you know…that is I think what the problem is right now…
I am overwhelmed in so many directions that I haven’t written down what I really want.
at one point I begin self-guided learning to expand some of my knowledge to which I know I could have gotten a good raise or secured a position, however, the layoff came and hit in a way that destroyed that motivation so decided to focus back on the business…
I think what I really want is to push away from corporate life altogether… maybe for another short term I’ll try to manage it but in the meantime, I need to build another foundation for my income…that is where I want to push my motivation…
also was focusing on working out and getting back in shape, but a minor but sensitive injury got in the way (was going to use Spartan however given I might push towards EMP Black Solo… I am going to push on the workout without the sub)
but yeah, in all honesty, I need to start writing down what it is that I want, besides somewhat telling my self what I want I should be physically writing it down and getting action items on a schedule… but damn I am just mentally exhausted.