I’m reading the Revelation of Spirit thread and it could be more suited for an effortless unfolding of everything I want. I’m already closer to how I’m manifesting things in my experience but that title could shed even more clarity on the whole process while making it “automatic”.
If not it will be a nice experiment to go through and, no matter what, Genesis & Sanguine will stay here unless my higher Self will show me otherwise.
A big shift inside me is steering the direction towards the Ascension process. Is it time to say goodbye to the ego-based little self and embrace universal Love & never come back to pursue only materialistic things? The YouTube suggestions are going in that direction too and right now after several hours I’m facing a low mood state which tells me another big breakthrough is around the corner.
Is that you, Love Bomb for Humanity knocking on my door?
Yesterday was very rough emotionally and I got very nasty recon symptoms regarding my sexual market value (especially in my physical appearance). My mind was very foggy and full of unwanted thoughts because I felt invisible, unwanted and unuseful. I didn’t want to interact with clients at work due to my very negative mood, so it was one of the worst work days. I didn’t want to be there in those conditions but I have managed to get through.
Then I had very vivid dreams tonight which I don’t remember anymore though. However, I do remember at some point that someone told me that crackers consumption can induce cancer. I don’t know how to take that dream advice/warning but maybe there’s some truth in my particular case.
Let’s address the big elephant in the room though. Why am I having Wanted-related recon symptoms when I’m not running it for 2 months? Is it even possible I re-activated its script just by consciously commanding my subconscious to do it?
The fact that those recon symptoms have been way more intense compared to my active listening to Wanted/Wanted Black a few months ago left me puzzled for sure. I don’t know If I am onto something or not…
So there seem to be some very deep healing going on related to be Wanted or maybe it’s just the Love Bomb script doing deep work.
There is no Wanted related recon, in the sense that whatever recon you get is never about the sub program, it’s about you. So whatever uncomfortable things that arise with any subliminal program is simply your own material you are dealing with, always, at all times.
So you call it Wanted related recon because you are experiencing layers of insecurities/fear that you have associated with the time you were listening to that sub because they have been specifically triggered while listening to Wanted.
Someone recently explained this process of projection of ourselves onto the subs or whatever healing tools we might use, it made a lot of sense I could recognize this pattern in myself, I think it was @Malkuth, maybe he can copy it here it was an interesting read, I can search for it.
I discovered the answer to my question: I got red & blackpilled (consciously and subconsciously). Dark triad anyone? Now I’m facing their high toxicity levels. Probably I’m experiencing them in full-blown mode due to the healing & clearing process. Please everyone who’s reading this & is unaware of those toxic thought movements stay away from them but educate yourself about what they really are.
The truth is that I cannot stand anymore whatever is toxic both from the physical and thought-based world.
I can feel there was a very potent shift in myself in the last days or even weeks which is flushing & pushing back everything that’s toxic from myself. If not I couldn’t explain this sudden change.
I guess Sanguine is having some kind of multiplying effect on the scale & speed of this healing & clearing process. After all, you cannot escape this revealing effect when you run the Genesis product line too. That’s why I’m now sure based on my experience that Genesis is the most underrated title. It seems so innocent and so seemingly beginner-friendly that I can see it as one of the most advanced too. Probably on par with the Revelation product line.
This is what I mentioned, interesting perspective from @Malkuth here, but I think there’s another post where he goes deeper into this particular aspect.
What if my True Self keeps telling me with seemingly negative experiences after experiences both in the inner & outer World, that the only way to escape a dead end is up? How can you break a perpetuating cycle if you’re not willing to give up your ego-based efforts and trust the process to guide you through the sticking points you created by yourself?
The recon symptoms are getting worse and I’m facing very low motivation, lazyness and an uncomfortable burning feeling inside my body between my head and my heart region. I just want to go home and do nothing.
I have never experienced something like this before during my SubClub journey.
Maybe I need a very long washout to give my subconscious an healthy break.
180° negative shift in just few hours. Usually by working my shift at the gym the recon fades away but this time it’s not leaving my body.
If by tomorrow I will not recover from this very low point then it’s time for a very long and early washout.
EDIT: I feel that my brain is immersed in a microwave oven. Not pleasant at all. Probably it’s subliminal overexposure too.
Tonight my heart region was so painfully restless that at some point I thought there was an incoming heart attack. It was like some heavy activation that I had never experienced before. I already experienced restless legs in the past during the night but not a restless chest.
Fortunately, it stopped when I managed to fall asleep again.
This morning, I wasn’t feeling good until I consciously affirmed on my commute to the gym. Then, during the working shift, I regained a better mood and a more positive outlook. Maybe it wasn’t just recon but something else outside my control, which wasn’t related to my subliminal usage.
Once again there are still limiting/negative thoughts about my physical appearance though.
Now I want to read the Revelation of Mind thread after another suggestion by @LovingEmperor to embark on the Revelation product line. A lot of things and experiences keep pointing on that direction but I don’t know if I’m ready to face the possibility of super-disruption in my current reality due to the sheer power of the 3 most powerful titles about the purpose of your life. As I said before, it could be also the fear of embarking on a completely and unexpected chapter of my life where I’m finally guided by something that my Ego could never comprehend. I guess it’s a subconscious low level of trust in that powerful guidance from the tiny human ego perspective.
One side of me would like to experience what life in charge or unfolded 100% by my True Self would look like. If that’s the case then Genesis + RoM + RoS would be the answer to unfold and fully realize my ultimate unknown potential supported by the courage script of Genesis which will be very useful to act on the (probable) new path.
RoM is much less “disruptive” than RoS so if that’s a concern, go with RoM.
I didn’t find it too externally disruptive. I found it internally to shatter misconceptions of who I thought I was and what I wanted, but it was a smooth experience, because i didn’t have any sense of feeling lost. The “disruption of self” occurred only once I had found who I REALLY was, and at that point it was effortless to adopt, like walking backwards all my life and then replacing it with the idea of walking forwards.
Some more positive & unexpected manifestations happened yesterday and I woke up with a quiet mind this morning.
I’m thinking of changing my listening pattern to 1 title every other day for example Monday (title 1), Wednesday (Title 2), Friday (Title 3), and so on to give a longer processing time.
Next week will be the end of my current cycle, so I have plenty of time to decide whether to continue with it or introduce at least 1 Revelation title in the next stack.
This morning I played a Sanguine full loop and all of a sudden I decided to shave my face completely. Then after few hours I got the urge to search for male beauty tips to introduce in my daily routine.
Another wave of red/blackpilled negative thoughts have come up to my conscious mind.
I just feel the need to get rid of this harmful link between my self-image and my body/appearance. It’s not healthy for my identity to be in charge of something which is going to deteriorate and die at some point. Instead I’m so attracted to the idea to shift myself into a male model of some kind just to be more likeable both in romantic/social/professional settings. I think it stems from deep-seated insecurities that I need to heal better sooner than later.
It’s strange that those kind of thoughts/realizations about myself and their toxicity didn’t come up when I was listening to Wanted/Wanted Black but right now since I introduced Sanguine.
My outer reality is healing me because this morning I felt so vulnerable and “naked” due to shaving my beard completely and trying a new haircut. However as soon as I entered the gym for the PT session that painful feeling started to dissipate when the clients “warmed me up” with their kind & friendly interactions plus more compliments too.
It looks like I’m already running a Revelation stack, maybe in a light format because deep realizations about myself are emerging more & more.
The pendulum is swinging from side to side as I’m finding myself keep going back & forth from similar thoughts/mindset to new ones.
However I keep getting more “insider” info on the way how to manifest effortlessly and the outer reality seems to confirm those insides.
So here’s what my experience is showing me: if I express the assumption of the desire already fulfilled and saturate the mind with it (briefly or longer doesn’t really matter), then I need to let it go (consciously forgetting about it) by focusing the mind on another task. That task needs to “force” my mind-chatter to get quiet on the subject I want to manifest but (and the following aspect of my theory needs more confirmations) it can get louder on some other topic. So a quiet mind isn’t the main driver of manifesting a certain thing but a quiet mind on the topic to manifest I guess it’s the answer.
Here’s the disclaimer though: this is my subjective experience by observing the unfolding of past events so I don’t know if it can be applied to anyone or it’s another assumption which will be proven wrong by my future experiences.
NGL, I lost a lot of self-discipline and don’t know if this amount of introspection is the right path for my particular case. I’m not as motivated as I used to be, and those changes stopped the side business I built while I was on Emperor. The truth is that there’s no more passion for those things that were sustaining themselves with willpower and discipline alone, so they weren’t sustainable after all. I’m getting towards a reset point I guess.
So what do I really deeply want to do?
Maybe I should restart with what I’m instinctively attracted to beyond any logical reason my mind could counteract.
When I was 10 to 12 years old I was deeply fascinated by the aesthetics and beauty in sports shoe design, car design, music and I was drawing sports cars, shoes and in a few years I went into music production to make an amateur album of tracks and I started to be passionate about big muscles. Instead, when I was a child I was deeply in love with dinosaurs, earthmoving machinery, and church bells. So if I think about the fil rouge between all of those there’s always the aspect of extraordinary beauty and design involved from a visual and sensorial point of view.
In fact, at some point, I started to design fitness equipment, houses, pieces of furniture, and a few years ago a lot of artworks. So another fil rouge is the art of creation without any fixed boundaries on a particular niche.
After this realization, I think there’s one title that I never tried and it could be the big elephant in the room that I have never seen before for some unknown reason: Renaissance Man. I mean, I have always jumped from one niche to another because deep down I’m bored when I stick to something for too long. So I need to experiment, experience & create something new all the time to feel alive, if not I’ll go in depression mode sooner or later.
In the past, I needed to make new friends/groups of friends after a certain amount of time. I needed to change my career and my way of making money as well as jumping from regular jobs to entrepreneurship. I needed to experiment with different health/fitness workouts/personal growth/spiritual paths not because I was not finding what I was looking for but due to my soul craving for new experiences, especially if created by myself after learning about mainstream/niche ones. I was jumping from one interest to another new passion all the time while I was dreaming of creating never-seen niches too. Also new and unconventional lifestyles.
That’s why I’m not meant to focus on one thing for too long and I’m inclined to experiment with different things while making brand-new connections between them.
I guess Renaissance Man can help me bring a more structured, logical and result-driven mindset to make everything click.
I’m undecided between the Genesis+GM+Wanted and Genesis+RoM+RoS stack. Based on my indecision, however, I would say that I need to make an in-depth clarity on what I want because it has happened to me too many times to desire something very much apparently but then the desire and my actions weakened in a short time.
It was probably something I thought I wanted based on external influences but that instead was not aligned with my essence.
So it would be better for me to do at least one cycle of Genesis + RoM + RoS or introduce only RoM for the first cycle always keeping Genesis + GM. And then in the second cycle replace RoM with RoS.
A third option would be Genesis + Renaissance Man + GM to unleash my self-expression to new heights and directions while re-awakening my creativity and productivity.
I know one thing for sure, though indecisiveness, and especially stack-switching, are strong signs of a lack of alignment with my true purpose, so I guess the only cure would be the Genesis of Revelations stack.
I’m getting new personal training clients without putting a lot of effort into it so those kinds of effects are very similar to my True Sell cycles and I think the G:M is the main driving factor behind them. So it’s a keeper for sure until I have a super-clear idea of which financial path to follow long-term.
I’m reading the Renaissance Man thread and I’m very attracted to it for the self-expression and the re-awakening of my artistic/creative sides but I’m also always attracted to the physical transformations so Wanted should be included too.
I think I will rotate between Wanted, RoM, RoS and RM as the third title in my stack while keeping Genesis and Genesis:Mogul.
Oh man, there are so many things I would like to accomplish, experiment with, do, and explore at the same time it’s not even funny!
thats genesis lmao exact same feelings and thoughts every single time on genesis