Have you thought about Diamond? Because it can make her more horny.
She can try Limitless or BLE. On the one side, you will see if it working at all and on the other side, it can also lead to improving her English by better brain utilization.
I’ve bought the “new technology” SS that it’s exactly for that
As I said I don’t want to jump from sub to sub hoping for one that will work
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Genesis (8th cycle)
SSX (2nd cycle)
LBFH (1st cycle)
I didn’t see my girlfriend yesterday either. I know this is better for me cause I can focus more on other things.
One of these is finding my purpose, since I’ve started using Genesis I’ve not seen much progress in that area. However, it is likely that the anxiety and nervousness that I have been having in cycles lately is actually recon from Genesis.
I’ve started Purpose Mastery course, it seem very well done. One of the first things you go through is finding your Original Story (a particular event, usually between your 5 and 15s, that shaped your style of making reactive decisions in life).
In my case I might one of these:
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Betrayal Overcomer: my father left my mother when I was 10, he was having an affair with another woman
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Rejection Overcomer: my father was always pointing out how I have to be better, often making fun of me, I don’t remember expression of love from him except in recent years, when he was ill.
Also leaving our house after the separation seems a bit like a rejection to me.
Now, I have a clearer picture of what is causing a lot of stress in my relationship.
Fear of her not being honest to me (betrayal) and of me not being enough (rejection), I even wake up at night because of these.
Dream
I dreamed of finding myself in this house, where a dog, which initially seemed aggressive then jumped into my arms and was extremely affectionate, it almost seemed like it was looking for comfort/protection.
A person who is there tells me that it is strange and that it would be nice if I could dedicate some time to it every now and then.
I accept, he seems amazed and he tells me that he should go and talk to the owner about it immediately.
I meet the owner and he tells me that the dog actually does this because he is reliving his trauma. I am shocked and ask him whether or not it is useful for him to see me if he relives a trauma in my presence…
Current Stack
KB st1 - 1st cycle
SSX - 3rd cycle
Yesterday evening I was very tranquil, I’m not sure if it can even be definied as apathy. I had dinner with my gf and then we watched some tv.
Even though I touched and caressed her I didn’t have any sexual or even emotional pull.
Than after sometimes I decided to go to bed, thoughts started to come to my mind “why I don’t feel sexual?” “why I’m not attracted” “our sexual attraction is ended?”.
We were in bed, none of us could sleep, but I was very relaxed and started observing the thoughts above. They came and went, then I settled into the background of thoughts.
At one point I started caressing her butt.
I was teasing sometimes not even touching but letting her feel the presence of my hand, she got very aroused.
We had sex, it was very dominating on my part. I was much more “talkative” than usual, probably SSX and some dirty talk video I’m looking lately. I know she loves this but I’m often a little “shy” about it… but not this time.
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my 2 cents:
she feels unworthy of love and the root cause is something that happened in her childhood and she projects that onto every guy. give her a lot of hugs and affection and just tell her that you love her even when you don’t have sex.
she’s very sexual but that proves that she’s traumatised, because it’s a coping mechanism. she’s actually addicted to sex because it makes her feel safe and protects her from the trauma. it’s a classic trauma response
i know you didn’t ask for my opinion, just trying to help…
Thanks for your option but I was a post from 5 months ago. Now things in our relationship have changed for the better.
And no she don’t use sex as a coping mechanism, I’ve realized I was the one that actually did that. But again, things are changing
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I’m glad to hear that, I wish you guys all the best
After I read your post, I saw some other testimonials on youtube and reddit that creatine could create temporary erectile dysfunction.
Have yours got better after stopping creatine?
Yes I don’t remember exactly but I’d just a week after stopping everything was back to normal
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