRR before i make the switch.

HLB is an all in one package for all my needs.
I’ll use every single stage in my stack in rotation.
4 months on, 1-2 months break each. So the stack always has 3 subs, though rotated every cycle or two.

Update 1:
I’ve updated the plan

I'll add the stages one by one, starting in January.

Before that, I’ll use DRR3 for 3 months in a 2 sub stack & DRR4 for 3 months in a 2 sub stack + 2 months in a 3 sub stack. HeO for 8 months straight (including this month) until it gets replaced.

I’d ideally want to ease a bit more into DRR3, but delaying HLB for 6 months is already an optimistic plan to begin with. One day I might “accidentally” buy the sub and “accidentally” play it all for 15 minutes each after all, rofl.

I’ve been using DRR for a year anyway; it’s already longer than necessary.

Good enough for me.
That’s Paragon out of the stack.

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#1424

5 more days until 1 year of DRR.
I checked the history again, I started on the 21st last year.

I’m glad I’ve finally made significant progress with DRR2, that took way too long, but I also did it slowly.

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#1425

Planning.

My priorities are in the opposite direction.

I’ve been working on the first topic for years.
If everything goes downhill, as it has happened before, the only thing I can trust to still remain is my own ability to take care of myself. I’m also using HeO, so I have recovery scripting in the stack already. The extra boost in health is nice, but it’s not at the top of my priority list of things to improve using subs.

I’m also running DRR right now, so the second one is secondary when I make the change from HeO + DRR4 to HLB.

The third & fourth ones intrigue me the most, these are what I’m trying to fill in with LE. But I’m currently focusing on productivity first before cognitive enhancement.

So my plan is to add the 4th > 3rd > 2nd > 1st.

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1 row = 1 month.
It makes sense for when I’ll switch my stack later, but I’m not sure whether following this will be a good idea or not further down the line. I think it shouldn’t be a big deal in the long run since I’ll be getting the same amount of exposure over time either way.

Alternatively, I could do this too if necessary.
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Maybe 2 years from now instead of next year like in the image.

This plan looks optimistic. I fully intend to stick to it though.
HLB fits everything I’m trying to achieve with my stack and more anyway.
But as an extra guarantee, I’ll delete every other sub files except for HeO & DRR so I won’t be as easily tempted to switch in the meanwhile. I might use the new LE somewhere along the line though.

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