Jan 22, 2021 - Day 5
Regeneration 1 loop
Break
Elixir 1 loop
Day 5 was pretty hectic for me and given how I had already gotten in few extra loops of both Regeneration & Ultima by accident while asleep during the early hours; I took it easy during the day.
I found myself to be slightly more irritated.
Dreams:
- I dreamt of my beloved/SP. This was actually a nightmare. I find myself getting ready and wondering which colour to paint my nails, the scene switches and I find myself hugging him while he pushes me back and says “conflict”. I then get the sense that there’s someone else in the picture (not necessarily another women but some sort of an external influence). The scene switches again with him storming away while both his grandmothers and grandfather are standing there looking at me while I’m yelling at the top of my lungs, “You broke my heart, you really broke my heart”. I then wake up and find myself having laboured breathing and sweats.
Note: My beloved has only 1 set of grandparents so I did also feel the presence of his late paternal grandmother.
I calmed myself (it was around 4AM), told myself this was just my fear being pushed out for me to enact this in the dream realm so I can release this fear and let it go; not necessarily something that will manifest in the 3D.
- The second dream, very interestingly seemed to have been a continuation of the first one; in this scene, I’m at the hospital and see my beloved admitted. I am not aware of why he’s there or what’s wrong, but found myself enveloped with the feeling of this scenario being the “conflict” he talked about in the first dream. I find this so strange because after waking up from dream 1 and soothing myself, my subconscious mind seems to have found another more justifiable root cause for the “conflict”. Or perhaps this was just a continuation of dream 1 which was cut short when I woke up mid-way.
This concludes Day 5.