Day 5
Summertime, 1min
RICH, 1min
The day after I ran Paragon, I had some recon. But everytime I run ST, I feel great the next day.
For that reason, I will try doing ST and Paragon together on one day and RICH on the other. Want to see how that goes and whether ST will help me deal with Paragon recon.
Day 6, 7
Rest
Had an extra rest day just cause I forgot i had to run subs yesterday night. I only remembered when I was laying in bed with lights switched off. And I thought, it’s okay. Let my mind get some rest.
Day 8
Summertime, 1min
Paragon, 1min
So I got a better listening pattern idea for myself:
Listening Day 1: Summertime microloop, Paragon microloop
Listening Day 2: Summertime microloop, RICH microloop
This way I can utilise the ZPU effects of Summertime to influence Paragon and RICH on their listening days. And i find the recon of Paragon to completely disappear when I tried it this way.
Day 9
Rest
Things are moving smoothly and I got a handle on recon. So far so good.
Looking forward to the rest of Paragon release cause it will decide on some customs I want to build. Depends wholy on which of them I will need. Especially curious about Paragon Health Protocol and whether it will be good in a custom with Paragon Core. I intuit it will be.
Day 10
Rest
Took another rest day again. Seems like am not in a hurry to run my stack. ZPU effect? I do think so.
I remember Saint saying a long time back something to the effect that running a ZPU title will only be needed once a week or even longer. Once a month?
I don’t even feel like running anything today but will do it for science haha.
It’s always for science! 
Ive noticed the same thing with ZPU I feel much less need to play the subs. I find myself doing extra rest very often actually.
Day 11
Summertime, 1 min
RICH, 1 min
The world’s a mirage filled with shadows to fool me. I fell for them long ago. Believing in shadows like politics and religion. And now I have seen the light but still carry some shadows with me that are yet to be fully shaken off.
Programming is a difficult thing to clesr out. Especially wien I have believed in them so strongly as a young one.
Now I have to lay boundaries at home while my body shakes with rage. The anger of having believed in lies and wasting so many years of my life with them.
Yes there is wisdom in the change and the growth. There is wisdom in the pain. But now am placed in another cage that I have to shake off too. The cage of illness.
One day my body (and more importantly my mind) will realise that illness is another lie too. May it not take as long.
Day 12
Rest
The Holy Week reminds of the days when I was a kid and the later years as a young man when I used to take church very seriously. Unfortunately taking things seriously wasn’t a lot of fun (like duh). It was more of unnecessary guilt and sexual repression. Which is exactly the reason why I lost my faith. Or more like rejected it.
Doing that liberated me. And even if i had to get over the fear of hell and the constant reprimands of my parents and them trying to get me back to church by trying to get me to talk to some priests, it only convinced me even more of the falsehood of it all.
I spent my time studying the history of religion and it was very interesting understanding the evolution of various faiths including what inspired the formation of each religion and how culture, history and even other religions gave rise to new ones
Seeking truth became more fascinating than believing blindly. And even though most people around me won’t understand me and will treat me as the black sheep for not going along with the rituals and celebrations of my (ex) faith, I care more that I follow my mind and heart rather than simply doing what is told for the reward of heaven or the punishment of their made up hell.
Day 13
Summertime, 1 min
Paragon, 1 min
When I was younger I felt that main character energy. Life humbled me though. And then inspired me to take up the protagonist role again. But this time with experience behind my belt. And some well deserved humility.
Day 14
Rest
Too many paths in front of me. I have to choose one. Moving without purpose makes everything else in life confusing as well.
Day 15
Summertime, 3 mins
RICH, 3 mins
Bumped the microloop time to 3 mins. It still feels good. No issues at all.
Had good food today for Easter even if am not much of a religious person. Helped with the pre-cooking and the preperations came out well.
So am sitting here my tummy full and feeling very content haha.
Day 16
Rest
Fasting has been going very well for a month. Am getting the hang of controlling my appetite thanks to this. It is the cumulative effect of doing OMAD on and off. When trying to quit a habit (in this case overeating), there will always be ups and downs. But the important thing to do is keep trying even after failure. Just like anything else.
“Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up”
Day 17
Summertime, 3 mins
Paragon, 3 mins
Had some minor recon today. Could handle it thanks to ST.
There seems to be even more difficult circumstances round the corner but what’s the use of living in fear of that? Time to center myself in tbe constant present.
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Day 18
Rest
It was an extremely hot day today. That’s what I get for running Summertime lol.
Wars and ceasefires out there in tbe world. The same is mirrored within me.
Day 19
Summertime, 3 mins
RICH, 3 mins
Boy am i glad I closed my credit card debt in the beginning of February of this year. Never realized how much of a relief that would be until I had one less worry.
Using credit card and paying EMIs is legal thievery looking at the amount i ended up giving compared to the money I borrowed. I know it’s a business model but it’s a relief to have escaped that prison.
More money left untouched in the bank now and used for more profitable cases like an insurance policy that pays monthly (like an investment that pays me monthly after which I get the whole money I invested back in a couple of years) and also for purchasing a residence.
No other money problems these days too. Thank you, RICH.
Day 20
Rest
Fasting is still on track thanks to running titles in my stack with Adaptive Scripting, Anti-Recon and most of all ZPU. No unnecessary recon and emotional upheaval for me to desire food to cope.
And this is building in me a habit of detaching from emotional eating. And even helping me with other forms of emotional consumption like porn.
We as men have lost a lot of our emotional control over ourselves. We are too afraid, easily angered and controlled by the world through feeling guilty for wanting sex. Instead of reveling in our manhood, we are timid. No fight left in us because fighting is labeled toxic.
Where has our warrior spirit gone? They are now captured in cheering for sports and wargames. At the most in being keyboard warriors.
The wild men are now domesticated. Tamed to be slaughtered like cattle in the societal farming of their spirit and conciousness. Focus on entertainment, politics, religion. Think about anything but what we truly need to do. What our purpose is.
But too distracted in trying to find meaning in women rather than attracting them organically because we have developed ourselves with chasing excellence in our purpose.
The most real thing I’ve heard all month! If only men knew how expensive their attention is. If they treated as such, focused on their goals, eliminating bad beliefs, everything like attracting women becomes easier.
Day 21
Summertime, 3 mins
Paragon, 3 mins
Life is good even if I have my share of worries. But then who doesn’t.
I keep thinking of people luckier than me until I remember there are people who are in worse situations.
Who am I to compare and steal my own joy with unfruitful thoughts.
Life is good. And it will always be good as long as i decide it is.
Day 22
Rest
Cheat meal day was good. Got some burgers and fries today. Burp! Excuse me.