Before I forget. Ran one loop of QL Qv2 ST1 last night and I had a mini nightmare.
That’s funny. My mind was probably jolted by the extra juice.
One loop of QL 1 day on, 1 day off, weekend rest, seems to be alright for me. I ran one loop of AM some days ago, and I felt pretty good. (Got a bonus income actually, so I need to pay more attention)
I don’t know if I’ll see the same status I enjoyed on EQ but I felt it was less… stressful if that makes sense.
It’s not that EQ was stressful perse, specially Qv2 (which I was more social) but I felt lighter on AM. Wish there was a version with Limitless and SM and that would have been a much more compelling alternative to my favorite sub.
I’m still on track to make my first custom, but right now I’m figuring out if that first custom would be EQ or AM centric.
After the initial nightmare on QL, it never happened again. QL is here to stay for the long term.
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Hmm seems I spoke to soon. I’m having some nasty recon today, extremely irritable. I’ll take it easy and watch something funny or something.
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It was my rest and yet I was pretty productive yesterday. I had to fix and make something work, and it’s quite tricky, it’s like there’s a new obstacle or puzzle once I get past what was blocking me. (I’m not even mad… that’s amazing.)
Lo and behold before the day ended, I did it. I just hope it still works in the morning, cause I have a hammer on standby.
What was another surprise was I did it with remarkable patience too, after the initial increased irritation during the early part of the day. I’m attributing this mental fortitude and clarity mainly to QL.
Sadly the chronic pain came back, I still think EQ has helped me in this regard… hmm what do I do… 
I’m sure after I clear the emotional and mental cobwebs, the answer would be crysal clear.
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I noticed I am much more productive and I enjoy finishing tasks, even moreso than before. I’ve always liked being productive, but stress and life circumstances has dampened my enthusiasm, but so far I’m like on autopilot. I’m attributing this to QL ST1.
On another note, things have mellowed out a bit and then the pangs starts again. I am asking myself why do I need to live this way, in constant worry and feeling like the carpet can suddenly pulled under my feet. I don’t like this. I want stability, steady growth and progress. Happy progress.
Aside from the wonder that is QL, I am leaning towards AM (and maybe Stark), my goal is stability, both inside and outside. I could do less with life’s challenges and more good news, sudden good breaks and pleasant synchronicities.
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Feeling some anxiety today. There’s a reason behind it, but this level of anxiety is a bit over the top for the situation, if I think objectively. Drinking chamomile tea.
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Good to see you on your journal, bro. And even more awesome to see that you are appreciating the pleasant experiences you are having.
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Ahh thank you bro 
I didn’t think I’d appreciate my current subs as much, but I’m just letting the more immediate goals guide me this time.
Hope you’re enjoying as well
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Running mostly health and cognitive programs. QL is steadily helping me, I’m starting to realize I’m recalling things better lately; It’s a pleasant surprise, I need a lot of work in that department.
Paragon is my Ultima of choice right now, if it didn’t arrive, it would be the legendary Elixir which helps to heal both body and mind, but sadly there are times I feel like I’m falling apart like an old car with lots of mileage. I need the extra help from Paragon.
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I’ve been running Paragon and Sanguine, and I am feeling better both emotionally and physically. There are things I felt on my body that gave me concern, and I feel Paragon is helping me a lot in this regard, while Sanguine is calming my mind as it always did. It’s a formidable tag team, add to that the power of QL ST1.
I am definitely making progress in the lessons I am learning. I wish I started QL sooner, I wonder how many new and marketable skills I would have learned if I started months ago. Regardless this is what I am liking about my stack, this optimism, because without it I’m running on fumes.
I like the feeling of looking forward to something good, and seeing it as a very definite possibility and not a pipe dream; But that’s the thing, with these subs, what used to be pipe dreams, eventually transforms into definite possibilities as time goes on. The boundaries of what is possible is expanding as well. I’m excited for what the future brings.
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Amen, bro 
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Planning to run 3 titles, every other day all ZP.
I am looking forward to this new chapter in my journey, to discover the self, and to find gifts within, remove the cobwebs, and remove burdens that I did not choose to have. To thine own self be true, and I feel ZP will help me do just that.
Now to force myself not to constantly check the time.
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I’m using my phone to help me stick with the guidelines.
This new listening time and pattern is great, I’m almost done with my stack for the day.
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A few hours after my first loop of Chosen and I noticed my voice was deeper, which was a reminiscent of Emperor.
I felt positive. Not in an excited or energetic way, but more mellow. I felt that everything was going to be okay. There was this ember of inner confidence and hope; Not yet as strong but it was there. I know in time it will fan the flames of courage and ambition that has dwindled within me.
This was a breath of fresh air as the months prior had been tumultuous, and though there were a few highs, there’s plenty more lows and anxiety and stress was getting to me. Emperor helped me navigate through these trying times, and without it’s guidance, I probably would have been further lost in this dark forest; but I also felt some anger within, anger at circumstances, at faith, at myself for letting things happen the way they did, not being able to protect some people I cared for deeply, and not being as effective as I believed or hoped myself to be, and just general nihilism. I was a very harsh critic of myself, and I expected more, a lot more. This was not the way, and I am ashamed for not being in a reality that I wanted.
I did not feel this like this everyday, but it’s been a while since I woke up in the morning, genuinely looking up to something good. I felt the wave of calm hope and confidence came from Chosen.
As for Wanted, I had gotten several compliments yesterday, as though as if I was running Stark for the first time. Stark almost always manifested this for me like clockwork. I am trying my best not to read too much journals in the meantime, though tempting as it may so I can watch ZP unfold in my life like an eager spectator. I cannot do this for long though, one of my favorite things to do is read up in the forums, positive results has always been a source of fuel for me to stay true to my stack and imagine the possibilities.
I’ll be strict to honor the guidelines, and utilizing siri to remind myself to take a break in 21 days, and resume after 5 days of washout.
Though my long awaited RICH ZP has finally arrived, I must practice discipline and run it tomorrow instead. I cannot wait to see the effects from that, I have several avenues and potential sources of income that has stagnated, and a jolt from RICH is what I need to fertilize these prospects.
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3rd day: First time to run Rich ZP. The reviews aren’t kidding, I am feeling drowsy. I feel good, no anxiety but I feel like taking a nap.
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This is how exactly I feel, I didn’t know if it was RICH or CHOSEN. I wonder if a sub in ZP conflicts with how you feel things in terms of a wide gap of how your mind looks at the world compared to what the sub is doing, it just about knocks you out as a form of reconciliation.
Yes, that could be. It’s probably energy intensive for us in the beginning, as Rich reconciles with our mindset.
I remember one of my most intense recon was with Stark. I’m mostly introverted, and my personality needed to reconcile with Stark’s penchant for the limelight, add to that the cognitive upgrades.
I was having a cup of coffee while listening to Rich and I suddenly felt I wanted to take a nap. It’s probably tackling some pretty serious limiting beliefs within me, and I’m cheering it on, now that I think about it.
Keep at it mate. Hope we break through whatever is blocking our paths.
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Day 4. Rest day.
Feeling more centered than usual. I feel more understanding. I still get irked at times, but then my mind automatically suggest why that feeling isn’t productive, and shifts to more useful and prudent action, thought or feeling instead.
i.e. right now, as I type, my environment is noisy and I get derailed from my train of thought, but something inside me feels like an anchor, and I’m still proceeding to type. I had glimpses of what Wanted can do and aiming for, and I welcome it, but alongside it, I’m discovering Chosen with my own eyes and I’m excited to see the possibilities.
As for Rich. Ah… Monaco, Lambo and Caviar. That’s the life I want. Rich all the way. Life is too short, I want to enjoy now.
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Day 5. Running Wanted/Chosen
I had the most vivid dream in recent memory. Very trippy.
Something I recall from yesterday; I was able to finish a task that was quite tedious and something I would have probably postponed or delayed. On first glance it was something I’d prefer not to do, but I compartmentalized, and finish the whole thing one step at a time.
In the end I was surprised I was able to do it, and I did it well. I’m attributing this resilience, patience and extra energy boost that came out of nowhere with Chosen.
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Day 6. Rest day.
Not a lot of updates in the meantime. I’m eating a lot more lately and I did find a bonus from a service I use. Very little, more like a token gift but that came out of nowhere and I was pleasantly surprised when I saw it.
Perhaps my wealth ceiling or blockage is being addressed and there is more to come, the growth, exponential.
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