I stopped posting journals because I ended up PMO’ing a couple days after my last post and felt like that halted all progress with EQ and PS. That’s more than likely strictly limiting beliefs, but I will be continuing my log soon!
I haven’t made a custom yet, I’d like to do it after this new module pack drops later on. I wonder what a custom of Emp and PS will be like in a custom… Looking forward to your journal!
Slipping up a few times doesn’t completely halt progress. It’s usually just reconciliation. Hop back on the horse and ride on.
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Totally, and that’s kinda what I figured.
I’ve been running EQ consistently since then, with 2 days off per week as suggested to me, and I’m definitely gonna start journaling again 
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10/13/20
So, a few days ago I decided to add PS back to my stack as I feel my absorption of Emperor has become quite stable. I’ve gotten up to 2 to 3 loops of EQ each day, and I’ve been doing the 5/2 day split.
I’ve had some remarkable things happen with my job since my last entry, including:
A random guy that I’ve never spoken to called me at the beginning of last week asking me if I was interested in joining his driver’s fleet, making $200 a day and $7.50 each stop I make that day, at 30+ stops a week. This happened extraordinarily shortly after I had just internalized inside of myself that everything was working out for me and that money was no longer a problem. I haven’t accepted the position for the simple fact that I don’t like the home time options. But, this lead into the next remarkable thing, which was…
A couple of days later, one of the top dogs in my fleet took it upon himself to personally call me to ask what they could do to keep me. I assume that the first guy had gone through channels to get me released to his fleet and so this other guy contacted me. Throughout the discussion he kept making it very clear that he would prefer if I stayed with the fleet and he was making very light comments against me going to the other fleet for numerous reasons.
When I mentioned my small grievances against my current fleet that had me considering the first guy’s offer, mostly monetary, he then made me an offer that I have never heard of happening in this fleet, which consisted of me receiving a solo condo driving role, making more money. All of that to say, that was a very interesting manifestation. I wonder what manifestation modules EQ contains…
As I stated in the beginning I’ve added Primal Seduction to my stack again. I had taken it out temporarily a few weeks ago in line advice given to me by some veterans. As I’ve been listening to Emperor the last few days, something inside of me has been beckoning me to reinstate it in my listening regimen, which I decided to do yesterday. I set my music player to loop EQ/PS x2 while I slept, masked. What I’ve noticed immediately is that my dreams took on a strange sexual nature. 3 separate dreams that I had featured three different women that I’ve known and had romantic interest in in the past, in various sexual encounters. Not actual sex at this point, but had they continued definitely would have. I woke up with a sense of optimism.
I’ll detail more of my Emperor journey in a bit.
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10/15/20
So, over a month has passed of consistent EQ use. What have I noticed? Here’s just a few things.
• I tolerate bullshit far less nowadays. Both in my relationship with my girlfriend and in my work. I’m more quick to call out things that displease me or that I need clarification on without speeding through my mind in anxiety weighing the risk of speaking out.
• Several opportunities have come to my attention in the last month in the trucking industry, both within my company and outside. Things I have been considering have manifested in the strangest of ways through conversations with others without me actively seeking the information. I enjoy that.
•My girlfriends seems to test my patience more often, though it doesn’t seem conscious. I do feel slightly more cold about other’s feelings in some ways and so sometimes I could care less about how she is feeling, even though I’m generally pretty empathetic. More often than not, my approach within is that this is something you could very well deal with without bothering me with it, rather than my usual sigh, let’s stress and internalize this and get frustrated. That’s something that could be consciously worked on, I’m certain.
Before I continue, I’ve listened to Emperor at least twice a day, if not three times with 2 days off following 5 days on.
• I have noticed more than one synchronicity involving the word Emperor in the last 5 weeks, as well as empire popping up.
• For those of you interested in this kind of thing I’ve also seen an increase in “angel numbers”. I see the 1’s often, I have for years, but there has been a noticeable increase in those as well as 222, 333, 444 and 555. What this means? Who the hell really knows, lol.
• I haven’t been actively gaming women per se, but I do pay attention to how women respond to me and I can definitely say that there have been a few encounters, particularly lately, that have reminded me that my girlfriend is not the only viable female in the world as an option lol. On the same note…
• I believe I mentioned at the beginning of this journey that my girlfriend and I have wanted girls to have threesomes with. Strangely enough, since I added Primal Seduction back to my stack a stack, we’ve gotten an increased amount it interested women that are more convenient than the many others that have come previously.
Neato.
• My energy has definitely gone up.
• My desire to binge on YouTube has fluctuated with the majority of the time being absolutely bored with the videos I’m used to watching within minutes.
I mentioned a few times about having ‘relapsed’ with porn.
• I haven’t been PMO’ING and then binging like would sometimes happen after not indulging for an amount of time. I have a decreased desire to even consume the shit and when I do have a desire I’m able to recognize it for the weakness that it is and move on. I wonder if there’s an anti porn module.
Things that I am still looking forward to enjoying is decreased social anxiety, decreased anxiety around my ideal women, an increase in the go getting attitude, and other things of a similar nature.
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10/18
Today (really yesterday) has been my first of two days of rest from Emperor and Primal Seduction and all day I’ve been really wanting to play some loops, but I’ve resisted the urge. Looking at the subconscious as a muscle, the real work happens on days off, though it has truly been tempting. Maybe in a week or two I’ll experiment with 6 days on and 1 off, but we’ll see. Primal Seduction is considered dense and it being relatively new to my playlist, I would prefer to give myself as much off time as needed, even if it’s unnecessary. I haven’t played AuraQ for a few days, but I plan on adding it and being consistent with it starting Monday.
(Been sitting on Executive for awhile. I haven’t looped it more than once, I’m just not sure if my headphones or phone speaker with work with an Ultima title).
Things that I’m assuming have come from reinstating PS to my stack are:
• Noticeable improvement in quality of sleep. I woke up this morning in the sleeper and couldn’t go back to sleep. This could also be EQ putting in work however as I noticed this in the first week of my Emperor journey.
• Getting up and having not only good energy to the point I didn’t feel as if I wanted coffee for energy but more for the taste, but “good mood energy”.
• My skin seems smoother, especially on my arms. Semen retention if I recall correctly does have that effect on me, but my instincts tell me this is PS at work. Does anyone know if PS has body modules? I’m also beginning to be more attracted to my own face again, and when I touch my face it also feels really smooth, another thing I notice while retaining, but something I feel like PS could be compounding.
• People are chatting with me randomly. Almost making excuses to have a short conversation with me. And it seems to me that I’m seeing more and more of my ideal female type.
• Today as I was driving I was listening to my inner world and self talk to build a greater relationship with my Self, and I’m beginning to realize that there is a lot of darkness within myself that I need to make conscious. There’s a lot of things going on under the surface that cause me anxiety and fear that I haven’t pinpointed yet, but I recognize the emotional patterns even before they arise. I have a bit of “spiritual knowledge”, the Kyballion being one of my favorite books ever and the Alchemist Core was a title I was eyeing along with Khan and Emperor, but Emperor just spoke to me more at the time. I’m thinking that maybe after a solid 6 months of Emperor and Primal Seduction I will purchase Khan and the Alchemist. Well. 6 months AFTER Saint and Fire drop the name embedded options for the regular store and I upgrade my current titles. Which if I remember correctly will be sometime at the end of this year? Maybe it was November. In which case, those will be my birthday presents to myself!
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10/20/20
Cool date, seeing that written out. So, many things have occurred on little fronts, but I’ll talk about a few just to keep my journal muscles up.
Today, I got a call from the big boss on the Walmart fleet with my company asking if I was interested in the solo condo truck position I mentioned a few posts back.
Before I get into other things, let me explain why this is big to me:
Right now, I drive a condo (a truck with two sleeper bunks for myself and my co-driver) and generally with this fleet, there are condo, or team drivers and daycab, or solo positions. I’ve never personally met anyone in this fleet that is a condo driver but solo as well besides big fish (the safety ambassador, and the road team people). So this would give me my truck all to myself, essentially. He gave me a choice between two positions, one basically doing what I’m doing now, but solo and therefore making more money, or a new sub-fleet that just started up doing more regional work (I’m dedicated). I love doing new things so I was curious about the second one, the new one, but he cautioned me that if I’m used to making a certain amount of money, then I should stick to the first one because the payouts aren’t established just yet since it’s a new fleet.
Once I heard that, I accepted the solo position doing what I’m doing now. The other reason that this is huge to me is that I will no longer have to be on “team-split” pay. To give you an idea of what that means, let’s say I was on a 500 mile trip. Myself and my co-driver would drive the trip, at about 21 cents per mile. Now, I drive at least 600 miles per shift, so, if I started the trip in the beginning he would basically be being paid to sleep and watch videos. Vice versa with the positions changed. On 1200+ mile trips it evens out better.
BUT.
Instead, my pay is going to be at just 40 cents per mile since I’m about to hit a year with my company, and I take all of the money for each stop ($15 each).
Simple math will tell you why that’s huge to me.
Another reason that I am stoked for this is because though I like people sometimes, I don’t like talking to people past a certain point. Even if they’re cool as hell, I get burned out and it begins to drain me. When I’m stuck on a truck with them 24/7, it’s too much. Luckily, I actually enjoy my current co-driver for the most part, but it’s still been irksome listening to the same stories over and over and even worse, listening to complaints about this, that and the other. But enough on that.
The other reason that kind of ties in with the last one is that I like to listen to either audiobooks (this is not an Audible sponsored post, unfortunately), podcasts (train by day, Joe Rogan by night. All day!), or…
My subliminals.
I have hardly been able to use my ultrasonic programs when I’m sleeping or in the back in the sleeper chilling because I don’t want to inadvertently affect homeboy’s consciousness. So having the truck to myself with this new gig will prove quite fortuitous in many ways.
Moving on from that, though. I’ve been noticing that I’ve been getting into conflicts with my girlfriend quite a lot lately. More often than usual, in fact. I’m wondering if maybe this has to do with some healing aspect of Primal Seduction, is just a part of the changes I’m going through with Emperor, some combination of both, or it’s just me leveling up in some way and her sensing it on some level.
I did buy her Seductress a bit ago, as some of you might remember from my post on the Questions, so this too could be part of it.
Whomst is to say? Either way, I refuse to keep on going on no matter the external circumstance.
I had it confirmed for me the other day that Emperor contains an anti porn module, which confirms my suspicions. And so of course, after reading that, after a bit of not consuming the shit…
I consumed the shit. But. Here’s the kicker. I literally did not need to or even want to. Sounds funny, right? But it’s true. I truly had little desire to even utilize porn yesterday, and when the little thought came up, the weakness of it was laughable. But, alas.
(TMI ALERT)
I fapped once without it at all, not even with imagination. Just enjoying the sensation and what not. T’was heavenly, haven’t done that in ages. So then, what does your boy do?
But of course, to ze porn! Not once, but twice. Now this I did with no guilt, and with a complete understanding of why I was doing it. I had expected to go home and be with my girlfriend but as we were beefing at the time, I was frustrated. Definitely useless rationalization, but I was completely aware of the fact at the time. I did it cause I wanted to, not cause I felt I had to.
Today when I woke up, I wasn’t mildly depressed. Lethargic. Feeling crappy. I felt great! So of course, I did it two more times for science. Duh.
Anyways, I put this here to make an excuse and say that the Emperor and Primal Seduction combo completely highjacked my good senses and forced me to do this against my will.
I mean. The Emperor and Primal Seduction combo truly is revolutionising me on an inner level to such a degree that my normally high libido is somewhat “tame”, but definitely noticeable. And even right now, after…5… tittilating therapy sessions within 24 hours, my mind is clear, my energy is up, my cognitive procession is optimal and I’m able to type out this post on my phone without getting bored. Great stuff.
I definitely have more inclination now to grow in my career. I started Emperor without any real desire to build a business, but I have always wanted my own Empire of sorts. How this would happen, I had no idea. But it will happen, I don’t know when or how. Or even why.
But it shall.
P.S. maybe my relationship troubles are one of those infamous Emperor manifestation challenges I keep reading about? 
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Oh, and the only thing I’ve fallen back on is working out. I’m going to get back on that horse asap.
10/21/20
Listening to my inner guidance and intuitive sense, and after a short discussion with @Lion, I decided to purchase RegenerationQ last night. I will be replacing Primal Seduction for a time with it. My reasons for this being:
I have limiting beliefs towards career goals, money, women, sex, as well as some self esteem issues that I can’t logic away. As well as in other areas of my life.
My goals with Regeneration are:
• Healing my limiting beliefs that may be encumbering my greater success with Emperor.
• Healing my limiting beliefs that I mentioned previously.
If anyone has used Regeneration with their idea of success, what did you notice with it?
My plan is to use it for at least two-four weeks, during which time I’ll either continue with Emperor or just use RQ solo for a time.
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I just completed my first masked loop of RegenerationQ, and man. I’ve never gotten a headache from a sub, but by the time it was finished, I could feel the beginnings of one. I attribute this to not having hydrated whatsoever today besides a Sprite and perhaps not eating enough the past couple of days.
I definitely feel many things happening in my head, and something going on in my body.
More later.
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Self Awareness Post.
I realize that on some inner level that I don’t like myself. That I’m not comfortable in my own body at times. That I seek validation in other people more than I validate myself. That I don’t see myself as being able to be successful, even though countless people growing up told me that I’m highly intelligent and that they can see me doing pretty much anything. That, while on a surface level I think I am capable, on the inside I have a subconscious fear of failure which contributes to my perfectionist mindset.
This mindset causes me to not want to try something because I’m afraid of failure. Like, (5:55 AM atm) starting a business. Opening my childhood dream of creating a world-class German Shepard breeding business. And other things. I think this mindset also causes me to subconsciously “pose” myself in a manner that people I encounter will like and accept. I used to pride myself on being a chameleon. I used to read Eric Van Lustbader’s Jason Bourne series and I got very good at fitting in to any situation. I came to the realization in recent years that I don’t have a solid understanding of who I AM, and makes me…me. And that kind of bothered me.
Having goals in life has stressed me out since childhood. I would get anxiety and clam up if someone asked me where I saw myself in five years. Even to this day, I detest the question. Where does that come from? I can’t say… But it’s something I do wish to change.
I have an inner longing to be something, something major. And success, just like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. But my idea of success (unlike beauty) is very tenuous. I could say that being at the head of a major corporation is successful. But I don’t know if I’d truly be happy in that capacity, therefore that would be unsuccessful for me.
Owning a chain of properties that I rent out to people would be amazing. That is in fact one of my goals. I’ve been working on my credit partly for the attainment of that goal. But the idea of having to learn all about how that would work is stressful to me. That’s another thing I would like to transform before I’m thirty.
I have resistance to long term relationships as well which I think is why I sometimes have the conflicts I do with my family and love interests. I grew up in foster care so I’m pretty sure that has something to do with it.
I think that I will be journaling in this manner on a somewhat frequent basis as I use RegenerationQ in order to vent my thoughts and to be able to track process. One, for mental health and two, for a form of action as besides meditation and mindfulness, I am unsure what sort of actions to take with RQ.
More later.
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Are you an ENTP personality by any chance? 
I just took a personality test as it has been a little while, and my result came back as INTP
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I took a second one just to be sure, and got the same result lol. Why do you ask? You seem a perceptive fellow from the posts I’ve read.
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Welxome to the club! I am INTP too, along with Saint (and Fire too I think).
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Oh wow, that’s interesting lol. According to the teeny bit that I scanned on INTP’s, it’s like 3% of people that have this personality type. Which would make sense to me, cuz most people don’t.
I can see myself feeling like this if I understood it right. Like craving for attention from anyone, even i know it’ll not serve me but for the dopamine spike. I also have fears regarding my career that if i will fail at a particular point. All these experiences are getting daily things on EQ.
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Btw how to take a personality test ? If i am not wrong on youtube ?
I’ll respond to that first message in a bit. As for the personality test, I simply googled “personality test” and took the very first one, as well as the one based off of Carl Jung and a couple other chaps.
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