Day 89 - Processing Days
26 Days on Khan ST1 (1 1/2 month on Q)
8 Days on Khan ST2 (over 33 days so far on QV2)
4 Days on RM
1 Day Heartsong
Many days on RICH Solace
Yesterday was a tough day. I was lethargic and useless almost all day.
I spent the time doing easy tasks that don’t need much computing power. It is still crazy to me how far-reaching and long-lasting the effects of the subs are.
It is day 8 now of overload, and I still only get slight effects of recon.
Going forward I am truly thinking of running just one or two subs PER WEEK for maybe 3 weeks and then take 1-2 weeks off for processing.
The other self
Currently reading "Outwitting the Devil" by Napoleon Hill which - of the many books I've read - and outside the Kybalion might be the most profound gamechanger only 20 pages in.
It could also align with the Spiritual side of Khan Stage1 which sent me to Astrology and Magic, which - if anything - just help me be aligned on my Path, enjoy life, and understand my meaning in this world.
Hill talks about us consisting of two “self’s.”
One is driven by fear.
The other is driven by faith.
You could also say conscious and subconscious.
Good and evil.
The Law of Polarity.
Interesting how I come back to this.
Most people are obviously driven by the first one. Because the second is “magic” and hard to grasp. Works in “unclear” ways but if I am being honest with myself, in the past I had this connection.
I never was “good” with money. It came and went. But I always had enough to live happily and enjoy life. Only when I started truly focusing on it, it vanished. Back then I had faith. I had a connection to the subconscious that it’ll work out.
Today I had the realization that I do not need 1 million Dollars. I just need enough to live comfortably and provide for my family. That is all. And I have faith that my subconscious will guide me there. I keep being drawn to that custom which now sits at 15 modules that will solve that. I will give it a few more days (or weeks) before I pull the trigger. Unless my mind decides otherwise.
(And, yes, I will run EoG ST1 first for a month).
Regardless of anything, I recently feel A LOT of synchronicities happening. Things making sense on a new plane of being. Angel numbers everywhere, etc.
Maybe the current turmoil of my mind is the self rooted in fear being dethroned and faith coming back. I definitely feel the tendencies towards that especially money-wise and also with the wife where I feel the need to reveal things to her I have been hiding for a while (nothing crazy, just personal stuff).
Fully living in HONESTY and having FAITH that it’ll work out.
Never thought the Sexual Dominance Sub of KHAN would bring me to the LIGHT! 