Am I subconsciously searching for a life filled with beauty in every way possible? Am I suppressing the expression of my unique beauty just because I’m scared to be fully liberated?
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RM right there
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Let’s see how it goes by introducing it in the upcoming new cycle.
If I take a look at my life every passion I had was directly related to aesthetics and beauty: cars, sports shoes, dream-like melodic music, architecture, artworks, body-building & looksmaxxing, extreme weather, hiking (searching for breath-taking landscapes). I have always been a visual observer since I was a child but I always had some creative blocks whenever I decided to create something new or I wanted to keep persisting in my project but then give up after a certain limited timeframe.
So I need to express myself fully without any perceived limits to be myself 100%.
I think I always tried to mask/compensate for the lack of self-expression with perfectionism, rationality, and overall unhealthy detachment from my emotions and my inner world which then it reflected in my outer world with unwanted and negative circumstances.
The Genesis of the Renaissance Man
Just started the journey to self-expression mastery with the assistance of the most important foundation titles out there.
This morning a new thought/realization has popped up about the fear of female beauty and its possible correlation to my inner fear to express my own beauty. What I mean by that is my fear of encountering stunning women could be the outer reflection of a subconscious fear of expressing my own unique beauty to the World.
I’m getting some more interesting thoughts about the concept of beauty and its true meaning. Also I’m having some inner push to rediscover architecture, design and maybe even restart drawing or make some design projects.
I just finished playing with one loop each of Genesis and G:M, so let’s see how it goes at the gym.
EDIT: I think there’s a cultural heritage at play too as I’m Italian and Italy is where the Renaissance was born.
EDIT 2: Forget the Renaissance Man, it’s Daddy time!
Got more indirect compliments at work where some clients said they miss me since I changed my working shifts. Genesis:Mogul strikes again✅
I feel very good, uplifted and balanced today so the obvious synergy between Genesis & G:M is pretty clear for sure.
Tonight I had a very crazy experience where I felt so positively energized and quite horny too that it was highly enjoyable even though it interrupted my sleep. It was a very exciting, euphoric/blissful prolonged feeling that brought a spontaneous smile on my face while experiencing it. But after some minutes then I felt a powerful inner energetic facial morphing that it was so intense to the point I fell back asleep again. I had some very vivid and crazy dreams too which I don’t remember but, as I’m re-reading my previous Genesis journal, it was a very common experience while I was listening to it, especially in solo mode.
Today I’m feeling less motivated and have less energy to do things so I guess I’m facing the recon phase of tonight’s powerful activation which was catalyzed by yesterday’s Genesis combo listening time.
So all in all I’m quite unsure of what to play as the third title because S&Sx plus LotS have come back onto my subc radar to join The Revelation series, Wanted, and Renaissance Man.
Too many titles to choose from means two things:
A) I need to spend more time on the Genesis combo to clear any doubts
B) I can rotate any title I want to experiment with alongside the Genesis combo and see which one is the best for my evolving goals
Based on this & my previous Genesis journal I see a pattern here: there’s too much open choice, so to speak, which makes me:
- more uncertain about the next move to act on
- probably too introspective to the point I’m getting lazier and unmotivated
- way too prone to analysis-paralysis syndrome due to lack of clear pre-defined objectives
- too much swinging from one side to the end of the choice’s spectrum because I’m too rational or too much with my head on the open-ended choices clouds
So these realizations brought to me the solution to this vicious cycle I went from 1 year or so which is to pair Genesis with a more grounding archetyped title where there’s a more structured/effective approach to goal-achieving. I realized that you need to limit your options instead of opening them to a never-ending wide size to decide & act as fast as possible on your goals. In other words, fewer options is better. So in this way, I can still have the unparalleled Genesis purposeful engine (plus all the other great features in it) and have all the remaining benefits from a proper cockpit. If not I’ll keep falling into the stack-switching syndrome.
So the fact I’m getting the unpleasant feeling I’m being pulled into so many directions needs to end for my sanity.
Last year I was on the right track by pairing Genesis with something like Emperor but I felt that Emp wasn’t really the right fit for me. So I started to experiment with KB, Primal, ASBR, Wanted, Chosen, Heartsong, etc. in a never-ending stack-switching phase. That phase started when I left Genesis. That was my main error.
So Genesis alone is not the answer, especially if there’s Genesis:Mogul too which multiplies the possible choices. Other titles alone aren’t the answer, especially if they don’t fit in a structured overall-encompassing archetype and are open-ended (Primal, Chosen, Wanted, etc.).
So if after Emperor/New Emperor I experimented with KB/Heartsong/Primal/ASBR/Chosen/Wanted right now there’s a title that has the Emperor structure plus a lot of the features of those titles and it’s called Emperor Daddy.
I’m 39 years young so it even makes sense from an aging point of view to start using it. Plus I had a lot of results by using Emperor ZP2 and then New Emperor even though I wasn’t fully vibing a lot with it.
Emperor Daddy won! I’m listening to the first loop right now.
Last year, I had the best overall months in terms of results when I was on Genesis & Emperor, so it makes sense to use the more advanced & tailored version to my objectives.
Another thing I noticed is that when I’m on the Emperor product line I tend to grow my beard more & put more effort in body grooming & hygiene too.
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Today I was feeling so good while I walking with some friends in a very crowded placed.
I’m still feeling like I listened to a powerful mix of Emperor/Sanguine/Wanted Black/Chosen and a little bit of Primal. It’s the best feeling I’ve ever felt to be honest with you. The sexy nonchalance of Wanted/Wanted Black + the grounding calm & harmonic effect of Sanguine + the eye contact of Emperor + The positivity of Chosen and the wit and care-free attitude of Primal.
When I was walking in I caught several women checking me out, especially when I wasn’t paying attention to them. I speak less without the need to fill the silence in the conversation but when I talk there’s a more charismatic wit and I don’t care to be quiet when I don’t have anything to say. The truth is that I feel so good that I can enjoy my own silence too. My friends were opening me up more than usual. Also, when I face the mirror I see an handsome guy.
I enjoy so much this version of myself.
It looks like that Emperor Daddy is the best & fastest acting title I have ever tried. It works so well with the Genesis series too.
I cannot wait to see the effects at the gym tomorrow.
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The recon hit hard on one of my weak points because the chain always break at the weak link.
This ZP technology is so powerful that it keeps highlighting the unresolved issues which prevents the full execution of every title and stack.
In my case I felt a lot of positive shifts with Emperor Daddy in the direction of full executing it but I went into a little crisis because I still need to solve the missing piece of the puzzle: sexual shame.
Whenever I listen to a title where a sexual vibe/aura needs to be expressed, then shame and embarrassment come to the surface. I already said it’s too much uncomfortable to feel embarrassed out of the blue when I have a social job where I interact with a lot of people. So it’s not necessary to suffer these things while I’m at work because they make my work performance definitely worse.
So I think that I need something to heal the sexual shame and fear. Probably I need something like Sex and Seduction X to heal that by experiencing powerful positive situations which are going to shift those faulty subconscious blocks to express my sexuality 100%.
You cannot lie to ZP because you cannot lie to yourself.
Emperor Daddy can work properly if I solve my historical weak points: expressing my sexuality & low income, as 2 embarrassing situations happened yesterday related to those issues.
So I think that If I want to keep Emperor Daddy then I need to pair it with S&Sx + G:M which are the best beginner titles for those issues I guess.
I’m running bdlm+rotnw and they both are very powerful for sexual confidence.
One is helping it grow physically + has lots of scripting around confidence about the sexual organ and the other one (rotnw) is, according to the copy, emanating a powerful aura that says interacting with your organ is like getting a million bucks, so you can imagine what mindset is instilled in you for you to be able to emanate this, intense and direct confidence about the worth of your sexual organ and sexual capacity for pleasure.
So it is like a massive booster, the so called ‘big dick energy’, the one that makes you feel sexually abundant and ready to go anytime.
I never tried SSX and I’m sure it’s great for the goal, but I thought I’d share with you my experience with these other 2 subs, so you know different options, an added bonus I see about either BDLM and RotNW is they are lightweight so easier to process.
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@SoulFire Thanks for the suggestion but I would like to keep everything more streamlined and beginner-friendly as possible by working directly on those main areas. I ran both in different cycles briefly and RotNW was so fast acting in generating sexual attraction but still, that sexual shame was very strong to the point I gave up. So I need something different to tackle that issue.
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From now on, I will use Emperor Daddy (my current favorite all-inclusive archetype) plus 1-2 titles to bridge the gaps to fully execute it.
An hour ago, I played 30-second loops of S&Sx + G:M, and I already have seen an almost instant manifestation of a new PT client who wants to be trained up to three times per week. Also, yesterday’s and today’s Functional Training courses - that I usually lead - are fully booked. So, I take it as another positive manifestation of my career.
30 sec. loops are unbeatable to see very quick/instant results I guess because the processing time is very fast too. I also guess that paradoxically I feel more recon with those very brief listening times compared to full loops because the processing starts immediately with the most amount of recon felt straight away instead of delayed and stronger recon symptoms I feel days after full loops.
That’s why instinctively I don’t like shorter loops very much even though they produce much faster results and less recon overall in the medium/long term.
The day went better especially when I started the working shift at the gym. Definitely bolder and more social when required. I felt so good looking and attractive at some point that I thought I was on Wanted Black. Also my slow walking pace caught the attention of several clients. Another good news is that the Funktional Course was overbooked with a waiting list of few people. It’s getting more popular for sure.
Yes, I’m getting more extroverted when I interact with people, especially groups. There’s this increasing pleasure to express myself more and more and truly become the super friendly dude of my youngest years. At work I can be the wit & highly energetic/positive leader when I want to activate this version of myself.
My shyness is decreasing after its painful reawakening of the last week.
I’m so free inside and self-assured that I guess I radiate pure positive vibes and people seem to be responsive to my energy.
Very short loops are my new successful recipe where I can experience fast results with least amount of recon involved. After all I just realized I need the minimum effective dose to get the most amazing results. It’s a matter of listening to subliminals the smart way, not the hard one where you think you’re getting somewhere when instead the reality check is around the corner. A reality check that manifest itself with delayed recon and stack-switching, with inner-vulnerability and highly negative thoughts arising.
Less is more but the Ego won’t understand it.
Once again, I had great times at work, with plenty of laughter, wit, respect, camaraderie, and, especially a few hours ago during my PT sessions, a lot of friendly/teasing physical contact from male clients. I guess I’m feeling so good inside that my energy naturally expands and reaches out to everyone near me.
However, the most strange thing happened when I was walking and I caught a lady unnaturally turning her head towards me to check me out while driving her car. It was unreal ngl
Let’s see how it goes tomorrow after listening to 30 sec. of Emperor Daddy.
I had a crazy nightmare tonight to the point I tried to escape it for real (it was about a trapped environment) and I found myself standing up near my bed. It’s been a recurring nightmare of mine but a few months since the last episode though, fortunately.
Yesterday, I had the idea to ask a cute cashier out with a written paper, but I didn’t have the chance (read the guts) to give it to her. The next time I see her, though, I’ll make sure not to miss another chance. I already had a few short convos with her but asking a girl out is still a sticking point.
Also when I was walking I said ‘hi’ to a few people and I had the inner push to open up a very short conversation with 2 strangers. It was a very spontaneous/inspired action.
So even though I count them as progress, I still need to exert more courage when I’m outside the gym.
In other news, I restarted my eBay model cars side business where a few years ago I bought & re-sold several of them. That’s another passion which was re-awekened by Genesis:Mogul I suppose.