Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

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#1363

I’ve been feeling a shift in my mindset.

Have I been taking life too seriously?
I don’t have a problem with that, it’s the most fulfilling point of view I’ve ever lived under, and I owe a lot of the joy in my life to it.

But what if there’s a chance of significant improvement if I embrace the opposite?
Not just being playful, but to view the world in a childlike wonder.

Idk how to explain it, but it seems like what DRR2 is inching me towards.

Btw, there’s a very subtle recon from DRR2.
I can notice it only because DRR2’s recon is so unique.
Coming back to 20s was the right choice.

Update 1:

I just remembered that DRR2 has this kind of “pure, childlike life enjoyment” effect based on my first run of it months ago.

Was this why I had such recon from the sub?
What’s inside me that found this problematic?

I have a feeling that figuring this out will net me a great benefit.
Just like when I figured out LBFH and parts of WB.

Now that I’m aware of what’s going on, I realized how much DRR2’s blissful life enjoyment effect has been affecting me lately. I do see life in a deeper sense of joy.

I like it.

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#1364

OH I UNDERSTAND IT NOW.

What DRR2 is leading me towards is the pure intrinsic enjoyment of the process itself.
Opening that layer of enjoyment I didn’t even know existed.
This is a strong hypothesis. I’ll find ways to put in action what DRR2 is inching me towards.

Was this why I got recon from AHJ?
Well, it could have been DRR2’s recon now that I think about it.
But the thought of using AHJ to dive deeper into this topic is not a bad idea at all.

Is it worth destabilizing my stack even more to add AHJ into the stack?

I don’t think so. Adding LBFH is already risky as is.
I’m glad LE with microlooped DRR2 can manage to keep up my productivity.
DRR2 with recon is devastating for productivity, but without recon, it’s actually helping me a bit.

I know that there’s something to this.
It also aligns with my goals.

AHJ is the undisputed best sub for what DRR2 is trying to show me.

It’s not a virtue driven fulfilment like the one from HeO, it’s a raw enjoyment of the process, of life.

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This is more than a valid reason to add AHJ to my stack.
My goals are still the same: productivity, creativity & fulfilment.

AHJ has the chance to show me that “next level” of fulfilment, as HeO had back then.

Better fulfilment will lead to better productivity & an indirect effect towards creativity.

This is a strong reason to swap.
I could be wrong, but this is the biggest lead I have to break through to the next level.
I might as well take the gamble. If this leads to a revelation as great as the one from HeO’s virtue scripting, then any momentary instability in the stack is a worthwhile price to pay for it.

I think I can swap DRR in place of AHJ for a few months.
The whole reason I use DRR1 is to boost everything in my life, especially productivity from HeO.
Now that LE is back in the stack, especially with the update later, LE + HeO should be more than enough to cover DRR’s spot.

I’ve been using DRR for ~10 months anyway, alternating between DRR1 & DRR2.
I’ll count this detour as a well needed break from the core DRR scripting.

LE + HeO + AHJ. Productivity, creativity, fulfilment.
I planned to include the new HERO title in the rotation. But I’m not in a rush to use it. Adding a completely new multistager into this might unnecessarily dilute the focus. I’ll try to delay the new HERO title until next year if my willpower is strong enough to resist using it, rofl.

Fuck it, I’m taking the plunge.

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#1367

With the new essence type of modules, I wonder if we can use that for this purpose instead of using the whole module. It will definitely lighten the load of an already bloated custom.

If you have 4 subs you’d like to maintain, instead of 4 cores,
It seems more reasonable to add 3 cores + 2 essence with modules that have similar functions to the sub in the essence form in an attempt to “complete” it.

Untested, the whole thing is still in a state of loose theories, but a few years from now, I’ll experiment with this after I’m done with HeO.

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#1368

First time full loop AHJ.

I think I’m starting to understand what “tool” scripting is.

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#1369

Is AHJ one of those subs like DRR1/Mogul where I won’t feel anything in particular until a few months later when I look back at the changes in my life and notice how much the sub contributed to it?

So far I’ve been noticing the sub preventing me from doing self sabotage that will lower my enjoyment.
In a way, it does feel like a “tool” when it’s in effect.

Nothing much yet. I’m still gonna observe what it does.
I’m glad there’s no recon though, so the recon back in January was caused by DRR2 instead.

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#1370

AHJ is strong, wtf?

Immediately, i can see it working on helping me prevent whatever could make my enjoyment less enjoyable.

Instead of an immediate feel of joy, i got a methodical guidance on how to gain more & prevent self sabotage.

One thing that i’m starting to notice is the comparison effect.
“Do this, then do this. Compare which one of those two will give you better enjoyment.” or “See how you’re sabotaging your own enjoyment if you do this instead of this.”

Dare I say, it is better than WB + HeO for meditation.
My awareness has been increased significantly.
Even more than that combination above.

I’m less annoyed by whatever sensations are showing up in my body & mind.
They lower my enjoyment, so AHJ helps me to just be aware of them & observe.

Thoughts, feelings, sensations that used to make me think “this is fucking annoying, but i’m gonna try to just observe” turns into “oh this sensation exists, okay”. A complete detachment. A shift in how i used to react. A rapid progress overnight.

It makes me aware of how much needless self sabotage i’ve been programmed to do all this time that lowers my enjoyment.

This is more powerful than I expected.

It’s different from LBFH.
When i use LBFH, i feel good almost immediately.
Life feels good with many manifestations almost in a snap.
AHJ is different. It’s methodical.
Instead of a raw shift, it’s guiding you there.
Now I understand why it is a skill sub.

AHJ is not just a feel good sub.
It is a “HOW TO feel good” sub.

I might just keep AHJ in my stack. It is much more than just a sub for fulfilment. It is indirectly buffing my productivity.

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#1371

I think AHJ is the first sub with “tool style scripting” that I’ve ever used.

Saint said the anti-recon scripting works best with subs that has this kind of scripting.
So i can assume that the anti-recon itself has this tool style scripting.

Now i understand better how the anti recon might work.

After seeing what AHJ is capable of with its tool scripting, it is utter nonsense to keep using the unupdated LE over EE.

If it’s not updated this month, I’m switching to EE next month.

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#1372

I FIGURED IT OUT.

“Hope”
Or whatever the right term is.

That was what was missing.
I’ve been too deep into minimalism, efficiency, grinding etc that I unknowingly suppressed this part of me way too much.

AHJ led me to this realization.
A deeper layer that I wasn’t aware of.
I think it’s only right to listen & take a step back.
I’ve done a lot. Maybe it’s time to reevaluate my life, goals & focus.

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#1373

AHJ feels more tangible than LE.
It feels more grounded, practical, usable.
Weird but that’s how it is.

I’ve been experiencing many angles of emotion.
Desperation, anger, violence, empathy, loss, safety, assuredness and many more that are hard to categorize into words.

It feels like I’m getting a fuller experience of life.
All within these past few days.

It’s interesting.
I can see how this may lead to a life that’s even more fulfilling.
I want to experience the ups and downs too. That’s life.

Though I’ve been throwing myself into many experiences in life, I couldn’t shake the feeling that I’ve been there, done that. It’s the same shit.
The answer is not what’s out there, it’s inside. It’s not through stability, it’s through chaos.
I didn’t believe it could get deeper, I was wrong.

Is this a good thing? Honestly, I don’t know.
But I know that there’s something to be gained from this.

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#1374

I’m in a huge shift in my view of life.
It’s not a good idea to overshare on the internet.
I need to cut out journaling here for a while, just in case.

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#1375

Triggered by the art of happiness?

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#1376

Most likely.

#1377

I’m reconsidering AHJ’s place in my stack now.

Damn I didn’t expect it to be this strong without microloop.
I thought it was gonna be an easy one like Mogul/DRR1.

Well, it is easy, but unlike the other invisible subs, I must set aside a separate time to digest these changes. It’s not really healing, it’s expanding. And unlike Mogul’s external expansion, which makes it frictionless to run, AHJ’s is more internal. That brings its own set of challenges.

I gotta go back to shorter loops.
Not because of recon, but the results take too much of my focus away, more than I could afford, even after I’ve taken extra preparation for it.

Even though I can just microloop, for this month, I’ll drop AHJ first. Then I’ll pick it up again next month.
Seeing how I’ve mostly figured out my problem with the help of LBFH’s softening effect, I’ll also drop it.

That leaves LE alone in the stack.
Probably for the better too, as I need to recalibrate my focus first.
I’ll take this time to digest the new perspectives at my own pace.

I think HeO would have been great alongside AHJ.
AHJ to expand, HeO to keep the focus on my purpose.
I need to finish the 1-3 month break from HeO first though.

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#1379

AHJ opened so much in me.
This shift in my perspective in life is… really broad.

Before this, I was completely focused on my goals.
Few, but focused.

Now I feel open to more.

This is not a bad effect at all, but I gotta focus.
Honestly, I’m at a loss about what to do with this.
On one hand, I know there’s something huge to gain from following AHJ.
On another, I gotta focus on my goals.

MDFY: Freedom might be a good module for my predicament.
But I’ll see first whether microloop will bring a better balance or not.
This could just be an early shock from AHJ after all. It’s too soon to take any drastic action based on it.

That short run of LBFH made me aware of one thing:

I’ve become more discontent, easily annoyed by others’ flaws & incompetence.
Which doesn’t really go against my goals, so I don’t mind having this trait.
But it’ll only take me a little effort to fix this, so there’s no reason not to address it.

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#1381

I’m taking an early break from LE.
I have nothing in my stack anymore.
That means the rest of this month will be a long washout.

Unless they update LE this month, lol.

I want to get a better view of how it feels without a productivity sub.
I’ve been using subs with that for more than 2 years anyway.

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#1384

I was doing a deep introspection while reading my journal to see what the fuck happened in the past 30 days.

I planned to switch subs (and went ahead with some) so many times.
What the fuck is wrong with me.

I concluded that it might be recon from AHJ + the instability trying to figure out wtf i want to proceed with the new goals shown by it + too much free time than usual + the push to use that time to get as much as i can from it since i’ve prepared it & before i can’t spare my time anymore + etc.

God that was a mess.

I’m glad i journaled at least some of it here. That helped a lot with finding clarity.

I need to think things through before i start listening to subs.

AHJ is still gonna stay.
DRR2 showed me the value of what AHJ can give me, and i’m willing to take the gamble for it.

But anything else that came after it was a recon minefield.

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#1385

Hyperman brought a valuable idea back into my consciousness.

The wish to switch subs might be a signal that the sub you’re using is working on said topic.

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#1386

That’s right, i feel like something is missing, but nothing is actually missing.

My goal is the raw fulfillment from AHJ that DRR2 led towards.
I started to think that i need this, i need that, wanna try this that.
When I actually just needed to relax and enjoy AHJ’s effects. Because that’s the whole goal of this whole ordeal.

Sigh… this goes to my list of reasons to never jump straight to 15m on a sub.
I really fucked around and found out with this one, rofl.

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#1387

I have been in the same situation.

With that experience under my belt and now reading it from an outside perspective, its clear to me that in order to be able to live that raw fulfillment from AHJ, its necessary to address the inner voids, which will feel like you need a lot of stuff, while it comes to the surface to be released.
The hardest part is to actually realize that it is as easy as in relax and enjoy the ride…

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#1388

I haven’t thought about it from this perspective.
I’m using AHJ to give me extra fulfilment on top of what HeO has given me.
So it’s building more on top of something instead of filling a void.

But what if it IS a void?
I stick with what I do now because it’s the most fulfilling out of everything else I do.
Some things make me happy, but not fulfilled. I cut most of these out of my life, keeping it minimal.
Some make me feel fulfilled, but the happiness I get from them is spotty. This is what I’m focusing on.

HeO pushed me more to the latter, while DRR2 & AHJ are seemingly pushing me to the former.
What if there’s a void that I wasn’t aware of that AHJ is trying to push me towards?
I feel bad doing them, the happiness feels hollow if it’s not fulfilling.

What I’m trying to get from AHJ is to get more from what I already do, not to explore outside.
But what if gaining understanding by experiencing more can lead me towards what I want from AHJ?
What if there are undiscovered voids that, when they get filled, will lead to improvements everywhere else?

I need to do more introspection on this.

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