The MALKUTH Catharsis (Malkuth Journal)

[Malkuth]

After having plateaued on my original pushups progression, I have now made a much-welcomed transition to the other program, 100pushups.com. This one feels more rationally organized. It’s newer too.

6 weeks of daily pushups, arranged at the proper intensity with no need for rest/recovery days. Looking good. Each week, there’s one day of going to failure and testing one’s current one set max. This is then used to calibrate the following week. I like it.

So far we’re on Day 2.

Early AM and Early PM done for today. Later when I get back home, I’ll do the final 2 Evening sets.

Feels good.

[Malkuth]

Day 2 done.

Forgot about the evening set, and showered first.

New routine

[Malkuth]

Day 3 in the can

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This program makes much more intuitive sense to me.

It may take longer, but I think it’s much more likely to carry me the distance. To 100 push-ups.

And I’m in no rush at all.

Once I get to 100 push-ups, my plan is basically

To keep doing 100 push-ups.

So…

No rush

[Malkuth]

Another push-ups day in the can. Workout was the same as yesterday’s and the day before and the day before. So no need to post another pic.

Flying tonight. Son and I.

And when we’re about halfway to our destination, it will be Tuesday and time for my next sub day. We’ll see if I listen on the plane or wait until I get settled at home. I’ll probably do it on the plane in order to take advantage of some of that Energy of Transition and Movement.

We’ll see.

[Malkuth]

In the last few years, I’ve felt physically shorter than I used to. Interesting.

[Malkuth]

Update and upgrade your cosmological, ontological, and phenomenological accounts and practices.

• Where did we come from?

• How did we get to where we are now?

• Where are we going?

With alternating vigor and calm, allow the responses to develop and evolve.

[Malkuth]

So much of how we respond and react to other people is influenced by insistent needs that we often have not even identified.

I would even go so far as to say that you have a moral obligation to be clear on your specific needs, and how they are being met or not being met.

[Malkuth]

I was receiving a subtle but powerful insight earlier about the mental and emotional maturity of being able to discern the difference between Goodness and Rightness.

It’s one of those distinctions that can seem small at first, but that, in the long run, can make a big difference in how easy it is for you to thrive and feel wellbeing.

When we’re young or earlier in life, it’s common for these two to be treated as synonymous, and to be more or less conflated. It’s just one more expression of an egocentric orientation to life. Someone or something’s goodness is very much connected to how Right they are for me. This is so obvious and self-evident that it does not even warrant reflection or much thought.

Yet as we get older and have more time and more experiences, we may start to sense that there are many good things in the world–in other words, many things that offer valuable and meaningful contributions–which are, nevertheless, not necessarily right for what I need, want, or am doing at this time.

I do not need to rail against them or complain about them, but I should also not expect them to satisfy my current needs or situation right now.

In the same way, if there is something that I have determined or have been convinced is very good, there can be a naive tendency to assume that because it is good it should satisfy me right now.

So people often ask, “I’ve done X good thing or have gained Y good situation, so how come I do not feel satisfied or like I’m thriving?!” Again, there is an immature tendency to think that because I have something that is good, I should also have everything that I need, everything that is right for my current situation.

It’s not so.

We don’t need to judge ourselves, others, or the world because we do not have what we need right now. All of those things can still be good and worthwhile, but we have a second question to ask and to answer:

‘Out of all of the good things, people, situations, and circumstances that exist in the world right now, which among them are RIGHT for me?’

Good = Set

Right= Subset

[Malkuth]

Interesting thing with this new pushups approach is that there are no rest days. Instead, there’s higher consistency combined with lower ongoing intensity, and recovery is integrated into the daily routine. Once a week there is a new test: hit your proper form maximum.

Just did the test yesterday and managed 66 before my form was shaky. The program’s algorithm then calculates the next week of workouts, and so here is my Day 8:

Did the early am already, and will meditate now and then maybe hit the next one. First meeting today is at 10 am. I’m overseas now, and my meetings are all online.

Here we go.

[Malkuth]

Contemplate/Investigate Experiencing.

• Contemplate the Process of Experiencing

• Contemplate the Substance/Mediums of Experiencing

• Contemplate the Content of Experiencing

[Malkuth]

I don’t feel like anything great is happening to us. And I don’t feel like anything terrible is happening to us.

I feel like we human beings are here in a sandbox.

Creating a world through the choices we make, through the stories (beliefs) we tell, through the conditions we experience and to which we react.

We live such short lives.

Not truly long enough to understand much of anything.

To allay the insecurities this condition engenders, it can be inviting to look to traditions and to groupthink; these agglomerations of so many individuals added together. The thunderous rapids of the clamourous collective drowns out, if only temporarily, the anxious sounds of our creaking, ticking, quietly insistent personal agency and choice.

[Malkuth]

welcome to existential processing, Malkuth-style!

[Malkuth]

Embrace the Void!

[Lion]

@Malkuth

Embrace the Void!

Embrace the Void!
Embrace the chipmunk voice!

[Malkuth]

Having your needs met enough that you actually have the bandwidth and capacity to be genuinely interested in experiences and perspectives other than just your own.

Major.

[Malkuth]

What is Being?

What is Consciousness?

How is ‘Reality’ being generated and constructed?

Develop a context for investigating these questions experientially;

and whatever the result, whatever it ends up looking like, you will have reverse-engineered so-called ‘meditation’.

[Malkuth]

Sky

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Thought is not a distraction from meditation.

Thought is literally its quarry.

It is one of the elusive miracles under investigation.

[Malkuth]

In Support of the Feeling Mind