Trader in 2025!

[Trader]

Ran day 1 of my new stack today.

Planning on a 21-day cycle this time to lock in the benefits ChatGPT and I talked about.
Only “recon” was alternating sadness/angry, but very low-level. No “anti-recon” tech in this stack, but it’s not needed at this time.

It passed fairly quickly as I kept myself busy at work. No Cart Girl there today to interact with, so just focused on my work.

Rest Day tomorrow.

Then Saturday will be the next stack iteration.

I may journal the subs in the stack once it’s over.

[Trader]

I’m trying out Dark Mode for a bit to see how it is.

[Bull_of_Shiva_999]

I do not really care about the looks tbh.

White screens in general usually little bit hard for me to look at for long periods of times lately, so…

[Trader]

I’m just curious to see if it affects me moods or anything over the next few days. Dark mode does seem “calmer”

[Trader]

Rest day today.

Cart Girl is wearing a full-length skirt today. First time not wearing jeans/pants to work.

I saw that and (thanks to my stack I think) , without hesitation, I said “this is different. I like it. It looks good on you.”

She said “it’s hot.”

She meant the weather, but mentally I agreed with her that it is, indeed, hot.

I’m noticing my emotional landscape is cycling through bouts of sadness, optimism, and occasional anger.

Mainly anger at management for doing certain things and at myself for allowing myself to get into a position it’s difficult at present to extricate myself from.

[Hezlitt]

Hi @Trader just following up see if you got any feedback about ways to non-destructively cut down length of ZP subs. Will the subliminal .mp3 files lose effectiveness if we trim them and export them without any compression? Is the script you mentioned a work-around?

Sorry if you’re sick of being asked. I’m very interested in trimming the length of my subs.

Thanks.

[Trader]

PMd you.

[Trader]

So today is the 1-year anniversary of my mom’s passing away.

And today is the last day of the first week of my new stack. Definitely didn’t plan it that way when building my current stack.

Decided there’s no harm in sharing what my stack is.

ChatGPT helped me massage a few ideas to come up with it.

Le stack de Trader

Thursday:
Emperor (Full 15 minutes)
Libertine (Full 15 minutes)
Khan4 (30-Second microloop)
Primal Nights (30-Second microloop)
Love Bomb (30-Second microloop)
IBV2 (30-Second microloop)
Mind’s Eye (30-Second microloop)

Saturday:
Khan4 (Full 15 minutes)
Primal Nights (Full 15 minutes)
Emperor (30-Second microloop)
Libertine (30-Second microloop)
Love Bomb (30-Second microloop)
IBV2 (30-Second microloop)
Mind’s Eye (30-Second microloop)

Monday:
IBV2 (Full 15 minutes)
Love Bomb (Full 15 minutes)
Emperor (30-Second microloop)
Khan4 (30-Second microloop)
Libertine (30-Second microloop)
Primal Nights (30-Second microloop)
Mind’s Eye (30-Second microloop)

Tuesday:
Emperor Black (Full 15 minutes)
Mind’s Eye (30-Second microloop)
Ascension Chamber (7 Minutes)

the full stack

Tuesday is extra for productivity going in to days off.

and working on IMPORTANT shit

The stack is designed to hit on all the areas I wanna hit. Because usually when I try to polarize, it’s “I need to focus on wealth!”

yet when I do that it’s “I need to become a better man worthy of a good woman!” so that sucks.
So just hit on all of it together, etc.

[Trader]

This is from my private journal on Thursday (Day 1) after running that day’s stack.

Definite pings of sadness and anger from the stack I think
Low-level. Not debilitating
Tolerable. Understandable
Thinking about “The system”

[Trader]

The main “recon” the past few days is the “Let’s think about other titles that seem more important than what’s in the stack!” Sneaky shit.

I’ve been enforcing rest days on myself. Usually I microloop (or full loop) something daily.
But I set up a new function in my “Daily Reminders” spreadsheet that emails me with tasks for the day. I only run stack when it sends me “Run Stack” haha.

Self-control is easier than I thought.

[Trader]

Aziz! LIGHT!

[Trader]

Day 7. The stars today are Emperor and Libertine ZP.

Ran Emperor before work. Libertine while walking the lot gathering carts.

I feel…clear. And optimistic. Like full of possibility. Knowing that if I work “The plan” then it’s GUARONTEED that I’ll succeed and win.

Feeling kinda calm and centered too.

[Trader]

I bought a sort of “Starter Pack” of Pheral-brand pheromone products. Got it in today.

Has body wash, daytime cream/lotion, nighttime cream/lotion, a set of air wick things to smell up the room.

And a bottle of “attraction cologne”.

Curious more than anything if it works.

Used the shower elixir body wash. And the daytime lotion. Then went to work.

Cart Girl is being her usual self. Making up obvious false stories as a way of playful banter. But it seems to be on overdrive.

Mikey likes it so far.

Real test will be how the wife responds. Hoping it doesn’t trigger her migraines she gets from smells

[Trader]

I sprayed a little of the Pheral fabric spray on my pillow earlier today right before we left for work. Wife was in the car already. waiting for me. so she didn’t know. Just now, in the room, she asked if I have a different deodorant on. Said the room smells like the cleaning stuff the housekeeping people use If you’ve ever smelled the old-school stuff Amway used to sell, that’s what she compares the cleaning stuff to.

Man, if THIS stuff doesn’t work on her at all, dunno wtf I’ll do lol.

sigh.

EDIT: It made me wonder something. What if she just isn’t really all that interested in sex? Like what if I’m already a fuckin pheromonal Adonis and I just turn her off by being around her?

HOW would I know?

[Trader]

So, Cart Girl seems to respond more when I run IBV2 (Wanted Black and S&SX cores)
Twitch girl hits me on on snapchat more when I run IBV3 (Heartsong and S&SX cores)

Makes me wonder about building a custom with WB, S&SX and HS cores.

Either they’d both respond more OR neither would because the synergy would be weird.

[Trader]

So. Right before bed last night, I applied some of the Pheral “Night time” lotion/cream. On my face, hands, and rubbed the excess on torso/chest until it absorbed into skin.

Wife tells me this morning that she dreamed about dreaming about sex.

Like Inception-level stuff.

As in, she dreamed about having sex with me. Then “woke up” from that dream and was thinking about the dream she had, but was still dreaming that. False Awakening.

Told me she woke up in a pissy mood “because it wasn’t real”.

I took that as a cue, and made a move. Which she rejected haha. What the hell?

Kinda almost seems like her horny/sexual side is/was dissociated enough to need to be 2-dream levels deep.

Or I’m overthinking that.

Other than that dream, she’s not been responsive to this stuff in the slightest.

Whereas Cart Girl was more talkative when I went to work having showered first with the Shower Elixir body wash, and then applied the Daytime lotion/cream.

I’m starting to get the hint I think.

[Trader]

I’m reading a book about Sigma traits. Since I feel like I lean that way or WANT to in any case.

I wonder if sigma traits are ever just a defense mechanism to avoid feeling rejected ever again.

[Trader]

Been on a washout for a week or so. Kinda spontaneous.

Just had a reframe thought re: Heartsong.

Before, I said I was loathe to run HS because that feels like me “giving in” and doing all the “work” which didn’t feel fair to me.

Today, I realized running HS could instead just be to make sure I’m “Ready” for whomever shows up

[Trader]

Cart Girl’s voice is deeper today.
I read that that can be an unconscious/nonverbal sign of attraction.

Been on washout from subs for a week or so. Been doing some “energetic” stuff to experiment piquing her interest. Also a been listening to a hypnosis recording designed to “heal” psychological and energetic blockages that stem from rejection.

The energetic stuff I’ve been doing is touching things she’s touched to “absorb” information about her. Like psychometry. Think askingo the lines PCC how Season 2 Peter Petrelli had to touch someone to copy their ability.

Today, instead of just taking in her energy, I sent some back out. I put it into her water bottle.

Implanted questions into the energy like “What am I most attracted to about Trader?” And “When did I first realize I’m attracted to Trader?”

An hour or two after that is when I noticed her voice being deeper. Kinda raspy almost.

[Trader]

Was on the way to work today. Driving. And thinking about things I’d read in the Sigma Male Bible and how it applies to my life.

Don’t know if I’m truly Sigma or not yet. But it sounds damn good.

I wanna build something fucking grand whether or not I find Her first. If She shows up, then great.

Anyway. On the drive I felt suddenly like I should run a loop of Wanted. So I did. The washout is over.

Cart Girl is hella talkative today. Banter, teasing about my age a tad (she does that quite a bit).

That COULD be the Pheral brand stuff I’m testing out still.

I’m having fun today.