Im always so tired on this stack 
I think something in my stack have the Disruption module because my sleep is disrupted af
I noticed I don’t get recon like i used to he, in the past it was anxiety and anger, now it’s just tiredness and bad sleep but my mood is relatively the same even in recom time
Overexposure
I should take a day off than
Attention, not intention… Just listen to whatever it’s happening, if you notice there is intention (to change something, to control, to doing, etc…) just notice it without trying to do anything.
After a while you’ll notice some other subconsious intention surfacing, just do the same.
Question “what would happen if I don’t do anything with this? What does it means to not interfere?”
So basically, breath, be present and not react
Exactly, gradually you’ll let go of the meditator too. Open awarness remains.
I am a different person already, i need zero validation from other people, im being my authentic self with everyone and anyone, fear and anxiety are not real in my reality
Im transforming super fast it’s amazing
I day what i want and im being smart with my words too, im not afraid of arguments and confrontation anymore
I realized that my sister have gaslighted me so lany times in my life and now i now how to handle it, the only problem is that she is also always manipulating my mother to think she is right and im wrong, BUT, i became better at reframing and explaining the situation so she knows im in the right, it doesn’t really matter now because i don’t live with them anymore
People say trauma is stored in the body and a lot of my neck and traps pain is gone, i think that Phoenix is the cause, it’s healing trauma and therefore healing pain in my body
I’m starting to think about muay thai again, i always say i don’t know what my purpose is but it’s a lie, i know what is my purpose i just don’t believe it’s something i cam achieve so i deny it
My purpose is to become a great fighter, right now i don’t have the means necessary to train muay thai and i also have some injuries, but in the meanwhile i will add paragon so when im back to fighting im pain free
My mindset is starting to change and im starting to believe i can become a great fighter, im anxious about it because im not training for it now, im doing weight lifting to strengthen the body at least
Im starting to think that the reason i want to be a fighter is fear, because im afraid someone will beat me up
Of course i love fighting but i don’t think i have the passion to do it everyday and and actually become a professional fighter
I was chosen by my ceo to take the 2 cars of the company and trade them for one new car, she said i need present myself as the car guy of the company and male them think that I understand cars amd be confident af lmao, of course im getting extra pay for it so it’s really good
Maybe it’s Emperor who made her think im the right man for the job, i hope i can get a good trade
Also i decided to take a QA course so im going to add QL to my my stack
What car do you have in mind?
The ceo wants an suv
Is reliability and repair costs a factor or just looks, comfort, and new tech? Just curious what you would choose. 
Actually, my understanding of cars is so little that i didn’t even ask her, she will send me a list of the models she wants so i will know what she wants and i will just try to get a good trade
You know car salesman, they will probably try to rip me off
I have some thanks to Scotty Kilmer. Would be great if a Lexus or Toyota is on that list. There are brands and models you have to avoid because they are endless money pits. Some are ok for a year or two though if it’s not an issue.
I just got back from the gym and some asshole was standing with his car on the road with his door open and it looked like he was looking for something, i honked at him because i wanted to keep driving and than he looked at me and i saw it was one of the criminals from our city and he shouted something at me and kept on blocking the road, so o waited
And now im pissed because i was so powerless, if i said something i don’t know what he would have done to me, he would probably call his entire criminal family and beat me up
Im so pissed because i literally have zero power in this world
Trust me, you did the right thing there. It can be tempting to confront someone like that, but you never know how psycho they are, if they have a knife or gun on them, and if they’re actually alone.
Unnecessary fights have a strong tendency of landing people in the ER, jail, or morgue.
Im not doing QL anymore it’s adding too much recon especially now with an Emperor/TWP custom + Phoenix, so right now im only doing the custom and Phoenix
The cognitive enhancements of Emperor are probably enough dor now, also im sure im smart enough for the QA course
Im so excited for this jew chapter of my life, starting the course, finishing the course and starting to work at a high tech company, advancing through the ranks, maybe become a programmer, maybe opening my own company, endless possibilities in the world of high tech, finally I will no longer be limited in my dead end job
Edit: I don’t know which subliminal it was, Emperor or Phoenix, it was probably both, but i never thought i would want to work at a high tech company, i always thought to my self that 1. “I don’t have the brain for it” and 2. “I don’t want to work for someone else and don’t care about climbing up the ladder, i want to open my own business”
Well now i think i am smart enough for it, you don’t need to he really smart for it actually and second, i don’t have to be an entrepreneur, not yet at least
A bit sad you left QL for now but congrats bro. Should you consider being a programmer later, this should help. Roadmap.sh …Lucky dodge vs that criminal btw. The stakes were mostly just your ego so it wasn’t worth it. There’s a difference between courage and recklessness. QL guided you to the correct decision. 
Yeah it’s sad because i really love QL, when Phoenix finishes the job i will replace it with QL or maybe UP