Day 13: It’s Fight Time!
There are so many internal and external forces tugging at me right now: studies, data, financial concerns, safety, battling with a scarcity mindset, self-sabotage, recon. I don’t typically enjoy this level of vulnerability, but fuck it—it’s 2025, and we’ve got to get candid about what’s real. Vulnerabilities are our flaws at rest, but in action? We transform into greatness.
The impatience and ambition fueling that sense of not being good enough? That’s horse shit. Ambition is ambition. And this is Khan—it only gets hotter from here. What irritates me is me—being too nice, not taking enough risks. Why the conformity?
I’ve considered tossing in the QTKS next cycle, but it’s not time yet. My mind is still on Nouveau Rich because I’ve got an active campaign to finish up.
After my time away from America in 2021, I lacked any real sense of direction. That’s when I stumbled across some pretty interesting communities and stirred up controversy in a polarizing way (anti-hero vibes). It was a disruption. I offered something outside the box. I gained 500 loyal followers who raged against the machine. But then I got into conflict with some of the other members, and we had irreconcilable differences in how the business should move forward. It was a mutual decision that I step away from the group.
Fast forward a few years, and the group I founded isn’t thriving. It’s dead. I had everything lined up perfectly to run a media empire—delivering value back to the people who built it—but protecting my interests too fiercely created friction. Now, things have changed, and I’m reassuming a role within the group, though I’m detached. I want to structure an operations team to get things running for my polarizing entertainment company.
I had this wild dream of leveraging better advertising sales for a entertainment company and pulling off one of the sweetest deals of all time. Yeah, yeah—I was way in over my head. But I’m still thinking about pulling this off because I desire it. I want to put massive projects into the world. My biggest problem? Seeing them through. And if I do see them through, keeping my ego from turning into Godzilla and going at it with the inner circle.