1x Rebirth Q, 1x EQ this morning.
Hopefully the mental fog, irritation and mood swings I experienced this weekend would be rectified. I want a calm Emperor, not one that gets easily irritated, insecure or has unnecessary mental jibber jabber. I’m honestly disappointed with myself this past weekend, but we’ll see.
I’m logging this in for future reference and to compare my mental states as I progress with these programs.
Good thing @Sage_Ninjistic mentioned this in his journal, but I too did not smoke this weekend. There was temptation during the height of the mood swings and irritability, but there was something at back of my mind asking me “why am I tempted to smoke?” “Why add to your hassles?” “You know it doesn’t help you, it’s just temporary and then you’ll use it as a crutch while weakening your lungs” You’ll smell this on your hands for hours? Aren’t you irritated enough?"
I could chalk up the mood swings and irritation from not smoking the cigarettes but then again, the fact I did not want to (even when I kind of did… ) was remarkable.
Strange thoughts but correct thoughts. Could be anything but I feel this is EQ for some reason that escapes me.