The heaviest, nastiest recon ever for me was with Stark, about a month in. Three days in which I wanted to die and had the worst headache of my life.
I think you are on the spot with the why.
That time I was so scared and felt so exposed, I even deleted my journals in here.
Now a year after I feel totally different about myself, introvert is a word I no longer identify with… quite the contraire… I feel I can easily talk with anyone, whenever I want… and I can be very seductive with my words.
This sounds wonderful. I’m close to switching to Stark for good. EQ is the one most aligned with my personality, but what if I’d get the most growth if I went the other direction, you know?
Thanks @anon2351792. I was just reading your journal btw.
I found that to be true more often than not. Why pick a sub that fits our personality when we can expand it in a different, unexpected but awesome direction.
@Apollo @anon2351792
I can’t remember where i watch this training video i think it most likely was about self help but the summary was that people take all there live working on weaknesses and not end up anyway with that somethings right, but if you know yourself well enough and improve what you already good at then use it to improve the weaknesses then thing go much smoother
I think the combo of Khan Stark sounds like the Goldilocks for what I can improve or lacking in my personality. On one hand I don’t want to lose that masculine edge, I grew up without that influence and I need to get that masculine reinforcement from somewhere, but at the same time I want to be more comfortable among people, and to talk and to actually enjoy the interaction without being in my head thinking what to say next or if I said something that might have caused offence.
I wish EQ was this way, but I noticed I’m just a lot more quiet. It could be DR ST2’s recon, so I’m still pushing through, although there are times I’m tempted to rush DR so I can use my other subs…
Day 38
Dragon Reborn ST 2
EQ
PS
Patience my young Apollo. The fruits will yield great rewards for your sustain efforts.
Still dragon-ing on, brother 
I’m sure it will be worth it.
My worst reconciliation and my greatest rewards… 
I can totally relate to growing up this way i been planning out a khan custom for next year and recently been thinking that i will remove all emotional healing in it but the only thing some are really goal and work help that masculine edge
just a thought brother,
why not combine EQ with True social/dare devil?
i think they are the perfect subs aiming at social ease and dominance, maybe you could get less
recon since starkQ is pretty dense and have more inside then these 2.
i really like your stack, i’ll probably adopt it and replace DR with True social/Daredevil
when i will do dr, it will be combined with Elixir alone hehe
Keep at it.
It turned for me a week into St3 and became positive and optimistic.
I´m now 4 days into St4 and it´s even better.
Like stepping into the light!
I don’t have you on my Sibling-hood of the Dragon list. How long have you been on DR?
Oh i’m not on dr as of right now haha
i was just pointing out that i’ll probably copy his stack and replace DR with a social sub
edit: when i will be on dr ill probably run it solo for couple of monthes. i think dr might overpower other subs so it better to run it alone
It might. However some people report other SC programs they run work better when running DR.
ST2 is not pleasant, at least not for me. No sense of balance, and some of my gains are eroding right before my eyes. I know it’s just temporary and I’m still going to push through. This thing feels like it’s tearing me apart from the inside.
Day 39
Dragon Reborn ST 2
EQ
PS
Just to note, I broke my streak. I didn’t feel like working out. Maybe next week, I don’t care…
I’m feeling lethargic, switching between feeling anxious or being despondent.
Hey
No fret just remember tomorrow is a new day. Things can be or look bleak today and tomorrow you can wake up and make it 1000x better.
Hope your week gets better
St2 is a tough test, only for the brave… keep going!!