I purchased the program. Currently running Emperor but will definetely check it out.
Cycle 13 day 21
Schedule
1 LBFH RM:UWX
2
3 HeO RM:UWX AC
4
5
6 LBFH RM:UWX
7
8 HeO RM:UWX
9
10
11
12
13
Repeat
HeO (8 cycles) 7m5s
RM:UWX (2-3 cycles) 3m36s
I finally reached 7m with HeO.
It started from 30s with +10s increment every listening day.
From the 3rd cycle, I started adding 15m loops here and there whenever my intuition told me to do so.
Whenever I play it for 15m, i use loud music to make the sub inaudible for the length that’s longer than what I’m supposed to listen at the time.
There is no reason to keep following the short loop rule. I have integrated well with HeO, 15m doesn’t burden me, and i have great results regardless of the length. But I will stick to the +10s increment just because I said I would.
I don’t think i should close this journal
I will just be less active on the forum
But this is the end for now
I just remembered that i could consciously guide the romance scripting to support my work the last time i used WB. It’s unnecessary, but so is the sparring scripting from HeO. It doesn’t matter.
WB looks really logical to use now. Sanguine is good, but WB is strong enough to help me with meditation on its own. Paired with HeO and RM:UWX, it’s more than enough.
WB + HeO + RM:UWX.
If the new primer update for RM:UWX & HeO isn’t enough to replace LBFH, then i will add LBFH back into the stack. I don’t want to stop using it.
I shouldn’t have jumped straight to WB.
The recon is nothing like the first few cycles i used it, but the lethargy recon is really strong. i should have waited 5 more days and followed the 12 day rule since the last time i used LBFH.
I’ll use even more rest days from now on.
I’ll leave again until there’s an update for HeO or RM:UWX
with WB in the stack, I’ll restart the microloop for HeO & RM:UWX again from 0.
WB: +30s every listening day
HeO: +10s every listening day
RM:UWX: +3s every listening day
I’ll use different amounts of rest days, but the schedule will be largely structured like this:
WB + RM:UWX
rest
HeO + RM:UWX
rest
I’ll use more HeO + RM:UWX than WB for the first few cycles, then I’ll run them equally after i feel that WB has integrated well within me. I’ll start WB from 2 times every cycle, then I’ll slowly increase it till it reaches 5 times every cycle. equal with HeO.
I’ll swap back to LBFH when WB reaches 15m in 7 to 9 cycles from now, RM:UWX and HeO will have been updated for a few months by then. That’s enough to see how the new love scripting in RM:UWX and HeO will take effect and how it is compared to LBFH.
I miss LBFH
after this experiment, I’ll make LBFH the main focus of the stack.
I want to reach the point where everything i get from LBFH is my default even when it’s out of the stack.
Some of it is already ingrained in me, but some isn’t there when I’m off from the sub.
It will take years, but I’m willing to put in the time.
This is a false positive. it turned out i was sick and the lethargy was a symptom of it.
I’m recovering now, overworking is not sustainable.
Edit 1:
It’s a good thing i picked WB instead of DRLD. I need more rest, not to push my limits.
HeO, RM:UWX, and my own sheer willpower are pushing it hard enough as is.
WAIT A MINUTE
Maybe the key is to run paragon so I can push even more without having to worry too much about my body. It will help me recover and intuitively guide me to keep my body healthy while I’m pushing my limits.
Why didn’t I think about this before? I’m glad I wrote that down.
I’m still stuck in bed while waiting for my body to recover
I haven’t been resting this long for months. frankly, i don’t know what to do, maybe just resting is enough.
Switching to paragon long term for productivity’s sake makes a lot of sense. I have been trying to find the balance between my body’s limit & how productive i can be. Using paragon will help me find the balance and push more.
I’m still not sure though, HeO has its own recovery scripting, and physical shifting can take longer to manifest. maybe i should stick with HeO and my current stack first before thinking about switching one of them for paragon.
I think you wouldn’t miss too much with a RMUWX + Rembrandt custom, but you would miss a lot with a UA + Modules custom. RM:UWX is a very wide sub that’s all encompassing, whereas UA is like Rembrandt on steroids. Rembrandt is much smaller than UA, but not too much wider in scope comparatively
RM:UWX is really wide, wider than i expected. but that’s why it fits my goals even though writing is not the main part of my work.
I can’t wait for the RM titles to get updated, I’m thinking about making a custom using RM + HeO + LBFH as the base, and then adding modules that are related to UA, UWX, & RM:V. I’m not an artist or a writer specifically anyway, so modules fit my goals better than the whole cores.
I don’t know what sub this effect is from, but i find it hard to see a setback as, well, a setback. i can always find what i can learn and gain from whatever is happening without putting effort into reframing the experience. My mind always goes to that conclusion automatically.
I think it’s from NSE, but it could be from HeO too. i like this effect. life will happen, but we hold control over our reactions towards it and what we do about the situation.
The setback wasn’t actually a setback. In fact, i needed it.
Funny how things can be.
Cycle 14 day 14
HeO 20s RM:UWX 12s
this one is worth writing a journal here. this can’t just live in my offline journal.
my approach when it comes to brainstorming has changed. i usually went into “what the fuck do i make?” and stressed myself while trying to come up with something. but now, my attitude is “there are a lot of possibilities that i can do with this” and subtle calmness & confidence.
The way i approach brainstorming changed from gloom to hope, from lack to abundance. i wasn’t even aware of this pattern of thinking that i have, nor did i know that it was possible.
RM:UWX is insane. microlooping works. I’ll attempt to run it at 15m again next and see if i still get a lot of recon like the first time i ran it for 15m.
While I’m here, i may as well journal about HeO’s effects.
i become more calm & composed in the face of challenges, whether it’s from inside like when I’m faced with memories & emotions, or from outside events like essential machines for productions failing. I just know that everything will be fine and i can go through anything.
It feels like i have more emotional invincibility & resilience now. I can still feel bad, but i don’t suffer from it as much as before.
this is a big change from how i would react a year ago before i started SC. The best part is that everything feels so natural. It’s not like i’m installing a different way to react to things, i feel like I’ve always been this way.
WB’s emotional control scripting might also have helped with this.
I believe i don’t need sanguine any time soon, as long as i run HeO long enough. it has been more than half a year since I’m running it, and I’m still discovering deeper effects every now and then.
I view life differently after using NSE subs. Now every challenge is an opportunity to grow, and most of them are happening where i’m in a safe space.
Hmm… now that i think about it after i wrote that, some of them are not happening in a safe space without consequences, but i think there’s a sense of invincibility that i’ll be able to go through anything just fine. That makes me think that they were safe.
That’s HeO’s effect for sure. Journaling helped me gain clarity again.
Update 1:
Holy shit, right after i wrote that, i got a notification that something big just went right. I guess i’m indeed manifesting safe environments to learn from. Not just the resilience from HeO.
I’m probably gonna shoot myself in the foot by trying this schedule, but I’m too curious
HeO 15m & WB 10s (+10s every listening day)
Rest
UWX 15m & WB 20s
Rest
I want to try this for at least 1 cycle to see how I would react to it. The schedule is still the same 9 on 4 off 9 on 4 off. If I can run HeO & UWX for 15m for a whole cycle with no problem, even with this configuration, I can stop using microloops altogether.
Cycle 14 day 17
Rest
I MANIFESTED A FUCKING COLOGNE
HOW THE FUCK?
The way it happened was so random. But here i am sitting with a bottle of cologne. I guess this is the second or third time a manifestation about perfumes & colognes happened to me when i run WB.
WB has been really life transforming. even with this absurdly low exposure. i feel like parts of WB are enhancing HeO and vice versa. the invulnerability & resilience scripting from HeO has been going deeper than before. this is so good.
As for RM:UWX, idk. i feel like i have integrated with it better than one cycle ago. even 15m of it doesn’t phase me much.
I want to get accustomed to WB. It’s clear that WB is helping the goals of HeO to show. Running both in the same stack has been reassuring so far. I have deeper confidence that when I’m taking actions aligned with WB, HeO will ensure that whatever I do, I’ll still be able to uphold my moral values.