Not really. I’m running it right now. I also ran RoM for 4 cycles. I just wish I stacked both. RoS does something interesting: whatever is not “you” slowly falls by the way side. I’ll call it a self-discovery sub.
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I said for some people 
You my friend are a good exception of those some people. That’s a compliment 
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It sounds like you experienced a spiritual opening.
In other words, as paradoxical and facetious as it may sound, you got exactly what you were working for.
The Golden Principle with these things is “take the path seriously but don’t take yourself too seriously”.
You’re probably doing just fine with that, but I’m putting it here as a reminder anyway.
We, here on this forum, are all working at various forms of personal growth or life change. And one useful way to categorize such endeavors is in terms of ‘Content’ and ‘Frame’ (or ‘Form’ or ‘Structure’).
The “Content” orientation adds to/adjusts/rearranges the substance and ‘content’ that fills your life. Job. Relationship. Vocation. Physical health. Whatever. It’s about rearranging, changing, or reorganizing what is in your life so that it better suits your preferences, desires, values, and so on.
The “Frame” orientation, in contrast, works with your Capacity, the amount of experiencing that you can accommodate.
Spiritual Growth often primarily evolves your Capacity.
And so, as Capacity evolves, there are periodic cycles of fullness and emptiness, Connection and Loneliness, Passion and Disinterest.
Here is a full bottle of water that can hold up to 33.75 oz of water.
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Here is a glass jar that holds up ot 40 oz.:
If you pour the water from the bottle into the jar, the jar will be fairly close to capacity. It will feel pretty full.
On an experiential level, that’s similar to what we know as passion.
The experiences of your life are “filling up” and fully stimulating your mind.
But if you go through a spiritual opening what happens is that your glass jar “grows”.
What was originally a 40 oz glass jar is now:
A gallon (128 fl ounces).
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Now, because the jar has grown, the same amount of water that had us pretty close to full is only going to get us up to about 25% capacity.
Note: Nothing changed about the content. It’s still the same amount of water.
But because the frame, the structure, the capacity have changed; now the entire experience feels different.
Now there’s a feeling of emptiness, almost depression. Why has “life changed so much”? we ask. “Why does what used to fill me up, now leave me feeling empty, underwhelmed, or under-stimulated?”
Life hasn’t changed; but our capacity for life has.
In the weeks and months that follow, we will gradually accept and allow more water into the jar. As this happens, we’ll notice that the jar is getting fuller and fuller. Concurrently, our sense of passion, engagement, and stimulation will return; and this time at a somewhat higher level.
Ironically, as this happens, we’ll actually begin to complain that we don’t feel as “spiritual” as we used to back when we were in that angst of emptiness. (Many things look better in the glow of nostalgia.) We feel passionate, but not as open and balanced.
This then prompts more inner work, which leads to yet another expansion:
and the cycle continues.
You have grown.
You will gradually explore and find what is most meaningful to you in this current phase and iteration of your life.
Try to trust the process, while, at the same time, participating actively in it.
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