PizzaShaman’s journal - Ongoing

10/25 Morning Time!

Day 10 THC free.
Morning Qi gong completed!
1.5 min ALCH2
1.5 min InnerWork

Processing Break until 10/30

Time marches on.

Yesterday was interesting. Hmm. I type that often. Better than “Yesterday was boring”, I suppose.
Anyways. I felt like poo, even after qi gong. I considered taking another sick day as I wasn’t sure if I could make it through a shift. That feeling washed away in the shower however, and I went in.

I was walking up to my building when I heard the fire alarm going off. What an auspicious start! :rofl:

The meal services went well enough. I was busy but able to keep up fine. I had some fancy footwork and spins going on, putting pizzas in and pulling them out of the oven.

The staff received some disheartening news regarding our benefits; some things are being cut come the start of the new year. For me, it means that my wife will have to get on her own health insurance through her job, as mine will no longer cover her (as her employer offers it, one of the criteria for coverage now). The rest of it doesn’t affect me. Retirement contributions will be done, but since economic collapse is my retirement plan, I don’t worry about that. My wife and I will have to see if her employer has the better deal on insurance now. Weeeeeee!

On the other hand, all hourly employees are getting a raise start of the year too, and my department qualifies. Another department at my place of employment is sponsoring a “Rowvember” and offering a rower as the prize to whomever rows the most meters during the month. I read it and said that if they want to give me one so bad, I’ll take it. So, rowing challenge for next month! I don’t know who else competes in this, so I’m aiming for at least 250,000 meters.

“No Nut Rowvember”—next month’s challenge.

Gymfather and I had a couple good chats. He’s aware of my T break and is supportive. He’s a great indicator for my internal landscape; if I’m all out of sorts internally, if I’m parked on Recon Street, he’s not inclined to speak to me. I had been taking it personally (and hard) but with all the reflective time I had this past weekend, I learned that if I just detach a bit I’ll be fine and I can continue to reap the benefits of lessons learned. His HD profile is 2/4, and his hermit nature is pronounced.

He has floated the idea of a DnD night with some of our other coworkers, and seems pretty excited to be the Dungeon Master. I was asked if I’d be interested. I’ll go a few times since I played back in high school. Something fun for after work one night a week. It shouldn’t interfere with anything else I have going on.

I had a minor disagreement with my wife after work regarding subs and journaling. She thinks I harp too much on journaling and keeping a listening schedule and should be aware she’s different from me and does things accordingly. I countered with how is she supposed to note progress apart from an ‘in your face’ result without keeping some sort of written record?

My corrections of her lately are my Judgemental nature rearing it’s head. I had that realization last night. Something the THC kept on a tight leash by keeping my energy low. :slight_smile: Something new to tame, I suppose.

My son’s bench press is up to 205lbs, apparently. He’s going to be a beast if he keeps this up.

I’ll be finding time to row today, likely after work.

New SSX is intriguing, but I’m not instabuying and playing this one. No point at the moment. Maybe after the 6 month T break and on the swing back to hedonism.

:pizza: :pray:t2:

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10/26 Morning Time!

Day 11 THC free.
Morning Qi gong completed!

Slept like poo again. I was able to get to bed before midnight but kept waking up.

Work was busy yesterday, but that was to be expected given the meals served. Some days have a poorly chosen menu, imo, so that sends more business my way. Today will be similar, save I have to find time to get some prep done for this weekend’s event.

A few of my coworkers are starting a DnD tabletop campaign group and tonight should be the first meetup for that. We’ll see if it pops off or not. I played back in high school so I’m a bit familiar, although it’s on 5th edition now. I decided on a half-elf monk. Something fun, I suppose, but I don’t want to get too invested in it. I certainly don’t want it to interfere with Rowvember.

Time will tell.

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10/27 Morning Time!

Day 12 THC free.
Morning Qi gong completed!

Again with the poor sleep! I’m so tired of it.
:rofl: :sob:

I was out late with the coworkers playing Dungeons and Dragons. It was interesting to be the sober one; everyone else was partaking. I wasn’t tempted in the slightest, which is a good sign. Thanks HeroWork! Still had a great time. Our party had a couple fights and my monk cleaned house.

Yesterday was a day! I realized after journaling that I was mistaken in my assumption of my start time: I ended up being a half hour late to work. As I come striding in to get set up, a young lady asked if I “got her email?”.

No miss, I didn’t have time to check!

“Oh, well the Dance Team is having an event in the middle of November, and you were nominated to participate!”

My first thought was, “Oh shit, a HeroWork manifestation! Dance Mastery is in there!”

I said, “I don’t know how to dance though!”

Young lady said that was fine, they can work with that. I told her I’d look over the email then and get back to her. In reading it, they are doing a “Dancing with the Stars” type event, and were looking for some professors and staff to do a 2 minute dance to ‘get the crowd pumped up’ and ‘help bring in an amazing crowd’. Then it sorta clicked for me: If I were to agree to participate, putting PizzaShaman on the roster would certainly bring in a bigger crowd. I’m very popular on campus.

While I would love to learn dance, and can feel it inside when I listen to music, I’m not interested in performing in front of the student body at my place of employment, given my lack of skill. I’d also have to use PTO for the single practice (not enough for this guy) and the event itself, while my department has staffing issues.

Still very flattering, I suppose, and a prime example for me of the power of these manifestations via SUBS!

We had a speaker at the college yesterday, talking about gun control and moving forward. The name would be recognized if I put it here. He’s nationally known and quite vocal. :upside_down_face: PizzaShaman is on the other side of that issue. I wasn’t going to go to the lecture or anything, I was just quite surprised when I turned around at one point and there was the guy at my station! He was taller than I expected, and he was grabbing a couple slices of pineapple pizza. I knew he was getting a catered meal later on, as one of my coworkers was preparing it. I guess lunch was in the cafeteria.


Today I have a bunch of prep to get done for the open house tomorrow. It’s doable. I’m also looking for time to row tonight. I’ll find it.

:pizza: :pray:t2:

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The harshest judgement I face comes from myself.

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10/30 Evening Time!

Fell offa that wagon.

30 seconds HeroWork
3 minutes ALCH2
3 minutes AsC

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11/1 Morning Time!

Rowvember!
Day 1- 10k meters, 51ish minutes. I’ll upload the pic later.

Listening Day as well. Hmmm. Before I do that, I’ll note here that I didn’t have a bout of recon yesterday, like I normally would after the Monday listen. Either I am adjusted to that amount of HeroWork, and I can go up to 45 seconds next time, or the reduction in playtime of Ascension Chamber helped reduce recon. I think next week I’ll increase HW’s playtime by 15 seconds and keep AsC the same, and note what I can.

3 minutes ALCH2
1.5 min InnerWork

Taking last Friday off was beneficial. I may do that again this week. I’ll have to see how I feel guided on that morning. I’m also feeling that I should start Alchemist stage 3 soonish. Hmmm. I’ll start Awakening on 11/20, I think. That feels right.

Last Friday was a day. My wife sort of confronted me about my recent lack of physical affection, a byproduct of my cessation of bad habits. My ascetic version was getting stuff done, but my wife doesn’t care for that guy. :upside_down_face: Unfortunate.

I did learn I was capable of such a state, and it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. Further, an interesting chain of events from a conversation with my daughter reconnected me with a powerful memory from my youth: Performing a choir solo in front of a packed auditorium at age 14. I was right back there, when I had that first recollection! I had long forgotten that; can’t believe I did it in the first place.

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Rowvember 2nd!

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What I learned during my last bout of constipation:

It feels good to let go of old shit!

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Rowvember 3rd!

1.5 min ALCH2

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Rowvember 4th!

Damn cut almost 4 minutes off! The power of SR!

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Remember, remember the fifth of Rowvember!

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Rappy Rowvember!!!

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Rowvember 6th!

3 minutes ALCH2
45 seconds HeroWork
3 minutes AsC

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Rowvember 7th!

Personal stretch goal: 300k meters this month and I’ll get myself a fun custom as a reward.

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Rowvember 8th

Now 12.5k is getting easier…

3 min ALCH2
1.5 min InnerWork

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100k meters done, 9 days in. 21 to go!

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The 10th!

3 min ALCH2
1 min HeroWork

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