[Vex’s Journal]

Journals - Major Programs
#21

Sanguine / Executive name embed - 30-120s

I have always wondered why I needed to run Sanguine. I’m tired pretty often and surely not everyone faces the same problem.

I think it’s because when I have spare energy, I just fill it up with even more stuff to do.

I always thought that if only I could become more efficient, I could then get whatever done in less time and that creates the spare time, and THEN I would rest.

I DID become more efficient but the last part never happened. I never actually became less tired.

It’s also the same with the subs. Say I get 100 units of “output” done in a day, and it costs me 90% of my energy to do so. Now, imagine with subs I can now get that same 100 units of output done at the cost of 85% energy instead. Any normal person would think “great let’s leave it at that”, but I tend to just use up the same 90% to get 105 units of output done instead.

I’ll try and consciously guide the submininal (and/or myself) into creating a less tiring life for myself.

#22

Might add Summertime name embed + MDFY:Freedom

Similar theme and the point would be to improve my life without running a stack that requires heavy energy input / resource consumption. Since I am already taking massive action as part of my usual day to day life, I just want anything that helps results but is just as light as possible

It’s commonly said that running fewer titles generally leads to more focused results so the intention with MDFY:Freedom would be to not “overwhelm” the whole thing

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#23

Sanguine/Executive name embed 40s

Tension is lowered which is a definite improvement

Trying some adaptogens/supplements

Productivity is decent (not sure how much “better” it is, but I believe it is at least equally as good but with less strain, which was the target)

I upgraded my keyboard to lighter springs, which should boost typing slightly

I ordered Summertime MDFY:Freedom name embed. Trying .flac to see if it helps

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#24

Sanguine/Executive name embed: 40s

My vision would be to lead an austere, minimal life. Simplistic, even, perhaps in a manner others would consider lacking.

I would be rich, but not obscenely wealthy, just enough to live out the rest of my days, accounting for emergencies. I would live simply, saving 90% of my income, without debt or obligations.

By day, I work a job considered difficult, achieving in 9 hours what would take my peers 15. In this context, and as a feat others would find mathematically impossible, I would sleep 9 hours daily, and wake without an alarm.

I would work calmly and swiftly. My speed derives not from intensity, but frictionlessness. In each task, I achieve the outcome with the fewest moves possible.

I would lead a stress-free life, only because the level of any task does not exceed my capabilities. If someone needed a thing done in three hours, I would feel nothing. I could achieve it in two if I wanted.

I work on my terms. If I choose to do task B before task A, then person A shall wait. I offer a fair trade, but will not be controlled. I wouldn’t be head of the organisation, but fairly remunerated. I sleep in if I want, and enter and exit the workplace as I please.

My workspace and living space would be barebones, but equipped with the greatest in functionality. The monitor is a Samsung Odyssey G9, until something better comes along.

When not working, I would sit in an empty room in silence, walk in nature, or sharpen the mind and body. When neither working nor doing that, I would be asleep. If my financials are in order, I would stop working.

I would engage in hobbies and other things, but none of which shall impose continuing obligations or impede the foregoing.

Now let’s see how long it takes to delete all the "would"s from this post.

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#25

Am actually gearing down for sleep at 9.30pm (which is big for me as I normally tend to stay up late)

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#26

22 Mar - 120s
25 Mar - 40s
28 Mar - 75s

I’m happy with results thus far. But, for some reason, I feel like 75s is a bit much, honestly. Next loop will probably be 40s. Feels like results are good but it’s taking me some (a non-zero amount of) effort to process it.

I aim, not just to get results, but to optimise the efforts-to-results ratio, to increase the limits of what I’m able to achieve with a given quantity of resources. In this context, “medium results at zero effort” beats out “good results at some effort”.

By my objectives of this stack, this is recon, and so, I will drop listening time.

I think, generally, people are too “highly-leveraged”. Wartime levels of exertion, but like, everyday. Specifically, I mean that their efforts-to-results ratio is terrible. Why do some people rely on caffeine to get through every day? Taxing themselves too hard physically. Yes it’s great to put in effort and to direct that effort at a given problem but … had three or four things been different, you probably did not need to pull that all-nighter to achieve what you did.

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#27

I have had some baseline success, with the help of subs, things are not too stressful and productivity is decent.

However, I realise I am not sleeping very much, which I would like to change.

Oddly, the more efficient I am, the less I feel like sleeping. Nothing I currently do really requires that ultra-peak focus of a completely well-rested brain. Say I need a performance level of “100” to reasonably get through my day, and mild sleep deprivation brings my performance from 100 to 90. Now, say I obtain a 10% performance boost. Do I pick the sleep deprivation? I would. Or, whether I do or do not is irrelevant - I am inclined to, and it would take a lot of conscious effort to pick otherwise. I am trying to reduce the amount of effort I exert in living my life, so there must be another way.

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#28

Sanguine/Executive name embed 40s

I spent the day doing nothing.

Pros:

  • That really altered my mental state, making me realise how not-chilled-out I am on a regular work day. On a regular day (without the influence of subs), I’d be stressed. Currently, it’s not to the poont of “stressed”, but still feels intense. I realise that’s not necessary - swift action is nevertheless possible with a calm mind. How I feel today, can be the new standard for “baseline”.
  • I actually chilled out, and did not think about work, or check my phone more frequently than would be reasonable.

Though, I literally didn’t do much other than laze around the house. It’s “okay”, but there could be more recharging ways to spend a day than that. But then again, maybe doing nothing is more valuable than launching into a conplex regeneration protocol.

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#29

Summertime name embed (mdfy: freedom) 15s

This is very interesting, to the point that I may replace my entire stack with this and run this title only. We’ll see.

Original plan was: rest day, sanguine/executive name embed, rest day, summertime name embed, etc.

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#30

I ran Summertime once on sun morning (a bit after sat midnight). I had interesting dreams at night and later had a good time out on sun.

My original vision for Summertime was that it’d increase enjoyment. The copy speaks of fun and ease. This should mean better producitivity. After all, if you did something despite hating it, you wouldn’t be able to do it for long, and would need frequent breaks. Enjoyment should enable frictionless execution, being the objective of my stack. There is part of that, yes - work productivity felt accelerated this morning.

But (as the Summertime discussion thread may indicate), it doesn’t seem as simple as that. It feels like Summertime enables a more direct interface between myself and reality, as if partially removing a glass barrier separating the two. Somewhat like ACD856, if anyone’s tried that, which is good. Dare I say, Summertime’s effects seem stronger than ACD’s, for me.

Sun night and mon morning (right after waking), I was hit by REALLY intense recon. Possibly due to the sheer rate of change, which is kind of insane at a single loop of 15-20s (+mdfy freedom).

There was a comment in the Summertime thread that it’ll get better, we’ll see.

#31

Summertime 20s

Recon is a bit better.

#32

Improvements this weekend: meditated, did some exercise.

#33

I’ve been feeling pretty asexual (probably work stress) but recently it’s been the reverse, which is good, but to the point it’s kind of becoming a problem.

I feel this is attributable to Summertime, though I can’t really articulate how I feel so.

Maybe this is how everyone feels on a regular basis, and I’m merely perceiving it as abnormal from my point of view.

I’ve been pretty “all-or-nothing” and also quite cerebral so hopefully I get to the point where I appropriately harness and embody the full range of emotion, including desire, in a healthy manner.

Sleep has been kind of terrible.

I feel I am getting recon from life itself. I feel, the rate of internal changes has been pretty insane. I feel like if I were not actively running any sub at all, that I’d still feel how one feels when one is in recon.

Hopefully things get more balanced in a bit.