I hear you. I think about this a lot too. A long time ago, I onced dreamed of being in politics, because I thought I could make a change for the better, but as I grew older, I realize that arena would chew me up and spit me out without blinking. It’s not for me.
One of the reasons why I avoid social media, aside from the noise, is that as a human being I can’t help but compare my situation with the facade I’m seeing, and not what’s true behind the camera.
This reminded of an observation I had many years ago.
I was at a bank, and I was waiting for my turn. I tend to observe people when I have nothing else to do, and I saw this older gentleman, he was in maintenance, he was working hard, doing lots of stuff, and I could only imagine the hardship he had to endure day in and day out.
Then this boisterous manager shows up, laughing, flirting around with the clerk etc. Acting like this big honcho tool. I then thought about the disparity of the situation there. I doubt that manager is anymore hard working than this man, but here he is, seems to be having the time of his life.
So I thought why is this? Why is this our reality? Is it a cosmic lottery and should I just accept the cards I’m dealt with? How do I get to enjoy? You know, being one of the “lucky” ones.
To this day I don’t know the exact answer to that. All I know is that I need to change my mindset, cause everything starts from there. This is what the subs are doing for us bro.
I recognize my concious mind is corrupted, limited and shackled by everyday programming and conditioning. I’m fighting back with subs man.