The Way Of Walking Alone

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#47

I want to give thanks to @Deadpool @Jouissance @Lion @bombayduck

I truly appreciate the help and advice you gave me, i did not expect that much help from so many people.

I appreciate and love you all :pray:

The finished custom:

HERO Origins: Sage and a Blade
Muay Thai Mastery
Anvil of Hephaestus
All Seeing
Asclepius
Berserker
Blink
Deep Sleep
Ego Adsum
Epigenetic and DNA Modulator
Equilibrium
Everpresent
Heracles
Master’s Coordination
Naturalizer
Inexhaustible
SPS: Endocrine System
Serum X
Subconscious Flow
Thunder

I will order it next months

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#48

No problem, will give you my bank account, you can send me some money :slight_smile:

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#49

Do You accept bitcoin? :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

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#50

Sure no problem
one or two bitcoins would be no big deal :slight_smile:

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#51

Happy to help, bro :pray:. New custom looks great!

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#52

Yesterday at my muay thai i was so good during sparring i still cant believe it’s real.

I sparred one guy who have been training boxing for 4 months and muay thai for 2 more months, we did boxing only sparring and i absolutely crashed him, reacting to every hit with a counter attack it was amazing.

All the other guys i sparred with, who have been training for at least 6 months muay thai, i either was better than them or on the same lever (muay thai sparring).

My traps and neck grew in size.

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#53

Something has really been bothering me lately, i think it’s because the sense of morality and inner conscience i have been developing thanks to Hero.

During my use of PS, when i got my first ever girlfriend, i lied to her and told her i slept with a lot of women out of insecurity, the truth is that i was actually a virgin and she is my first ever woman.

Now i feel like i have to tell her i lied, i dont know how and i dont know if i even should.

Another thing that is bothering me is the fact that she is nor even 21 years old yet she slept with 5 different dudes, 1 boyfriend she has been with and another 4 different dudes in one year, i think 4 dudes in 1 year is a lot, and why should i, a guy who have been with only 1 woman, be with a woman who slept with so many dudes.

Dont get me wrong, i love her to death, she loves me, she is a very good woman, she cook for me, she is loving and caring, i just feel like i deserve a more pure woman, but she is pure in her goodness.

So i dont know what to do.

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#54

that’s light, don’t worry man - the only reason it seems like much to you is because of your comparable experience not being so high. But that’s a pretty responsible sex life for someone who, as a girl, could have had sex w/ 40 or 400 people by this time if she wanted.

Ultimately it’s up to you how you want to perceive it but first of all, I’ll repeat, i don’t see 5 as “a lot” and second of all, who says that having sex is “impure”

Are you trying to reframe your own virginity (recently taken,congrats!) as “better” than everyone else instead of acknowledging that it probably sucked to feel like a virgin?

You love her - but your stories in your head, the ones that aren’t even real, just your projections of the future/past could take away a very good thing from you

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#55

Thanks a lot for giving me your perspective, reading it was extremely helpful and even gave me a relief.

Im grateful :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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#56

I switched cfw for kb, i will do hero + kb.

The reason im not doing paragon anymore is because i am very healthy, i just have health anxiety and panic attacks where i think i will get a heart attack.

I just need to get over it, paragon wont help with this.

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#57

Just curious, if you were to work on your anxiety, what subs would you run?

This anxiety seems very core to your experience overall.

I hope I don’t cause too much offence with what I’m about to say, it’s just my two cents, but your comments about your gf’s 2 month trip seemed to me like nothing more than anxiety and paranoia gone rampant and brought to the forum.

It’s great that you brought it to the forum, to get support, however I think anyone who said “why are you with her if you don’t trust her” was barking up the wrong tree… to me, the thing to address there seemed to be your own fears, not her character.

I’ve been in relationships where I don’t trust the girl because she actively shows major red flags like talking to other guys or loving when men flirt with her, those are the relationships worth leaving - but then even in the relationships, like my current one, where I get all green flags and she shows me how loyal she is every day, that anxiety still comes up - and there’s nothing I can do to change her as that anxiety starts and ends with me.

So working on that anxiety is something that you probably have to do sooner or later.

This anxiety may add some explanation as to why alpha subs give you recon… too much confidence too quickly…

Overall, I’m writing this message because all of a sudden, out of the blue, you’re stack switching, when you know that’s your biggest issue.

You’re also switching to an extremely difficult sub.

Maybe, I’m just guessing, but maybe your stack brought up some sexual/relationship anxiety, and that’d be a sign that you’re getting results and healing - but you’re stack switching to deal with the recon instead of riding it out.

And it seems to me that anxiety is more central to your experience than sexual energy so that’s what you could have an opportunity to improve your life the most with.

I would argue that the gains, the sexual confidence, the groundedness in your relationship you might get with KB, if that’s why you’re running it, will probably be achieved with longer amounts of exposure to CFW, or Chosen which has healing, or the best subs for anxiety Sanguine & Sanguine Elixir.

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#58

Drop paragon, I believe you

#59

But maybe instead of “getting over” the anxiety you can start to build familiarity with what it feels like so you know when it’s just anxiety, and how to navigate it so it doesn’t effect you in so many ways

#60

You are correct, and im glad you are telling me what i need to hear and not what i what to hear.

Im a paranoid and anxious person, like my mom lmao.

This is the reason i ran paragon actually, because of paranoia over my health and not real health issues.

@Jouissance i want to thank you personally for all the help you have given me, i truly appreciate you.

I think KB is the title i need right know, more than cfw, being sexually free is also being free in everything (in my opinion) and having freedom of expression and lack of attachment, so it can definitely help my anxiety.

And dont worry, Hero is here to stay, i will not switch out my main subliminal.

Thanks :pray:

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#61

You could use gaming mastery X to heal your anxiety with conscious intention. Conscious intention over everything. So long as you’re aware of what you need to work on, it’ll heal :fire::pray:

Go use KB to be the best man you can be :muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle:

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#63

My country is at war, the enemy attacked us by surprise, at least 700 murdered and more than 2000 wounded, hundreds of civilians and soldiers have been kidnapped into enemy territory.

All of my friends have been drafted to the war, im so angry i want to do something but I can’t do anything im just sitting at home waiting.

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#64

What would you do anyhow, mate?

Sanguine perhaps?

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#65

I want to be drafted to the military too, i served 2 years ago but because an injury they don’t draft me.

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#66

I read about it, horrible :frowning:

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