I’m taking it slowly. Just contemplating what you’ve written and where you’re coming from.
The one program, so far, that jumps out at me the most to include is: Astral Projection.
Not only would that be a means to both ‘knowing/seeing’ and ‘getting there’, but it would simultaneously serve as an excellent functional litmus test of how the overall Opening and Letting Go process is unfolding.
None of what you’ve described of your internal experience seems unreasonable to me, by the way. I think that your bodymind is basically communicating that, “In order for us to open the gates here, I need to be extremelyclear about our safety. It is my responsibility to keep us safe, and I take that responsibility extremely seriously. I’m not playing around with this or approaching it casually.”
That seems highly reasonable and loyal to me, and is a cause for gratitude.
I’ll recommend two ‘manuals’ for lack of a better word.
One is called Knowing and Seeing by the teacher Pa Auk Sayadaw. It’s one of those ‘everything’ kinds of reference books.
Another book which is its own work, but which essentially serves as a more digestible companion to the first is called Practicing the Jhanas, by Stephen Synder and Tina Rasmussen.
You may find them useful/interesting.
Anyway, back to the point. It’s not a sickness or a deficiency that we’re dealing with here. It’s a high-level of standards for security. You don’t just waltz into the Prime Minister’s Office, or the US White House, or a high-level bank, and start moving things around and randomly arranging things. You need to follow certain procedures and protocols to signal that you are an acceptable person to even be in there.
I think your mind has the equivalent of Secret Service agents or exacting gatekeepers. They are doing a valuable job and should be treated with respect. They should not be ignored or resented. Instead, observe and talk to them and find out what they’re trying to accomplish and what they require. As you learn to respect their work and how they do it, you’ll also find it easier to navigate the spaces that they influence.
Another important point is to realize that your unconscious/subconscious processes are already active and are doing what they need to do. As you point out.
So, it seems to me that a central part of your spiritual subliminal has to do with ACCESS. Gaining access to the inner workings. Gaining access. Earning access.
Needless to say, Immortal’s Blade is of central importance. Sending a clear signal to your mind that you are prioritizing proper security and boundaries.
In my opinion, Harmonic Singularity is a vital part of any spiritual practice oriented subliminal.
I’m going on too long, so I’ll stop here first.
