Titanium Triarchy − Genesis Mogul | Godlike Masculinity | Limitless

Journals - Major Programs
#21
Day 4
Integration

Singing that I hear throughout the day is echoing endlessly on replay-loops in my mind. My baseline auditory and especially my auditory-linguistic memory is pretty good on a normal day, but right now it is kind of difficult to tune out those mind-replays when I am relaxing.

I had extended stretches like this throughout the past few years, where I even shunned music completely. Music is a pretty integral part of my life, so it’s not something I want avoid to feel ‘normal’. I realized back then that I can enjoy instrumental music without any drawbacks during those periods. Naturally, my instrumental music collection grew steadily since then.

Now, I am reaching for purely instrumental music once more. It’s like a mixture of having reached a maximum treshold of listening to sung words and having a need to immerse myself in wordless soundscapes. Interestingly, normal talking and written language seem to be completely separated from this.

It’s as if I have a need to temporarily avoid decoding or abstracting meaning of spoken words from sound. Just letting my brain being washed in sounds, decoding them without engaging in word processing. A bit like a fallback into a mode before language. Either something from a very young age in my life or something very old from an animalistic-evolutionary point of view. Or something completely different.

Be it from the rhyme structure, be it from the singing itself embedded in music, the words bypass some part of my conscious mind, embed themselves and replay non-stop. It’s really a trivial thing. But I want to develop a method for myself to be consciously able to stop this at will. My mind, my temple, my rules.

#22
Day 5
Genesis Mogul 1:30
Godlike Masculinity 1:30

I am still reacting noticeably to those two titles at one and a half minute. Mental clarity is decreased and physically it feels like a mixture of 'I did a really taxing workout yesterday and need to recuperate' and total body relaxation. Mentally it isn't as bad as with the prior three minutes each.

I am powering through though, no problem. Had some errands to run and wasn’t slowed down in any way. Therefore, I will stay with one and a half minutes each for now. Getting things done while you are not at 100% is a more common thing in life than having the opportunity to tackle your goals while you are at your peak anyway. Thus I will treat it as training with added mental weights.