One dynamic of the subconscious mind that I’ve noticed for years, and that I’m not sure people reference on here that much:
Subconscious integration of a particular characteristic, condition, or quality is often accompanied by a conscious desire or sense of longing or wanting for that exact same characteristic, condition, or quality.
I think that the conscious mind can somehow almost sense that that quality or that condition is in the queue, but with the conscious mind’s typically highly concrete and immediate focus, it tends to question and to doubt that sense. And so instead of saying, ‘ah, I sense that wealth (for example) is on the way’, it says ‘Oh how I wish that wealth were on the way!’.
The practical takeaway of what I’m saying here is:
Your very desire itself to experience a greater capacity for patience is a possible (even likely) indicator that your mind is precisely in the process–at this very moment–of integrating the quality of patience.
The conscious mind is the ‘tail wagging the dog’ par excellence. It’s the 3-year old in the backseat with a toy steering wheel who is utterly convinced that he’s the one driving the car.
Relaxing and allowing the power of the subconscious to co-exist together (in your awareness) with your sense of egocentrism is both therapeutic and vista-widening.